sinful-kitten’s BodyBlog

So as soon as it occurred to me how soon the Xmas parties are going to be starting, I really made a point of cleaning up my diet and exercising more. (at HOME, yeah!!!) and though I’ve been hitting the road block of LITTLE sleep and therefor little energy, so not working out as much as I’d like, I’ve noticed a rapid response to the little things I’ve been doing. I think I’ve lost 5 lbs in about 10 days.

So… 10 days for my Xmas party, and the week after for my husbands…. aiming for SMOKING hot!!!

I must say, it was the BEST going down and working out in our gym this morning! I was even done *almost* before the other gym opens!!! This is going to be great! I want to start doing cardio and pilates in the mornings and then weights and cardio in the evenings

It’ll be even better when I’m not working in the evenings….

But it’s great! I absolutely love it! And perfect timing with 2-3 weeks before various Xmas parties! Major over-haul on the diet. Working out extra hard. Try and lean up as much as possible to look super sexy in the dress I have yet to buy! LOL!

After much blood (okay, maybe just a little) sweat, and tears, our gym is finally up and running! Though still some things to do, equipment to buy, and finishing touches needed, welcome to "Outer Strength, Inner Peace"… 

I didn’t realize how difficult it would be to write a letter or resignation. But I did and I delivered it. My AM was in a meeting, so I figured I could sneak away. So I did. Figured I should do it while I have the guts… and I was quaking as I went there. I did NOT want to go through the process of quitting…..

I think this is the first time I quit for a reason other than moving. But I think it’ll be for the better.

I mean, one of the things the manager said was about the privacy thing I signed…. so for a whole year after my last day (Dec 11) I "can’t" fully advertise as a personal trainer! I’ll have to be careful what I do and say and who I train. THAT’S why I wanted to leave- one of the big reasons. Cause, in reality, if I train a guy, how can I get in shit considering I was at a ladies only gym??? The longer I stay there, the more issues I’ll have leaving.

It’s hard. It’s difficult. But it’s the right thing to do. I can’t train other people until I leave. Mac mentioned I could promote and train others until they caught me and then quit…. but I’m certain I’d get in more legal troubles if I did that! At least if I do have a year, I can focus on continuing my education and train a few people through Mac’s work, or family, ect. Do some ground work, and start out flying in Jan 2010!

It was funny, though, on my way out, I mentioned to the other trainer I had been talking to and when I told her I quit… she was like "the bank?"… and she flipped when I said the gym. Even took a sec to register. But her and I have had discussions before and she completely understood.

It’s done now. So now I just have to look forward. I can focus on the areas that matter. What’s important to me.

For the most part I always hated the saying. Probably because it always came after something really bad like my miscarriages! My reaction was always. "No. There was no reason. It just happened and it sucked". But I’m understanding that saying now and I came to a very important decision.

I’m quitting the gym.

Yes, I wrote that correctly. The gym. Not the bank.

Ever since the bank threatened me, I’ve been extra focused at work- doing what I’m supposed to be doing-  but I had also been really thinking about the personal training. The "gym" is SO close to being finished at this point. We should be finishing the wood floor today and we should have the second bike, the rest of the flooring and the other stuff we need by next weekend. I have my last PT package I need to mail off today- or tomorrow- to complete my certification and then I’m ready to rock!

BUT with working at the gym, it’s very restrictive. I can’t advertise as a personal trainer is the biggest thing. And even at this point, I’m going to have to be cautious as I’d signed a piece of paper that may cause problems, but I think it’s more that I don’t open a gym or steal any clients. But the longer I stay there, the longer they’ll have their claws in me. It’s going to be hard enough as it is, considering the amount of guilt I’m feeling leaving my current clients. But when I give my notice, I’m going to continue training until about mid December (so a full month) and I’m going to tell her NO NEW CLIENTS, only my existing clients… we’ll see what happens… they (aka manager) seems to have issues fallowing requests…. considering I was done work at 1 and she booked an appointment for me…

Believe it or not, there’s more politics and crap to deal with at the gym than the bank! It’s tiring and I don’t need to put up with it. The gym pays like crap! The BANK pays the bills and rent and everything. If I’m going to get in shit from a job about sales (or lack there of) I’m going to put the effort into the the one that pays! As well, it’ll give me the opportunity to network, get out, and promote. Go to various community events and shows… and try and figure out what "it" is…

Have you ever felt like there’s something more? Something you’re supposed to do? Your "purpose"…. I think I’ve scratched the surface with the whole health and fitness and wanting to become a certified nutritionist… I found my passion… but I don’t know what it is I’m supposed to DO with it…. There’s something….. and at first I thought it was a "if the bank just fired me" then I could focus on that…. but if I got fired from the bank, then I wouldn’t have the ability, time, or capability of finding out cause I’d be working so much for a crappy wage!

But decision made. I tested the water. I love Personal Training. And I’m good at it. But now I want a promotion. Working for myself.

Anyhow…. I guess that’s enough rambling….

Haven’t been on here much the last week. Haven’t worked out much. I want to though, so that’s good! I’ve done cardio a couple mornings and I did my pilates this morning- something I’ve been talking about for months now!

The room (gym), it feels, has come to a stand still. Can’t do anything until the back ordered stuff comes in…. and what we can do is minimal. Those lights have been removed and plug outlets put in. We even have some cool swag lightsfor them….. only to discover the cord is about a foot longer than the chain!!! Need to fix that! and the patch from where the water pipe broke is now patched and filled- just needs a mild sanding and painting. But it’s hard to clean the place as sawdust and everything is still being tracked everywhere.

The newest issue was with the other flooring. There’s an area at the entrance, about 5′x13′ that we were going to put laminate wood flooring. I went back to our local flooring place and they were offering me a REALLY good deal. To the point where I handed over the cash right then and there. And then we tried to install it. What a bunch of shit! My husband used the whole "if it’s too good to be true, it probably is"… but my reasoning behind it was that they had a very small supply that they weren’t getting more of, and it was a chance for them to unload some! Yeah…. it’s complete shit. THAT’S probably why they were wanting to get rid of it… and not getting more in!!! We’re going to "fake" it. We have it now. Can’t return it. Might as well do something with it!

(but it’ll look SO good when it’s done!!!)

And I haven’t had a chance to get on here during the day. Don’t dare… last week they (work) threatened me with my job. Part of me is thinking "Do it. Fire me" so I could find something I WANT to do! But…. I need this job. So I figured I’ll do what I need to do when I need to do it… and I should be alright! Right?

Anyhow…. I should go. BUSY day ahead of me! But at least it’s Friday!!!

What a great weekend! With everything we were able to get done, we have our gym up and running! We even went down and worked out last night- and I went down this morning and did some cardio!

SO AWESOME!

I love the fact that if I’m up early, I can go down and work out! And I can come up and see my husband before he leaves for work!

I’m still feeling "off" from my cold/flu so I didn’t work out too long, but we’ll be going back down tonight to do weights! SO COOL!! I think I’m really going to like this!!!

Of course, it’ll be even nicer when the room gets finished! Between running out of flooring and wallpaper… and discovering we wired a couple lights to a couple plugs wiring and now have no way to turn them off… it’s still great!