SQUEEZE!
I love my life. Seeing my dad’s life ebb really makes me love living and be determined to grab and squeeze the shi* out of my own life. SQUEEZE!
It’s tough. I’ve got a lot going and the last few weeks moving into this hospice stage with dad has really pulled me out of myself. Not good. But I’m not going to stray far from me. When I do everyone is lost and I KNOW that. 
So I’m going back to regular clean eating and taking care of me, continuing to train hard and such because I matter to me.
It is so funny to talk to people about weight loss. I have friends on facebook (I have like 1200) who will PM me for advice and I LOVE to give it. I like working with my clients, though I’m scaling that back for now as I focus at home for the time being. I was at a bar mitzvah this weekend and talked to a couple of people about diet and fitness. It is amazing how we women let ourselves go…and i don’t just mean get fat and out of shape…although that is the physical manifestation of it, but lose ourselves in our caring for everyone else. Every woman I speak to tells me the same story.
I was laughing with one of them as I talked about my coaching practice because I was saying I started this process when I was at a low point of connection to myself. She laughed and said she could relate. I said yes all these "round 40" women seem to have the same story. I said it is a HUGE market for me at least. HAHA.
Anyway I got a note from her yesterday saying she had gone back to the gym and was working on eating smaller more frequent meals with more LEAN protein and vegetables. I LOVE to help people along with getting themselves back.
Love,
Alissa
p.s. the invention website it up. visit it at www.impgarden.com and see the IMP–What you do with your earbuds…when they’re not in your ears. Shipping is FREEEEEEEE! 
p.p.s. I think I’m falling in love with Diet Dr. Pepper. OMG!
November 2, 2009 at 9:52 am
Love the blog. Your are so right, all of us women nurture others and have a hard time nurturing ourselves as well. Time to realize that it is not selfish to care of your own self so that you can better take care of others.
I am sorry to hear about your father. I hope things go as smoothly and as kindly as possible and that you can draw strength and wisdom from this hard time.
~L~