sin2424’s BodyBlog

so I am just under 12 weeks and I feel great!  I got my bodyfat done….right around 13.8% so that is perfect.  I will be right around 12 at 8 weeks out, and then drop the final 4…..everything in my contest prep is on schedule and looking and feeling great.  This has been the easiest so far and smothest leaning out to date, but I have a lot more time to feel like crap and to have drama happen.  Usually my body starts to go the other way and gain and then I have to go to drastic measures to get it to reverse…….I have the strangest metabolic problems, but I always make it and I will this time too.  Cardio hasn’t had to increase either…just 40 min twice a day….that I can totally handle.  Remember I have had to do anywhere from 2-4 hours on any given day to just drop anything.  Oh and diet is good too…….nothing too new there.  I am getting more carbs though than I have had in a very long time………white rice every day after I train is so tasy, makes me excited to go to the gym.  (Not like I need that to get excited to go to the gym). 

Haven’t picked out my suits yet though, have an idea of what I want, but haven’t committed to it just yet.  I want to be absolutely sure in the color this year.  These suits are very important….first national level suits………and I want perfection! 

Um boys………yeah nothing new there.  I am so over dating.  Everytime I think I want to have a relationship and I think I am ready, I try it out, and end up right back here, not wanting a relationship and loving my free time.  I can’t believe people actually make relationships work, and then make them work competing too.  I don’t get it….maybe I am too selfish or maybe I am just realy happy by myself.  I just really do have fun all alone and feel like I am just happier single than I am in a relationship.  I’m so less moody for sure.  Oh well, I got lots of years to deal with the boys! 

Oh and my gains have been awesome this off season.  I really did do a lot of changing.  I’m not going to say I added that much mass or really put on a ton of muscle…only about 5 pounds of actual mass……….but I changed my symmetry and made it much much better.  I am balancing out and morphing into a beautiful shape.  My coach, Terry Hairrston, Mr. America, is amazing.  He is more than a coach, he is turning into a very very dear friend of mine….him and his wife Kim.  She is my actual coach that takes me through most of my training, but he’s the one who controls my diet and helps to shape me.  I told him he is stuck with me till he is 90 and he just laughed.  Don’t tell him, but I am serious!  ok enough I am rambling, ciao peeps

so I am coming up on the 13 week out mark and I think I am hungry.  No……I know I am hungry.  I gotta admit I have a big appetite, but I always eat clean.  I just want a giant bowl of broccoli, and not being able to have that, drives me nuts.  so I am sitting here drinking hot tea and numbing my hunger pains!

I am going to give some tips on what to do to take away the hunger or at least divert your attention from it:

chew s/f gum (i give it up cause it does have calories and i go all out, but this works)

down a diet soda

drink crystal light (I give this up too)

rub nail polish remover on your nails

bite your nails

take your dog out walking

sniff a strong peppermint odor

take numerous baths (yes I must be cleanest person on my block)

pace (burns cals)

text message randoms

organize old pictures

drive around in circles

walk aimlessly around borders

go to a movie (wastes at least the time between meals at least)

ok so that’s enough, you get my little ways to watste time.  Next blog I am going to list some ways to cheat that aren’t cheating but help to make food taste better.  Or break up the monotony that can be dieting.  This was the most boring blog………..good night.

so I am on my way and really into the cutting phase now.  My body is changing daily, and people are starting to sit up and take notice.  I feel really good.but here’s what I am going to blog about tonight………..I am so beyong hormonal and horny I could die.  I swear all I think about is sex when I am cutting…..is anybody else like this?  I walk around and totally feel like a guy the ay I think…and I think men smell this too.  I get hit on all day long!  I think about it though sometimes and wonder who are all these girls who can’t get a date?  If I wanted I could probably go out all the time (most of these guys would probably not be what you would call quality guys though).  Then I have my girlfriends who talk to me about their problems, about how he didn’t call, or how he’s cheating, or how they are lonely………..WTF??  Ok women….I don’t get this at all!  I don’t know what my secret is, yes I get asked all the time for the secret, but I just have never ever had a problem with the opposite sex.  I think this is the biggest advice I can offer women……..stop caring so much!  If you are meant to have a date and he’s the right guy….he will ask you out, if not give yourself a facial, get your nails done, or go enjoy your family and friends, stop worrying.  I have never been dumped, I have never been stood up, and I have never been without a date………and yes I am very single……why do you ask?  Cause I’m trying to figure out why it is that I don’t want a relationship.  I just like to do my thing, I like to train all the time, I like to bring my food wherever I go, I am very picky about restaurants and don’t want to explain that to someone or sound snooty, i also don’t want to spend the day in bed….I have to get my cardio started within the first 30 min of waking up or I start to go catabolic, so no I don’t want to cuddle…..but I would after you know?  Anyways the reason for my blog is I was listening to women yip yap today and it fueled me.  stop talking about it, stop caring, and for godsake stop dwelling on it.  They are just men.  Sorry boys…….I love ya……..just not all of you are worth the time. 

Does it sound to anyone like I am dieting?  I sound mean I think.  I am actually laughing while I write this.  Dont take me too seriously!  muah 

so I have hardened up already and leaned out a lot.  I can’t believe how fast my body changes.  I have been dieting for only 2 weeks now, and jeans that didn’t fit, now slide right off.  I love it!  I am keeping a written journal now too of my feelings and about how fast I come down, so that next year when I am off season and ready to cry from the bulk, I can remember that my body will come down and I will survive this.  Anyways I am excited cause my shoulders are starting to get a little leaner, and I am seeing the start of my lines…yippee.  Today was my carb up and I feel pretty good.  I don’t have much to report except to say that I had cardio twice today and I am jumping on the treadmill right now to get it done….like the soldier I am.  Nightie

I’m currently 15 weeks out and I feel really good.  I have dropped 4 pounds and my weight is down now to 162.6. If that sounds big to anyone….remember I am 5′10, and I do have a wee bit of a muscle on my frame.  I will cut to 140 though hopefully so I kinda look like a figure chick and not a bodybuilder.  You know?  My upper body doesn’t look as big as a BB, but if I don’t watch it, my legs could definitely get there.  I am training arms tomorrow and I get my carb up, so tomorrow is going to be one of those god days.  If my shoulder didn’t have a teeny injury, al wuld be great.  Does anyone else ever notivce that as soon as you injure the shoulder it realy either takes a long time to heal, or never really does?

Oh and I broke up with my boyfriend.  He truly is a wonderful man and very supportive and just a good guy, but he’s all that for someone else.  I live a very typical extreme bodybuilders lifestyle.  Hell I don’t even have an off season really……I always bring my food everywhere, and I don’t go out for fear I might lose some sleep.  All my friends are either bb, figure or fitness people, and it seems as I am most comfortable around my own kind.  Anyways he was awesome with me bringing my fod places, and my mood swings, but you know what it bied down to for me…….as great as he was, I wasnt attracted to him physically.  I am use to very big men, and I adore bulky guys….I just love to be arouund and held by a big man with lots of muscles……and here is my boyfriend who was muscular kinda but just a normal guy, with that gooey layer that most men have.  Problem is I tried to convince myself it didn’t mater, but it did.  When he would order dessert, or down his crown and cokes I would cringe inside  And when he came to visit me and didn’t once want to go to the gym with me, I knew we were never gonna be a match.  I really don’t care, do your own thing, just stay in shape some how, you know?  Anyways so we had a very adult breakup, and I told him I was going to concentrate on me, and that a relationship wasnt what I wanted right now.  In all honesty in it’s not a relationship I don’t want, it was just not one with him.  does that make sense?

He is going to be an amazing husband i think for some other girl, but this iron goddess, needs a hulk!  Anyways I just want to compete and get my pro card so that is all I am focusing on.  No more little boys to get in the way! ciao darlings