Smartbody’s Ramblings

I have 2 weeks left of school and I am seriously happy about this. I am working on a plan to get my ass in gear when school is finished. I have been hit or miss with the working out because I have been stressed out to the max regarding my last class.

This last week I got the joy of adding a cold to the mix. I appreciated the one day a co-worker stated that I was a better color than previously. I had the sweats so bad I took my shoes off and cranked the air conditioning in my office. Filled myself full of soup, orange juice and some much needed rest. I have been averaging 5 or less hours of sleep during this class and some nights I have stayed up the whole night. Pretty sure the cold came on because I was run down.

I am trying to work on even-ing out these last few weeks so that I just get better and not have a relapse.

Here’s hoping……

I have decided to ammend my goal and state that I am still going to lose 30 pounds but the date is going to be pushed back some. I have had some unexpected stressors and I think it is important to deal with them first and then continue on with my goal. Life has been super crazy lately and it appears that my goal of getting my degree is going to be a race to the finish. I have approx 6 weeks left and then I am DONE DONE DONE. So I will begin my race to the finish and try to stay in touch!

HOPE EVERYONE’S FOURTH IS SAFE AND HAPPY!                   
                                                                                   

Work is going well. Been keeping me pretty busy trying to figure out what everyone else who had the position had been doing. Found a better bunch of food to eat besides the CRAP I was eating. Have to go to the store today to get some more. I have been using walking as my main exercise for the moment. I take the dog out when I get home from work and we both go for a nice long walk.

Still working out the work/school/getting enough sleep equation. Been using the weekend to catch up. I can work on getting into a better schedule in about two weeks when the current class I am taking is over and I get a glorious week off (of school only).

Found out my dog has allergies! JOY! So I get to give her pills every day. I am not sure, since she has allergies if she needs to be on pills all the time? Currently I have pills to give her until they run out, but I am thinking since she has allergies that one shot at pills isn’t going to last. She also gets a spray for her feet because she is OBSESSED with munching on them and the hair is going away and the skin is looking raw. The Vet mentioned steriods and the side effects and all I am thinking is do we need to discuss the worst case scenario already???? Can’t we just try the minimal first and see how much we have to do for her to find relief?

On a weight note, it is going down. YEA! Slowly but it is going down. I have not had the boomerang effects as of late; it is just going down. I think that working has helped out with that because I am busy during the day and do not have time to continually eat. When I first moved to Cali I actually gained weight because I wasn’t going out and doing much of anything and there was so much new food to try.

I think my current issue is not drinking enough water and not getting enough sleep. Well, goals for next blog.

Have a great day everyone!!!

Happy Mother’s Day to all of the mothers out there!!! Hope everything goes exactly the way you want today!!!!

GUESS WHO GOT A JOB?????

Guess who is the Executive Assistant with the opportunity to become the Marketing Director??????????

Yikers!!! Okay, so here is the update. I have been busy because I, as most know, am taking M.B.A. classes. I needed to finish a class and start another. This new class is a completely different format so it has taken me a little bit to get the hang of it.

As far as progress things are just downright WEIRD!!!! I lose some weight and then gain it back BUT I get smaller in the process. WHAT????!!!!!! I was going post something the other to the effect that the weight was finally going down and then the next day I checked it out and it went back up. So I decided to take some measurements and those went down!!! Whatever!!!!

I am thinking of hitting the beach tomorrow and just being out and about. Hopefully I can get there before all of the parking is gone!! Tomorrow it is supposed to be a HOT ONE! I have found that I will take hot over snow any day of the week!

Don’t worry everyone I didn’t go anywhere. I just need to get through this class and things will be WAY BETTER!!! So don’t give up on me, I am still here!!!!!

Ten years ago today began the worst week of my life. It was during this week that the man I was going to spend the rest of my life with officially changed his answer to “I don’t”. Our status went from “we” to “he” and “I”.  I just could not seem to wrap my head around the concept of being divorced, because not being married any more didn’t seem to be an option. No one in my family saw this coming and it was quite a shocker for everyone.

Now for the double whammy, it was also during this time that I lost my mother. The person I was expecting to help me through my painful divorce. My ex ended up moving out months before and my mother ended up moving in and I cared for her until the end.

My life has had many interesting twists and turns but that time period was my ultimate worst, and also my ultimate test. Honestly, I almost wasn’t here anymore. Suffice it to say that what I contemplated would have worked and I would have ceased to exist on this planet.

 I took some time for reflection while contemplating my options. I began to wonder if everything in my life, up to that point, was actually the best it was ever going to get. What if I were to cut my time short before I actually “lived”? What if the best was yet to come? I decided to give it another try with the stipulation that one of my options for dealing with things was gone. I will never allow myself to contemplate such dire choices again. I have decided to ride it out and see what life brings.

I worked on getting myself on better emotional ground, believing in myself and what I can accomplish, and looking at life through positive glasses. Instead of seeing the negative…look for the positive. What can I learn when things don’t go my way? How much strength and stamina do I have that I did not have in the past? Do I actually believe in me, what I stand for, and what I can become? Do I regularly use the phrase, “I can’t” or have I lost its meaning?

Is everything going the way I want? No.

Is it still going though? Yes.

I am still here!

I cannot believe I actually found a picture of what I look like when I rollerblade!!

I am not sure how long it will take before what I think I am doing (eye, hand, feet coordination) and what I am actually doing become one in the same. I start out good but somehow I get over confident (?) and my feet have the tendency to go off by themself. The issue then becomes that they are still attached to the rest of me and then I end up falling down.

How long does it take to master any type of skating?