sonyamckinnon’s BodyBlog

Okay so today I wanted meat bad and didn’t have any in the house at the time…boys were eating lunch so I popped in 4 chicken nuggets into the oven for me….been eating clean for two weeks with one slip up with chicken nuggets at the beginning…but I figured I would be okay…..

Boy was I sooooooooo wrong…talk about bathroom heaven…back and forth I went for like two hours to get those nuggets out of my system….my body totally rejected them!

I WILL NOT EAT CHICKEN NUGGETS…I reapeat….I WILL NOT EAT CHICKEN NUGGETS

Guess processed meat doesn’t like me anymore…so I’ve broken off our relationship…lol.

Thank you Jesus for teaching me this lession…lol!!!!

Okay so I have two little boys…well it all started at 2am this morning…puking right next to me…right now my sons and I are staying with a friend and my oldest who is 2 soon to be 3 woke up vomiting next to me…wonderful!

So I got up and did the motherly thing….gave him a bath….had him drink a little water…cleaned up….hugs and kisses and we go to bed….well not but an hour later….here comes the drink of water and then some! Now it is almost 4am in the morning (my time on my bodyspace is wrong) and I am exhasted! I’m stressed and hate it when my children get sick. I want to make it all better but there isn’t much a mom can do other than give loves, take care of them, and pray God’s protection and healing. I just need some rest…..

My husband being deployed makes it hard. I give a shout out to single mothers who do this….I can’t imagine what you guys go through when you don’t have a husband to vent to or support you for everything that you do. I am blessed with a husband who is so awesome and I continue to pray for those who work so hard raising their kids. So here I am exhasted and needing sleep yet in some way content to give hugs and loves to my baby boy!!!! Guess sickness can’t be to bad when you get such awesome cuddles.

Jason baby if you read this I love you so much and can’t wait to share these joys with you once agian. I miss you so much! You are such an incredible father and husband. God has truly blessed me. I love you so much and tons of cuddles are coming your way soon…and not just from me but from two little blond boys who love their daddy. Hang in there honey!

Okay like two weeks I just got over being sick and have been eating clean, exercising, and taking good vitamines. I’m just frustrated that I feel so ill right now. I’m achy amongst other things. I just want it all to be done with now. I have no want for food right now and don’t really want to force it on my tummy right now. I just hate being sick right now. I hope that it is just for right now. I know wishful thinking but I never get this sick. It is probably the lack of sleep I have been getting. I went to bed this morning after a long drive home at 3am and woke up at 8am. I took an hour nap but that is because that is how much my babies would let me sleep…. how am I to stop getting sick like this???

Needless to say I’m kinda down and hope I wake up tomarrow fine. You guys are awesome!!!

Jas if you read this I love you so much! You are so awesome!!!! I miss you so bad!!!

So today was supposed to be a pretty good day. I got to talk to my husband and spend some time with him on the internet….but then my day went on. Didn’t go to the gym today just took a lax day but now I feel lazy and like crap… I want to just see what it will be like when I get to were I want to be so bad…. I’m not giving up I’m just disappointed at times at what I see in the mirror. I want what I can picture in my mind. You would think that losing 4 lbs in a week would be fine with me…I lost it all by eating clean and working out too. I just still feel so down and out. I want the body that I WANT and I’m not happy with where I’m at…. I still think I am beautiful but I just see so many other beautiful women and long for what I know I can achieve. I don’t know if anyone else has had this frustration but I do. Please if any advice or just up lifters anyone can give that would be awesome.

Okay sometimes I wish I got to sleep longer…. Last night I was having so much fun having mommy time after my two beautiful toddler boys went to bed, I stayed up too late. Now this morning I am paying for mommy time. How I long for an extra hour of sleep right now… While having 5 hours of sleep is fine for some I am dragging, sore, but happy.

Did some awesome studing about BMR and how to raise your BMR last night. I have been reading "The Clean Eating Diet" and it is awesome. This way of life is made for my family! I can’t wait to have my partner back to share this with and share the boys wake up time with him and maybe get an extra hour of sleep….lol….;) Well I am going to continue reading and relaxing before I hit the gym. Everyone have an awesome day!!!!

Something for encouragement for others in my position…when injured don’t stop working and slack off…keep on the right eating and work the body parts that aren’t injured.

So I was doing some exercise with my trainer Brandy…who is by the way awesome..today and I rolled my ankle a bit. It doesn’t feel horrible or anything just a little achy. Does anyone have any advice on how long I should wait until I run on it again. I did the bike today for cardio but don’t know if I should just stay off it this week so I don’t damage anything or what not. Please someone help. I don’t want to further injure my body by not giving it time to recoup but I also don’t want to have to wait forever to run again.

Jas love if you read this I love you and can’t wait to love on you!!!!!

So I spent this weekend away from home and I think I did really good. Not the best food choices to choose from but I did what I could. I think the worst I did was the two chicken nuggets I ate on the way to my destination. My friends are starting to look at me weird though…yesterday I went out to eat with a friend and asked my server how the teriaki (bad spelling) was made…and they looked at me like I had lost it….lol. But I went out of that place feeling good about what I had put in my body.

Then I talked to a friend yesterday and she was upset to learn that I had made a change in my diet. It is weird how you can offend someone by not accepting a peice of food…. So many women will say "we should have the freedom to choose" well what does that really mean? Does that still mean that I get to choose what I want to eat without offending people. I told her I wasn’t here to please others but to please myself and to show my husband and my family that I love them if that means offending a few friends I guess I will. I thank God that He helped me set my priorities straight. I’m tired of being a people pleaser…I want to please God, my family and myself. Life is so amazing…I feel awesome and love what is happening to my mind, Spirit, and body. Thanks Father God for giving me clarity.

Jas if you read this I love you to bits and I can’t wait for mid tour!!!! I love you baby!!!! Your such a blessing in my life and i am so excited!!

Okay so I am away from home right now in IN. It has been a good time so far. I am actually here to attend a conference but staying with a friend so they can watch my children while I go to the church conference. I am doing so good with the eating right…problem is…my amount of meals today. I only ate three times and now I feel like I have eaten a hamburger….lol.

I realize I am now very hard on myself. I ate good yet not enough. I took a rest day and felt so lazy…lol. Food is such a temptation. I wanted a cookie so bad today but I fought it and now I am proud…lol. Each day seems to bring a new battle won yet still more battles and disapline to be learned. Good thing I like school and learning…lol.

All and all I can’t complain about today. My love is still amazing and beyond words as far as I am concerned. Jas you light up my day and I can’t stop reading your love note. I love you very much and you are such an encouragement to me. I so can’t wait to have more results…this is just way to much fun. I am overcome with excitment. Thank you all for the encouraging words. You guys rock especally this one guy that I married…lol and still am head over heals in love with (wink wink). 4 and a half years and I still feel like I married you last week…lol.

Loves and hugs!!! God blessings!

Okay so today was really good until after my workout with my amazing trainer and talking to my awesome husband. Sometimes I wish the whole day could be good without any mood swings. Stupid woman hormones are making me mad. My son broke a friends tile on her very nice patio set…I have no idea how to handle him at times. He is so loving most of the time but he just sometimes is just plain sneaky and disobedient. He would never do this if Jas were here. I know it has to do in part because he misses his daddy. It is discouraging.

Then I was driving to Indiana and I did so good with my clean eating…I had a chicken sandwich on whole wheat bread no processed meat! But then i mindlessly ate two chicken nuggets that I had gotten for my sons. I didn’t know how habitual eating was for me…bored and driving. Well I guess I have lots of squats and cardio to get rid of the crap that is going to add to my butt. I just feel horrible right now. Baby if you read this I miss you so much and I hope I get to love on you soon. I made it to Indiana. You are so awesome. My sessions don’t start until 6:30pm so I am going to leave around 5:30pm. Y’all if you have any encouragement to help me smile it will be gladfuly welcomed.

Loves  Sonya

God give me strength and peace please…

I find on my hard days what really seems to make the difference is reading my Bible, working out, and writing my husband how much I love him. I sound like a sap I know, but when you are in love you are in love. I had a very hard morning but after my trainer kicked my butt I felt so much better. I love how I feel after I have done something I love to do which is work out. then I got home and I had the most amazing email from my husband. Now I feel as if I am walking on cloud nine. Oh well I’m going to continue to feel like Cinderella waiting for her prince to come home. But in the mean time I am going to work my butt off to have and do that which I am passionate about which is love my God, love on my kids, and work my butt off to have a healthier life, and of course devote every moment I can to my husband when he is able to get on the computer or call. I am so blessed. Everyone on here is so awesome, that I have meet anyhow. You guys rock!!!!