sin2424’s BodyBlog

Ok so can anyone tell I was high on ambien last night?  First off I sent that post like 4 times and second I didn’t even remember writing it.  I’m staying off that stuff for a while…..that just can’t be good for ya.  Not to mention I get munchies when I am on it and I am scared to death I am going to have a dream I am eating a bag of marshmallows dunked in chocolate only to wake up with remnants on my pillowcase.

Ok so my cardio is up to at least 2 hours a day and I am surviving on extremely low carb.  I get a grapefruit and 1 cup of melon, other than that I get veggies………would anyone else die?  It’s all good….I survive!If you know me, you know I transform during these next 3 weeks.  Mandy just has a way of knowing what to do with me. 

So about my gym……….I am not going to train there after 3 anymore.  I’m planning on taking more clients too so this is gonna be tricky…but the guys there are just rediculous!  Especially with what I have to do when I go there, I don’t have time for bullshit when I get there.  excuse the language, but there is no other word to describve their crap! 

Oh so I trained legs today……….and I am 10 weeks 2 days out from the New York Metro.  Not much to say except I am gonna hurt tomorrow.  Ciao

Ok real quick this is for the men out there that think that they can make comments to us chicks without a care in the world.  Noiw I get the men’s club and that you feel safe around your boys, but guess what there is a line not to cross. And it seems lately the night time boys really want to push it with me.  I had my ipod in so I couldn’t hear it all, but I don’t think it was good.  Anyways I left there upset cause igot a jyst of what they were talking about, something about spredding my ass or something….which is crude and rude.  Spo before OI get toangry about it, I just want other men to read this and now that just because we are in the gym and lifting with men, we are still females, which means yes you do still have to mantain some sort of decorim!  ok I took an ambien…off to bed for me…muah!

Ok real quick this is for the men out there that think that they can make comments to us chicks without a care in the world.  Noiw I get the men’s club and that you feel safe around your boys, but guess what there is a line not to cross. And it seems lately the night time boys really want to push it with me.  I had my ipod in so I couldn’t hear it all, but I don’t think it was good.  Anyways I left there upset cause igot a jyst of what they were talking about, something about spredding my ass or something….which is crude and rude.  Spo before OI get toangry about it, I just want other men to read this and now that just because we are in the gym and lifting with men, we are still females, which means yes you do still have to mantain some sort of decorim!  ok I took an ambien…off to bed for me…muah!

Ok real quick this is for the men out there that think that they can make comments to us chicks without a care in the world.  Noiw I get the men’s club and that you feel safe around your boys, but guess what there is a line not to cross. And it seems lately the night time boys really want to push it with me.  I had my ipod in so I couldn’t hear it all, but I don’t think it was good.  Anyways I left there upset cause igot a jyst of what they were talking about, something about spredding my ass or something….which is crude and rude.  Spo before OI get toangry about it, I just want other men to read this and now that just because we are in the gym and lifting with men, we are still females, which means yes you do still have to mantain some sort of decorim!  ok I took an ambien…off to bed for me…muah!

Ok real quick this is for the men out there that think that they can make comments to us chicks without a care in the world.  Noiw I get the men’s club and that you feel safe around your boys, but guess what there is a line not to cross. And it seems lately the night time boys really want to push it with me.  I had my ipod in so I couldn’t hear it all, but I don’t think it was good.  Anyways I left there upset cause igot a jyst of what they were talking about, something about spredding my ass or something….which is crude and rude.  Spo before OI get toangry about it, I just want other men to read this and now that just because we are in the gym and lifting with men, we are still females, which means yes you do still have to mantain some sort of decorim!  ok I took an ambien…off to bed for me…muah!

ok so I had to go to drastic measures to get my weight to start to come down.  I honesty had a breakdown yesterday!  I have decided this dietdown is probably going to be a lot rougher on me than the last.  Maybe it is my age or maybe it is my thyroid screwing with me, but whatever the reason, it is what it is.  My body hates to be lean………loves to bulk.  Now this is good and bad, and a lot of girls would love to switch with me I am sure, but I am accepting my challenges now.  Which means I have come a long way since I started dieting 4 weeks ago.  So I am down to 168.  I was still gaining as of yesterday morning.  I am happy though I am under 170………and I promise never to see that number ever again.  Never say never, but for now I am talking never!

I cut my protein down to 5 oz at 5 meals instead of 8………….drastic cut I know, but it looks like my body cannot have that much protein to drop.  I am going to come in shredded one way or another.  I competed at 154 last time, and I think I am shooting for 150 this time.  That’s 11 weeks to come on down……….I can do it…..have hope!  Just pray for me!  Actually I had higher bodyfat last time, so this isn’t a stretch!  I lost almost 40 pounds in 10 weeks last time.  I have way more muscle too this time. 

Oh had to go to hospital for the 3rd time in 10 days with my dad yesterday.  The paramedics really are starting to get impatient with the man.  He just doesn’t listen!  Anyways he got 2 new hipe a year ago and one keeps slipping out cause I guess he lost to much weight too fast and it’s more mobile.  I don’t get it, and if he would just go to the gym and strengthen the muscles you would think it would hold it in place.  Let’s just applaud him for the weight loss……..anyways he will stay in hospital until tuesday where they are surgically going to go in and tighten some stuff up.  So stress sucks over here!  I am just gonna take a deep breath and accept what I cannot change!  Stay tuned.  Pray that next time I write I am 165!

Posting a question today since I am having a big bad depression day!   How much do you think a 5′10" figure competitior should weigh?  And don’t give me that weight doesn’t matter and everyone is different, and it depends.  I just want round about numbers!  I am afraid I can’t co0me in lean enough, or that I should weigh less……..everyone says they can’t believe what I compete at……..and I want opinions!   Give em to me

Ok so my natural color might not be super blond, but my smarts are definitely a lot paler than I would like.  I cannpot seem to figure out how to get my pics on here.  Every time I try it says they are too big or can’t process them, or some nonsense I don’t get.  I am so not a computer person.  I went to law school too, and funny thing, when I was there, everybpody was in the internet research classes and there I was….all alone by myself in the "standard" researh classes (which means looking up each case by hand using BOOKS)..  anyways so I love books and I have a love/hate relationship with the internet.  I digress……

Ok so I am 11 weeks and 3 days out and I am having a bit of a downday.  I went to the Gyno today where he looked at me like I had 5 heads when he asked me why I gain so much and lose so much and all my other nonsense.  Fun!  Plus I had to go on a scale that ws not my own at 4:00, which means I had drank a gallon of water and had 4 meals by then.  that’s a lot of extra weight.  It made me really grumpy!

I have officially decided after a lot of advice from a few pros and comments from the boys at my gym that I gain too much during my bulks.  I guess I get a bit carried away sometimes, and I think more is better.  I come from a place where I think I need to overfeed the muscle, just in case it wants to feed.  Don’t understand me?  I never want my body to even starve for a bit.  I don’t eat sugar or drink or even have lots of extra fats……….I bulk clean and healthy, but hell we all know to much of anything and you will gain.  I just get so excited, and if you ask anyone, I do grow!  My girlfriend said to me today…"Cin every contest you really do reinvent yourself, and you really morph into a whole new person"………..I guess in the long run I am happy with my bulks and the hard work I put into my shredding, but I wouldn’t mind if it were a tad easier, and I didn’t have to give up my jeans!

Ok enough venting.  I trained my ass off today.  Leg day of course, my fav!  I love it.  I get al pumped up all day for my legs, and they get all swollen when I am done.  Oh and I have found a newfoundlove for my most hated bodypart……..biceps.  I finally got some peak and some beautiful roundness, and they are coming in really hard.  I worked the hell out of them the last 3 months, so I am glad it is paying off.  I will post more pics whenever I figure out how the hell to do it.  Ok so it’s sleepy time.  Night my peeps

Hey y’all……it’s 12 weeks out, and I am ready!  I still look like a huge fat ass, but I am coming down.  I have a question………why is that I bulk just like other girls, but I just look bigger.  I think somehow I must put on mouch more fat than everyone else.  Otherwise there is no way to explain it.  I only bulked 17 pounds, but it feels like 47!  Oh well I will quit my bitching.  Anyways I have leaned up a lot, and my muffin top is all gone….yet I haven’t dropped a single pound.  Good news I guess, but for those of you who don’t regularly read my blog, I am 170 and 5′10".  That is a hell of  lot of weight.  I don’t stress though, and just go by the mirror.  Jeans fit now, but whoah they are tight in the thighs.  I have some major leg action going on, andit’s kinds really hard to git them in clothes.  Especially jeans! Ok so my diet is pretty much non eciting right now.  8 oz of protein at 6 meals, and my only other carbs besides veggies which don’t count really is an apple at my first meal and a quarter cup of oats at my 3rd.  Most people who ready my diet and seee my workouts trip on how lil carbs I survive on.  Just enough to keep me kinda sane.  I wish I was like a lot of girls and could eat a half cup of oatmeal at least in the morning, but if I did that I would blow up/.  I couldn’t even do that when I was bulking.  quarter cup is all i can handle at once.  I am a robot though and don’t think about it.  My fats are really high though since I am dieting off of salmon twice a day and steak once, with egg whites at 2 and protein shake with peanut butter at the other.  It’s really not bad.  Plus we believe in lots of salt for energy.  Some may disagree but to each their own/.  I have tested my body many different ways, and this work ffor me. So if you are reading this and you are trying it because I said so, DON’T!  I am not writing this for anyone else.  Anyways so my training is going great.  I work every bodypart twice a week right no.  It’s a lil much for my body to recover so I am gonna change it up a bit next week, but al in all my training has been great this week.  Cardio is an hour in the am and 20 min before bed.  Not bad.  I can actually live with this…..however it won’t be long till I gotta crank it up a lot more.  Anyways I am so tired right now and need a nap, but I will write later.  If anyone is reading this, I would love feedback on what you think about my blogs.  Most people say I am a lil unique in the way I write, and this I know.  I am just kinda different in a lot of ways.  But that is why you love me.  MUAH