steph0823’s BodyBlog

Well I set a goal of Saturday  being the day of getting back in the gym since the Motorcycle accident onWednesday and I did it.  My hips are still killing me though and my body is a little sore but I cant take it just sitting here at home feeling like a blob.  I know my body needs rest so I really didnt push it at the gym today, did legs and abs and when my body said it had had enough I stopped.  I really dont want to over do it and make any thing worse.  Anyways, I feel better that I went, was able to get some anger out on the weights.  But YAY me for getting back there and not letting this accident get me down and out any longer. 

This is really starting to get on my nerves and I know everyone means well but still…..  I eat I really do! So why does everyone have to follow me around to make sure I am stuffing food in my face all the time?  When I left the Navy I was sitting at a cushy 150-155, I had a nice round face, nice round booty, thunder thighs to boot.  I started to loose weight around Halloween 2007 and everyone started to become worried about me, saying OMG what is happening to Stephanie, something is wrong with her, she doesnt look right, this isnt healthy for her to be loosing weight like this.  Well I started back working April 14th where I was when I was on active duty and one of the doctors is constantly saying "are you eating?" "are you eating ENOUGH?" "your face is way too thin!" I have even had a full blood work up done because of having the weight coming off too fast back in Jan so I know I dont have a thyroid problem or any other underlying problem.  But geez, now I have my husband following me around with food shoving food in my mouth all the time saying if your going to be lifint weights you need to eat.  Like tonight I had one piece of pizza, I was full after that but NOOOOOOOOOOO he said you need to eat more than one piece so to satisfy him I ate another piece.  WTF…. why cant people just leave me alone.  I am eating, I eat breakfast, a snack, lunch, a snack and dinner.  GEEZ, get off my back!  Now i have him sitting here next to me on his laptop ordering some protein for me "just to make sure I am getting enough protein in my diet"  so I dont have to hear crap from anyone anymore!  Who would have thought trying to get in better shape would be such a PITA! I mean seriously!  Its almost easier to be fat and deal with just giving yourself a shot for diabeties than to get harassed by everyone!

Ok so today was shoulders and arms…. yeah I moaned, bitched, complained, gripped the whole way thru, making faces, cussing up a storm like my old sailor self that I am….  Im sure the Marines in the gym got a kick out of my mouth, f^ck this, this f^ckin sucks, why am i doing this again?  LOL  but John is very supportive, motivating me the whole way saying "come on baby one more time, you can do it"  I really think he miss counts sometimes but I give it a few more extra lifts just incase he does because I dont want to cheat myself and give it my all.  But today…. man…. I lifted to the point I thought I was going to vomit.  He wanted to do one last exercise and as we were doing it….  I just couldnt do any further…. As I was lifting I could feel it rumbling and had to stop.  Now I know what everyone is talking about.  John said its a rite of passage….whatever!  but now I feel like i had a good workout, every freakin muscle in my body is burning.  Anyways……  hopefully legs will be easier they are my strong suite…..maybe, we will see.

I felt like crap yesterday, just plain shitty!  Woke up with a headache.  Thought maybe it was a lack of my diet coke.  Slammed one.. nope.  Maybe stress with my husband coming home from this long deployment?  Could be?  Regardless, the headache never went away.  I felt like a blob on the couch all day, slept most of the day and still couldnt get it to go away.  Went to bed, woke up, felt like crap still.  Had already decided after work I was going to hit the gym no matter how busy my schedule is.  I normally have soccer for the kids but it rained all night and all day so it was canceled so I was able to hit the gym without feeling guilty or rushed for that matter!  I was able to get in a full solid 30 minutes of cardio and then hit the road to get Zak from daycare.  Leaving there I felt better and the headache had finally gone away. It really is amazing how just going to the gym can make you feel better.  AHHHHHHHH  Now if I could find that magic wand and get this house cleaned before Friday! 

Kinda funny…  Today the kids and I were out running errands, stopped by Wendy’s to grab lunch.  I was dressed casual I guess, jean shorts, Roxy t-shirt and flip-flops.  A bunch of lawn guys came in while we were ordering our food.  I took the kids to go get every situated and go back to wait FOREVER for them to fix our food and I got the "man check her out", "nice legs" as I walked by.  I had to laugh.  Then as we left all of them watched as I walked from one side of the resturant to the other to leave.  HAHA, mission accomplished! 

Now I need to set my sights towards another goal, I think this one is more muscle, tighter abs and lowering my body fat by July 4th… 

So my "goal" was to get to the gym this week after work.  I started working this week for the good ‘ol government and my hours are AWESOME well I think so…. 645-330, but I feel so crushed/rushed for time since Im a one team parent til Friday the 25th when John returns from deployment. 

Monday Taylor and Zak have tball/soccer both have soccer at 6

Tuesday Tay-low has softball for 2hrs 630-8

Wedesday Zak has tball/soccer both have soccer at 6

Thursday Tay-low has softball for 2hr 630-8

Not to mention I have to get Zakman from Daycare, make sure homework is done and checked over, dinner, the house…  This week has been so trying on me.  I know the gym would help even if only for cardio for 30 min but man….. where will I fit in the time.  I thought if I did it right after work at 330 go right over to the gym its right on base but that would put me at the daycare at about 5 then I would really be pulling out my hair to get to the after school actitives on time and to make sure everything else was done. 

But yet I feel the need to take care of ME.  What about me.  Im am the 1st one to always worry about everyone elses needs, hence the running around making sure the kids are at practice on time.  Like tomorrow, both kids need to be at 2 seperate fields at the same time…… its been this way all soccer season but do you think it will be that way next Saturday when John is home…..HAHAHA NOOOOOO WAY!!!!  One game is at 935, the other at 330! figures!  deep sigh….  I guess I will continue to just run around like a chicken with my head cut off for another week, do my sit ups and squats and light stuff at home while my shows are on, continue to eat right then the week after when my relief gets here I will hit the gym. well this weekend I will for sure. 

 Dang with was supposed to be a small little rant. 

Body fat… BLAH!!!!! I had mine tested today and it was at 21%.  I was thinking like 19% maybe… but 21%….  I mean… I am at the thinest I have been ever, even when I was working out with a trainer in San Diego and he was kicking my butt an hour a day and I was at 23-25%.  I really am in the best shape of my life I think.  The guy who tested me a the gym was like "you look great, I dont get why every female in this area wants low low body fat?" Well I know where all my fat is sitting….  in my big ol tush, the hips, the thighs.  I have a feeling those areas are going to be my biggest problem areas on really getting them to go away.  Makes me want to go eat a chocolate cake but noooooooooooooooooo, I had a real YUMMY strawberry protein shake…. delious!!! (sarcasm kickin in as I roll my eyes)  Well I guess I have offically set a goal for my body fat, is 15% by 4th of July unrealistic?  I mean seriously if I am kickin my own ass in the gym on a regualr basis, lifting, I eat good so thats not a big deal.  Well off to my corner to sulk…..

That was EXHILARATING!!!!  Seriously I could not sleep all night long.  I think I was worried I was going to oversleep.  You know how you get the 1st day jitters for work, school, something like that… well thats how I was.  Waking up checking the clock although I knew my son or dogs would get me up 1st.  My daughter was staying the night over at a friends house so I had to go get her before I went to the gym so she could watch Zak.  Got to the gym, decided I would just do the Precor, I loved that thing when it 1st came out.  Last night I was thinking the bike would be best since my left foot is so jacked up but they didnt have the bikes I like, like the ones you would use for spinning classes, so Precor it was…..  Just like the good ‘ol days, pumped up the tunes and cranked out 45 minutes of sweat dripping, glute hurtin cardio.  Well I guess not like the ‘ol days because back then I had the big ol cd player that AWAYS feel off the cardio machines and you had to stop every 3 min to pick it up cussing every step of the way….  Which reminds me I need to get a case for my new ipod. 

BUT MAN DO I FEEL GOOD!!!  Later tonight I will do my abs, some squats and possibly break out the 2lb weights, lmao!!!! 

This pic is me right after the gym….  yeah Im a dork but whatever… 

Ok, yeah sure overall Im kinda satisfied with the results of how sitting on my butt for the past 6 months have come along, I mean really….. Normally arent stay at home moms who dont do shit supposed to get fat?  I really havent done anything…  pretty much as soon as the kids were out the door to school I went back to sleep for 3 hrs AFTER eating breakfast, then would get up, MAYBE do some homework, eat some lunch and would sit at the computer and chat with my husband all day til the kids got home from school.  Some how, some way I have managed to loose 30lbs and went from a size 12 down to an 8 and those are baggy on me so Im sure I can go to a 6 but man, i am really tired of buying new clothes and I know John is tired of me shopping.  Soooo I was really planning on waiting til he came back from deployment to start this working out stuff and kicking it back into high gear like I used to before all of my surgeries but today I decided to do my measurements and granted this past week was "that time of the month" and yeah sure Im a little bloated, I feel like crap about the measurements.  Everyone is super nice about their comments and it makes me feel good but when I look in the mirror it matters how I feel and how I feel is BLAH!!!!  My hips, my thighs, my butt, omg my butt…… dont get me started on that.  Yeah maybe I am being to hard on myself but I need to be. 

Soooooo tomorrow morning, 10am the gym opens up, for the next 20 days I will be in there like flys on pop on a hot summer day!  Mark my word!  No matter how tired, how I feel, no excuses!  I will be there!!!!  I start working on the 14th but good thing is, the gym is right on base so yea!! no excuse there!! and my hours are kick ass, so no excuse about having to get the kids, My new motto….. no excuses!!!! 

And I already eat healthy, tuna fish, chicken, egg whites, cottage cheese, yogurt (hmmm maybe the healthy eating might have something to do with the weight loss over the past 6 months) never thought of that…  who knows but I am happy with it but now I need to tone and build muscle!! 

Anyways….. no more waiting!  Tomorrow at 10am it begins, a new journey…. one I once followed everyday but stopped