sonyamckinnon’s BodyBlog

So today has been a rough morning. Slept hard last night but wish my husband was here and not in so much danger sometimes. I miss him like the dickins and can’t do anything about ti. The only great thing that seems to come from the frustration of him being gone is I’m so pissed off and determined during my workouts guess the stress is someway in part a motivator to me. This morning I didn’t want to eat or drink water at all the thought made me kind of nauseous at tall but I knew I had to because the last week I have hardly eaten anything but sugar free jello and I have an appointment with my trainer. Oh Lord grant me strength for this day. Jason baby if you read this I love you and miss you something fearce. I cant’ wait to hug and kiss you. All my love. Sonya

Okay so I changed my eating and today is the first day of clean eating for me. I want to eat a horse…lol. Normally I am fine though out the day on my other diet to eat 3 meals with small snack in between each meal. Today I want to eat everything! Is this normal. Is it just because I want sugar and stuff or should I say crap I can’t have. It has to be mental because I feel like I am going bonkers and my poor husband has already suffered or is going to suffer two mood swing emails. Funny what happens to your body and mind when you cut it off from crap. Guess I’m skimming the fat of my brain off as well as my body huh? Well if someone could let me know this is normal that would be awesome. I’m going to go drink a cup of sleepy time tea and relax. Sheesh.

I find myself so discouraged lately because lack of support base. So many army wives are trying to get into shape but it seems like so many women would rather compete with you than be an encouragement for each other and come along side. My husband is stellar and looking great. I can’t wait to have more results but of course it will with hard work. I have received so much awesome advice from people on here. Thank you so much. I would love to get even more or encouragement. Deployment is hard being away from the man I love so much but working out and being fit is one way I show him how much I love him and it of course totally is for me as well. I love looking good and feeling good and knowing that I am a mom who can keep up with her children.

One huge question i have is….I have this stupid back fat…what are some good moves I can do to nix that….I want to see more diffinition everywhere but right now my back is one part that is stumping me.

I am so serious about my pursuit of a better and more muscular body. I could use advice from women in suppliments, diet, workouts, etc. I really could use some help. I would like to be dwon to 125 by the time my husband returns from overseas and want to pursue it in a healthy way. I don’t want to be unrealistic. Please comment, and please help an army wife out. Thanks.

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