sparklebear00’s BodyBlog

I won’t be working out. I think that is the best decision for me. I will live without one day of cardio..well just barely.

I think the problem is that I have just started eating (for a while I wasn’t eating much with any frequency), and I have bloated up. I know its just water, but the number going up on the scale stinks!

I don’t have to do cardio! I don’t have to do cardio? Maybe the more I repeat it it’ll begin to ring true. hahaha

No to cardio, but yes to Theraflu!

I am home sick feeling like absolute crap. Mostly the problem is my stuffy/runny nose. I have heard many things about cardio when sick. I was thinking something like sitting on a bike to avoid the woozy feeling. I think that may be a stupid idea(r) and I should just use my time to get better.

But I have been doing SO well! I feel like if I take a day off that I will have to reallllllly force myself to get up and go tomorrow. Ugh. And this screws up my weight lifting schedule too.

I know this post is all jumbled, as I have a lot of stuff going on in my head now about my health (depression and otherwise). Depression sucks. I haven’t been feling too hot lately. And now I don’t feel well physically. Is it a manifestation?

Okay, well I’m off because I can feel my nose starting to run again.

But I am going. I am GOING.

No, for real, this post was going to be different, but now I am forcing myself to get dressed and leave now.

I have been diagnosed with depression. Not only that, but I am not refusing to take medication. I am determined to deal with this naturally. It wasn’t brought on with chemicals, so why should I fight it with chemicals? But, now I am feeling myself slipping back into my super not fun "depressive funk." I have been to the gym rather regularly the past two weeks, and I LOVE the feeling I get after I have completed my cardio classes, but now I am feeling like I would rather take a nap.

I absolutely hate feeling this way, but I don’t know what to do to snap out of it. Do I go to the gym and hit it harder than normal? Today I walked out of the gym because I felt sick to my stomach at just being there. What is my deal? Ugh.
I have planned my workouts for the next week, and I also now have a notebook to document my weight training. This is so when I look back in 3 months, I can see how much of a badass lifter I am because of how far I have come. I started page one tonight in anticipation for tomorrow. We’ll see how it goes. I am also going to try to do my cardio and weight training at the same time. If I am so inclined I suppose I can do cardio at night too, but I need to focus on going once a day first.

The plan for tomorrow is the 10:30 spinning class, then working bi’s and tri’s, 3 exercises / 3 sets of 10 reps.

Let’s hope it all begins/ends well!