smmelend2’s BodyBlog

Yesterday had to be one of the hardest days I have had physcally, mentally, spiritually and emotionally.  This week my husband is out of town for work, I start school again, and the special needs foster child we will hopefully adopt  starts a whole new school.  Our foster child does not handle change very well.  He is a large 11 year old.  He got upset yesterday during an art project and pretty much freaked out.  I had to carry him out of the building we were in… and hold him down as he was hitting, kicking, biting and trying to run away.  Once we got home he proceeded to kick holes in my walls and punch me more.  I am REALLY grateful for my body, that I am strong enugh to move him around and keep myself safe.  I could have NEVER done any of that if I did not choose to go to the gym and work out.  I dont know if we will have any peace this week, but I am glad that I am able to keep myself and him safe when he is "blowing out".

I have not posted for a while.  I have been working hard to change my body, but have managed to stay at the same weight for the past six weeks… Maybe it could be the late night PB&J’s???  (of course it is).  I dropped 8 pounds this week because I threw away all of my peanutbutter.   I would get a spoon full when I went into the kitchen a couple times a day.  I had NO idea how addicted I am to the stuff…  Isnt that the dumbest thing you have ever heard in your life?  Addicted to Peanutbutter?????  I had to confess to my trainer, and my nutritionist about this silly little vice I have that has caused me to not loose a pound in six weeks… and I had to promise that I would throw every last jar away.  Hope your having a good laugh, because it really is silly!  I hope your Saturday is a great one!