smmelend2’s BodyBlog

Why is it so hard to get as motivated to work out with 100% effort when it is all cold and snowy out, than it is when it is warm and sunny?  I really feel like curling up under a blanket, reading a book and drinking warm tea, not driving to the gym and working out.

I work with a group of girls ages 14-15.  Tuesdays nights we have activities and get together.  Recently it was brought to my attention that there are a couple of girls who are refusing to eat food because they think they are fat.  These girls are already really skinny.  One of these girls was sitting on the floor curled up crying because the hunger pains were affecting her, but she still refused to eat.  I also have girls on the other side where eating too much to fill a space inside and/or mindless eating all the time is their problem.  I worry, last night we had an fitness night, and to see how bad a shape most of this girls are, and I know that younger kids are even in worse shape.  What are we doing to ourselves and our childeren?  I know that when I was out of shape, and eating poorly I had no energy, felt bad about myself in every way, so I can imagine what these girls are going through because high school is no picnic! 

I wish that parents made better food choices for their kiddos… and did not have things like video games for them to zone out on for hours.  I wish that parents promoted more active things for their kids to do…  seems like the majority of time is spent on computers, or watching tv… which is really not worth the time… really.  I see these young women that are all over the media that are the role models for the younger girls.  These young women are arrested for drinking, have eating dissorders, look like skeletons, are in trouble for drugs and have messed up lives… but this is what we all see and these young kids want to become.  How sad!

I just hope that I can do what I can to help the few that I can to realize eating is necessary for life, but over eating and eating the wrong things are just as bad as not eating… and being fit feels good!

Since competeting and getting back to a more normal diet… I put on 5 pounds and lost body fat…  I knew I would do that! The only thing that is saving me from eating all kinds of pastries and cakes are my trainers "Magic Muffins".  They are a protein muffin and they are really good.  I also have this huge desire to eat icecream late at night… so thank goodness for my slushie maker.  I use it with crystal light and I eat a big bowl.  That is fixing that problem!  Time to get back on the wagon and start working on my shoulders and glutes so that I have them come competetion time!

So back to my running schedule this morning.  My left knee is not very happy about it!   I just can never seem to get enugh cardio…. NOT!  It just seems so hard to keep on going. Thank goodness for my ipod!  That was such a help today.  I wanted to just quit and walk home so many times.  What are some of the things you do to keep yourself going, maybe it would help me keep shuffling through and push a bit more. 

So my goal is to continue to lean out in the off season so I dont have so much work to do for contest prep next year.  I am finding it hard to not eat as clean as I should.  Preparing for the last competetion was not as hard as I thought it was going to be, but I am finding a lack of motivation to stay on track with a deadline so far away.  I loved the way I looked and really dont want to loose that, but there is that little voice that says I have plenty of time and this little candy bar is not going to hurt anything… and then do that every day for a week, and yeah its going to hurt me in the long run.  Finding it hard to keep that to one meal.  The desire to slack is pretty strong right now so I guess I need to ask myself what do I want more… stay lean and have less work in the end, or pig out and hate myself for doing it!  Hope your day is a great one.

So I am done with the competetion, I placed 2nd.  I am glad to have that over with and can now focus on studing for finals!  I am glad to be back to normal eating.  Hope you all have a great day.

So I am done with the competetion, I placed 2nd.  I am glad to have that over with and can now focus on studing for finals!  I am glad to be back to normal eating.  Hope you all have a great day.

My work out this morning was really good.  I picked up my suit for Saturday and it looks great.  I am getting excited and worried all at the same time.  I hope that I can deplete right and look my best on stage.  I am not as tired as I thought I would be.  I am hungry for chocolate cake… the kind from Claim Jumper… they have a seven layer, chocolate butter cream frosting chocolate cake that I cant stop thinking about…and hope I dont eat all by myself!  I found out that we will be three weeks in Costa Rica for Christmas, so there is more motivation for not pigging out too much after all this is said and done.  Gotta keep that beach body!

Well, This is my last week.  I get to get up at 4 AM to work out a 5 tomorrow morning and I am not really looking forward to geting up that early when I dont get much to eat.  I have been sodium loading for the past three days and drinking alot of water.  I am tired of getting up to pee three or four times a night.  I am really excited to get this over with for a while. 

One week left!  Yesterday was my birthday and it just was not the same because I could not eat cake, but I guess if I get to trade my body for cake, I will take my body.  I have been really tired and posing practice seems to wipe me out…  I will be glad at about 7 PM next Saturday!