sonyamckinnon’s BodyBlog

I get so upset with myself so much sometimes. I have fallen on my goals and feel like I got bucked off a horse and made a fool of myself. So what am I going to do…. Buck it up get back on the horse and run the heck out of it. So here I come. Determined and pissed at myself.

So here I am determined agian.

God Bless you all!!!

Ok so it has been a while but I have been working out like a mad woman lately and it is so paying off. It is so nice to have my army man back!!! Gosh I am so in love!!! So motivating to. He will watch the kids while I go to the gym if I am running late for an apptment or for a class and it feels so nice to have my husband! I have lost about 4 inches in my waist line in the last two months and three in my hips. I totally stopped weighing myself. I was obsessed and with measurments you get the truth of the matter anyway.

All in all I am so blessed and feeling great. Thank you all for all your prayers and stuff during the time my hubbers was deployed. He is such a great man and I am so in love with him. I finally get to be a regular wife for a while…well of course until he goes out on another adventure.

So some new things…I stopped working out alone most of the time and now do classes my favorites so far is body pump and body jam! Totally fun and I don’t realize ever how much time has gone by. I have to say though body pump is one of my favs. So so so much fun! Plus my teacher is awesome plus she is my trainer…lol. It is like getting another training session for FREE…lol. Well kinda I pay for memebership. Soon they will be starting bootcamp…trying to decide if I want to do it. I know it will kick my booty but I have to check the finaces. I love working out with others…I don’t know why I never did it before…I am more modivated with others. Its like they challenge me to go farther. Well now I am jabberin so I am going to go. Might be a while for another entry but I am still here and totally modivated!!!!

Loves to all!!!!

Sonya

Ok so it has been a while but I have been working out like a mad woman lately and it is so paying off. It is so nice to have my army man back!!! Gosh I am so in love!!! So motivating to. He will watch the kids while I go to the gym if I am running late for an apptment or for a class and it feels so nice to have my husband! I have lost about 4 inches in my waist line in the last two months and three in my hips. I totally stopped weighing myself. I was obsessed and with measurments you get the truth of the matter anyway.

All in all I am so blessed and feeling great. Thank you all for all your prayers and stuff during the time my hubbers was deployed. He is such a great man and I am so in love with him. I finally get to be a regular wife for a while…well of course until he goes out on another adventure.

So some new things…I stopped working out alone most of the time and now do classes my favorites so far is body pump and body jam! Totally fun and I don’t realize ever how much time has gone by. I have to say though body pump is one of my favs. So so so much fun! Plus my teacher is awesome plus she is my trainer…lol. It is like getting another training session for FREE…lol. Well kinda I pay for memebership. Soon they will be starting bootcamp…trying to decide if I want to do it. I know it will kick my booty but I have to check the finaces. I love working out with others…I don’t know why I never did it before…I am more modivated with others. Its like they challenge me to go farther. Well now I am jabberin so I am going to go. Might be a while for another entry but I am still here and totally modivated!!!!

Loves to all!!!!

Sonya

So this week is filled with nerves….my love will be home soon…and the timing is not known… A Year has passed swiftly but I feel like I’m getting married all over again. This is his second deployment and my nerves are still so fresh!!! I am so in love and so excited to have him home!!!

So here I am and it is almost midnight and I still can’t sleep and still have cleaning and arranging to do in our house…one which he hasn’t seen yet. I don’t think I can make it to the gym again tomarrow due to getting stuff ready but there will be some awesome ab workouts to do at home and maybe some fun glutes….why I feel so pumped when I work abs and glutes? oh well….well I must go and try to get to sleep…this is hard but I’m super excited to have my husband home!!!!

Okay so I dropped inches all over and I am so happy but my weight isn’t budging at all. I don’t know what to think sometimes…. I wish I could figure out my percentages . Everything is going awesome I can’t wait to see my husband who looks and is incredible!!! I love him so friggin much!!! God has blessed me so much with an awesome husband, rockin little boys, and so much more. Jesus thank You so much!!!!

So here I am…though life sucks sometimes there is always Joy sooner or later…lol.

So here I am again alone…waiting for my love to come back from overseas……Lately I find myself sitting alone with fresh pineapple (my new ice cream) watching chick flix with a protein shake on my side. This is so getting old…I know I only have a few more weeks but heck I want my hubby. Did I mention he is the hottest man ever!!! So in the mean time I let it really pump me up and I push myself harder and harder at the gym. I’m so ready for to marrow I need to let loose with my ipod blasting and myself running my butt off on the treadmill and working my legs and gluts…I can’t wait!!!!!!!!! Hey honey if you read this I love you so much and can’t wait for you to come home…Loves and Kisses!!!!!!

K. So going home was probably the hardest thing on my body goals and emotions ever. It is hard when you aren’t in charge of breakfast, lunch, and dinner for a month and a half! The best thing is I got to see my husband after 9 and a half months!!!! He looks incredible and I did too…now I am the same weight but my body is so out of shape. So I am back on track and feeling the effect of my nasty eating (makes me sick thinking about it). I am proud to say my kids haven’t been feeling the best and I still fit in workouts at home! Thanks to some great home workouts by CC! She is so awesome! Thanks girl you rock! Well loves to all and if you fell of the wagon…dust off and get back on because your health and confidence is worth it ALL!!!! Praise God because He rocks!!!

Okay so I’m home…I’m in Oregon so not doing bad with the diet other than it was my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary today so I did share a piece of cake with my son. But this whole working out thing is killing me….have no gym and feel aimless….I can do push ups and set ups as well as the next person…but I still feel like a lazy pig who is doing nothing. When I got here I was still 150 which is awesome (since I gained 6 lbs during thanksgiving) but lost it all! Now I sit here and feel like I have done nothing. I did play with my boys out on the beach today. The Oregon coast has lots of fun hiking trails that lead to the beach…and me and my boys are having fun waiting for daddy to get back from afganistan for a little visit…Gosh it feels like the wait is taking SO SO SO FRIGGIN LONG! Pray for me…I’m getting down and haven’t gotten the PUMP I usually get….grrrr…I need so much help…. not to mention I’m having problems with my gym back home….THATS A WHOLE OTHER STORY! Well yawl are awesome and keep it up…I could use some kind words and maybe some nice loving websmacks…lol. Praise God for awesome friends and people on this site…You guys rule!

Jas if you read this I love you and can’t wait to talk to you…I need my lover so BAD!!!! I love you baby so much!!!!!!!!

Okay so I thought…turkey not bad… mashed potatoes won’t be to bad….. stuffing just a little… ham will be okay…. green beans will be yummy….. yams just a little…. and a bit pumpkin pie…. BUT…I feel like I couldn’t stop eating turkey….. yesterday I felt fine and for breakfast and snacks I did really good…wanted to do bad but did really good….. but today I can’t stop thinking about what I did and am not doing so good. I feel really bad…like I put a bad drug in my body that I promised myself I wouldn’t. I don’t think I will ever be able to do Thanksgiving the same again… This really sucks because it is my favorite holiday. I want to get out of these blues that make me feel like I can’t do anything at all. That I failed and am a loser. I feel like I need to detox all over again and that was hard. Oh well here I come back on track…. I pray going home won’t be as bad on me because it would really suck.

Thanksgiving was totally awesome other than that. I enjoyed the food while it entered my mouth but now the cramping won’t stop. My tummy didn’t like it… I guess I will never be the same again. Oh well. I’m ready to stop feeling like crap getting back on the horse that bucked me off and trust that I have control. Here I come world! One hot Christian Army wife and mommy of 2! I’m not going to give up so easily big ugly green giant!!!!…lol. Yes I sound very crazy…lol. But that is okay. Smiles and Hugs to all….have an awesome day!!!!!!!!!

Goodness this diet change is hard detox on the mind sometimes….I feel like I did when I was pregnant with my boys….example "I have to have….." Soda isn’t hard for me…I have been off of it for a month and went through the whole "I have to have" stage. Now getting rid of all the candy that seems to be right in front of me and the need for a frozen coffee from starbucks. This whole thing is sucking and I am getting mad at times because I just feel like I need it…. I didn’t know crap food was such an addiction I had. I feel like a smoker who just needs one more drag and then I will be fine…or how about just one cigarette a day kinda thing. It won’t work and I just have to stop it cold turkey. I have lately been satisfying my taste for chocolate by eating jello sugar free pudding cup and they only have 60cals in them and it has been great so far but I just want my husband here and say "you can do it…you are alright" Holiday season is going to be a hard one this year!