slickshotdogg22’s BodyBlog

Today I hit the gym legit for the first time in a while.  The workout was nothing special but unlike what I’ve been doing for the past month it can at least be called a workout.  I’ve hit a deep rut and basically lost all motivation.  I got really sick in late April and ever since then walking into the weight room has been a complete nightmare.

Hopefully today can force my training back to where it was.  I can kind of get myself pumped to get to the weight room but once I’m there it gets ugly.  There is no motivation in my lifts which in my opinion makes them worthless.  Midway thru my “journeys to the weight room” I just want to go home.

I’ve got a lump in my throat the size of a softball and the fact that I’ve lost so much muscle mass over this time just messes with my head.  My strength has dropped a little but not significantly.  Everyday I dig deeper and deeper to find what I’m missing, to find what I had before.  So far, no luck.  It feels like I don’t care at all anymore.  I hate this feeling and want to get rid of it.  This is why I’ll keep digging.  Take it from me, if you’ve got it, use it.  If you have that motivation, use it full-force.  Train on brothers like nothing can stop you.  In the mean time, I’ll keep digging.