steph0823’s BodyBlog

**this is going to be my blog about my recovery and why I havent been working out**

Just as I was really getting into the whole lifting weights thing over the summer I started experiencing really bad lower abdominal pains, something I have had since having my son in 2001 but it has been getting worse.  As I was doing a box jump one day I felt like my insides were about to fall out.  I went to the dr shortly after, ended up getting an ultrasound, sent to ob/gyn, everything came back normal, other than a small cyst on my ovary.  The dr couldnt explain why I was having so much pain daily, even with just daily activity, not even working out since I had scaled back my working out by this time.  He said he was going to try some pills to see if that helped for 2 months if not we would try a procedure to help with the pain. 

Nov/Dec comes around, Im still in pain, I researched the procedure he wanted to do, ablation, seemed like winner, I get that scheduled, still not working out, still cranky from not working out and boy does everyone feel it around me.   I undergo this surgery, very hopefully this will help and I will be back in the gym a few short weeks afterwords.  Feb 2nd I hit the gym, still in pain after my post op check and the dr gives me the ok.  He tells me everything looks great gives me the blessings to do whatever, but that Friday I am back in his office I cant take the pain and believe me I can deal with a great deal of pain, I have had 6 surgeries on my foot while in the Navy. 

While in his office he tells me the only other step is a hysterectomy at this point, we have done all the other course of treatments.  Even though I am young (I think he was being nice) he feels this is the best course of action now.  I cant go on living day to day with the pain or on pain pills.  My daily life is being affected, Im not the same person I was this time last year, the pain gets worse with each passing day, and MAN HOW I MISS THE GYM! I miss looking in the mirror flexing my muscles, seeing all those changes, now I just feel like a bag of ass constantly.  So he told me to think about the surgery, research it in great detail and get back with him.  I have found other women who have had symptoms like me who had it done and felt wonderful after, none have regretted it that I have found, and I am hoping that is what will happen for me.  My surgery is March 24th.  I will be down for 1 week, light work for a week, then getting back to my "normal self" after. 

I hope by the middle of April I will be updating my site with supersexy steph progress pics, hahahaha!

Today a girl I work with saw me on my bodyspace, well she sees me on it all the time actually but today she asked me "Steph, were you into fitness while you were on active duty?"  I told her "no, not really which was a shame.  If you look at my butt pics on my progess page you can see it was all crater like and gross."  She laughed.  She said "well what make you get into it AFTER leaving the Navy.?"  I then told her "really it was becuase I ate right for about 6 months and lost 30lbs and my clothes started to fall off of me, I started to fit into American Eagle clothes, the store I had been dying to get into.  Before I had to lube up my hips to get into size 12’s and cry because they didnt fit and sulk after walking out of the store because it was a skinny girl store and I was not a skinny girl and I hated that but I never did anything about it but after 6 months of eating right I was a skinny girl but I lacked muscle tone and definition so I felt the need to do something about that."  She agreed that certain stores are aimed towards skinnier girls and saw where I was coming from

 Fast foward to this weekend.  After a GRUELING and I mean GRUELING workout on Saturday I was still feeling the effects of it Sunday so out comes the camera and I was happy with the results. As I as drying off from the shower I looked in the mirror and saw a cute lat muscle coming out on both sides  and I squealed in delight.  I called my husband in to show him my new found friend on my back and he took some pics.  I told my friend from work about this in our conversation today and she said "Hmmmm, I see"  Anyways, I love the fact that my muscles are really starting to come in.  Some days I see them more so than others.  I really love the fact that I look forward to working out on a daily basis.  And I love the fact that when I started this journey I was a size 12 pushing a 14.  This weekend I had to go shopping for a dress for my husbands command function on Wednesday night…..  When we were shopping the lady said well what size are you, I told her hmmmm I think a 8 maybe.  She said NO WAY you have to be a 4.  Well I told her there was no way I was a 4 probably a 6.  Well i tried on the 6 first because I thought i was right because I am ALWAYS right, well i was wrong that dress was tooo big, the 4 fit!  Me a 4! WTF?!?!?!  I have never ever ever been a 4, never.  Seriously I think the manufacuters are making the clothes different but whatever, I’ll take it!  Anyways…..enough blogging for one night, whew thats alot!