Buffy Buffington gets Buffer

The chicken breast.  Hate it.  Used to love it.  Then I hated it.  Then it was tolerable.  Well, I’m back to hating it.  Started a new transformation challenge this morning, and I cooked up a crapload of breasts for my work lunches.  Cannot even stand the freakin’ SMELL of it, and I don’t even re-heat those lil b!tches.  I just eat it cold.  Reheated?  DIZZZ-GUSTING!!!  What am I gonna do?????  Perhaps I’ll smother it in ranch dressing…  No.  I won’t.  I’m just gonna have to figure out a different source of lean protein that I can stomach.  I already supp with protein powder 2-3 times a day.  Don’t wanna rely on it so much.  Trying to stay away from the deli meats.  Love red meat, but you know you need to watch it.  Love cottage cheese most days, but it’s becoming more and more like the breasts.  Some days, icks me OWT!!  Crap.  Egg whites?  Eh.  I can only handle ‘em so much, and I really, really only like ‘em with toast.  Maybe I’ll try oatmeal/pp for breakfast, and move my egg whites/toast to lunch. 

 Any suggestions are appreciated! 

It’s been one of those great weeks, my friends!  My diet has been spot on, my workouts have been strong, and my life brings me joy!  We all go through fits-n-starts, do we not?  Days and/or weeks that just SUCK, and we wonder why we even bother striving for something that sometimes either seems unattainable or not really worth the effort.  When I look at everything I do, personally, to achieve the goals I desire, I think, "GIRL, YOU’RE CRAZY!

 I used to be a "junk food junkie".  There weren’t many fast food joints I would drive past; rather I would "drive thru" and pick up a Big Smack with a side of trans fats.  How did I get from there to where I am today?  It’s not that I don’t desire or crave that fast food anymore, ’cause I do!, my mindset if just…..different.  I don’t think about the immediate "buzz" I will get from that food, instead, I think about how it will effect my body tomorrow and the next day.  Will my abs "pop", my biceps "peak", and my quads "sweep" tomorrow if I have the Big Smack today?  Is it a "sacrifice" to NOT hit that drive thru?

I no longer can answer that question "Yes!"  Is it will-power, dedication, motivation, hindsight, vision, perfectionism, confidence, or strength that allow me to drive past that "drive thru" and not feel the pang (or pain) of loss, of "missing out" somehow?

I’m not sure what it is.  I think, in general, it’s that what I’m striving for is so much bigger than the minutiae of those moments of pleasure borne by consuming that junk.  Do I still enjoy a "treat" now and again?  Yes.  Do I experience guilt for it?  No. 

This week has been an epiphany for me.  I AM motivated, and I feel strong and proud of the decisions that I have to make each and every minute of every day to achieve the results I am seeking.  When I reach those goals, what will I do?  I’m really not sure and, at times, it scares me.  But life experience tells me that I will set new goals, make new decisions and continue on this path that I have chosen….or has it chosen me?

This is who I am, what I do, these are the decisions that I gladly make, and each and every day is a new beginning.  NEVER a sacrifice.  Stay motivated, my friends!!

P.S.  I can’t promise that next week will be a "great" one, but I can promise that I will learn something about who I am and what "sacrifices" I am willing to make to reach my goals.  I continuously learn that it IS worth it and I am proud of the choices I make each day!

Well, after my negative post yesterday, I must set the record straight.  Today, I FEEL GREAT!  My mood is up, I’m enjoying my food choices and I’m excited about what’s to come.  My energy is through the roof right now - not what I expected at all.  I have checked out the keto threads and a lot of people complain about fuzziness, lack of energy, sleep problems, etc.  Maybe I’m just not there yet, but right now I’m feelin’ good and kickin’ ass in the gym.  I started a food diary on The Daily Plate and my fat is up around 65% - that’s probably contributing to my energy levels.  It’s still against everything I believe in, but I’m stickin’ with it, darn it all!   I know you were all missing Sarah Palin, so I had to toss that one in there!

I’m heading to dinner now (it’s a long drive - I’m not 80 yet!) and plan to have a cobb salad with ranch dressing.  How awesome does that sound?

 I am making a pledge right now to all my fellow BB.comers that if and when my feelings about this diet go south, I’ll fess up! 

 Be back soon.  I want to start logging my workouts too, but this is so time consuming!

So I’ve been working so hard for so long.  Working out hard and consistently, on and off with a trainer, lifting heavy, cutting back on cardio, eating clean…blah, blah, blah.  Recently we moved into a new house which is an "entertainer’s dream house", and, boy, have we entertained.  I’ve felt my clothes becoming tighter, so I upped my cardio, but became exhausted quickly due to the time I was spending working out.  Well, the parties are done for now, but the holidays are fast approaching and I know I will continue to struggle with clean eating during this time. 

So, yesterday, I started the keto diet, and I am miserable.  I know that I will lose weight on it, but how long can I keep this diet up?  All the fat I’m consuming goes against EVERYTHING I believe in!!  Plus, my mood is in the crapper.  I think I’m really angry that I’ve felt the need to resort to this stupid diet!  I plan to stick it out as long as I can.  Hopefully, I will see results quickly and that will continue to motivate me to adhere to the diet.  When I eat clean and healthfully, I feel great, but am hungry a lot and was getting tired of the same old chicken breast, spinach, oatmeal, avocado, olive oil, etc.  I’m very afraid that if I fail at the keto, that I’ll quickly gain back weight and, possibly, more than I lost!  Am I crazy?