sin2424’s BodyBlog

Well it wasn’t as I had hoped.  Nothing went well, I held tons of water due to sleeplessness and I was sickie!  I wasn’t as lean as I had hoped, and I kept going in and out of consciousness backstage.  My extensions died on me and got covered in all the oil, I popped at the nightshow and not for prejudging………..ok I could go on and on, but it’s over and I am moving on.  I placed 6th……….and don’t want to swell,,,.. so to all of y’all………..here’s to next season.  I am done with 2007………I ended with no trophies…….YET………………but 2008 I will come in leaner, harder, and more ready to compete!  MUah to all my supporters and to all that were wishing me well……….I wish onyl the best for all of you, and hope you all do beter than I.  Oh by the way, there were 11 girls in my class……I think, so I wasn’t at the very bottom in case you were all wondering. 

I wish I could write a lot, but I am so freaking dead!!!!!  Tomorrow is the big day for me guys, so wish me luck.  Officially I am coming in 18 pounds heavier this time.  It’s crazy.  I just hope the judges like the more blown up me!  Keep your fingers crossed!

Ok so I am ready!  Got my last back workout in today and killed it…………then did abs 3 times today……….I know overtrain blah blah blah…………….yeadda yadda yadda………whatever!  If y’all say you have never trained 3 timesin one day, you are lying.  I know everyone has.  What is the most anyone has ever trained?  Mine was 5 times………..would love to exlain it, but it’s crazy plain and simple.  Sometimes I just need the stress relief though.  Probably doing way more harm then good……but it is what it is.

Ok so I don’t have much else to report.  I am dialed in, I am contemplating what my carb up is gonna be.  I am going back and forth with GOO, pizza, or white rice and soy sauce.  Hell I might do all 3 with a glass of wine.  J/k………….last time in the am I was eating salty eggs, rice cakes, and eanut butter, and jelly, with some popcorn and chips………I went the junk food way, and I came out great, but I noticed my energy was all over the place throughout the day.  Oh I also ate chocolate cake, french fries, bread, candy, ooey gooey butter bars (yummy), and lots and lots of chocolate………..it was my fiest contest, and I had been dieting for 25 weeks………..I was HUNGRY!  Anyways I got that out of my system and I am thinking about going with the pizza.  Manders says she thinks I should before the night show…eat pizza and a glass of wine.  I am a lil skeptical………..but I might go for it.  Any advice from all you all?  And no judging the carb up last time…..Did I mention I was freaking hungry?  I hadn’t had sugar in 6 months…….But I am over it. 

Ok so it’s here….1 week till the show.  I am ready, and have lil to no energry left.  I did legs today, and killed them.  Actually I am already feeling the pain…….which is interesting since I didn’t even work them as hard as I usually do.  I was just exhausted after I drove all the way down to L.A………….which was supposed to be an hour drive…but turned into 2 hours and 45 min.  They closed the freaking 101, and made me late for Manders, and posing and training.  I died!  I literally might have killed every body in my way….but did getting mad help?  No, it just made me stressed out. Dieting and traffic are so not supposed to be mixed!

Ok so enough of that.  I am excited for the show.  I am really ready to have this over too.  I just wanna sit down with a jar of peanut butter, and I don’t want anyone to tell me not to eat it, or how much.  I probably would only eat a tablespoon extra or 2, but I just don’t want to have to measure it anymore.  Just once!  I have to stay lean this time due to the shoots and stuff…..so this is gonna suck.  I wanna bulk!  I love getting huge.  It makes me feel so strong.  Manders, says no though….she says I have enough size,…..I disagree………anyways this is a boring entry!  Sorry y’all it is not normal "Cindy" writing.  but as most everyone on here knows…the last week of dieting does this to you.  Oh well, maybe I will feel better tomorrow!

Ok what is wrong with this place?  I go in there yesterday and today……why you ask, oh if I have to tell ya….I met a cute guy at Max Muscle and he told me he worked out there….and it’s right across the street from my house.  The guy mentioned that all his friends worked out there and not Metrx because "Metrx is a metahead place, and we go where there’s chicks."  Ok I should have run from this statement, but I was curious to see what was up.  So I got a fabulous workout in.  Why was my workout so amazing?  Well I only had to train abs and acalves and do cardio…………….but I trained my abs for an hour and a half…..I couldn’t help but show oiff a lil.  I was wearing a lil top, and my abs are sick right now.  Kinda veiny and popping………….and not one choick was in the weight room………….plus most of the guys wished they could see their abs, hell, just feel them for them would be nice.  Anyways long story short………….guy was a nerd, and so was his friends.  Way cuter in street clothes…..funny but a guy can turn me off instantly by the way he trains.  What is this one lateral raise, and then some calf raises, and hell why not bench press while I am here………….for god’s sake, hire a trainer (and not one at 24 hour fitness please).  And they wonder why they don’t have "abs" or get results. 

Anyways I was climbing the stairs to who knows where (I swear I have climbed mount everest in the last 3 days)………….and I was thinking.  Do these people ever change?  Why workout if you never change.  Sure they may lose 5 pounds or gain 5 pounds, but do they ever really change?  I see my work is cut out for me in this world.  Oh and if another one of them asks me if I do steroids………I’m gonna lose it.  Get some education before you ask me a question, that if I answer in any way, your not gonna be prepared to handle the response.  If I say no, I am gonna say it and get offended….and if I say yes…..they are gonna gasp and be freaked out.  No win in my book….so don’t ask me.  It’s my business anyways!  Right?  God I hate that place!

Ok so 10 days till comp time.  I don’t write my diet or say how I am gonna deplete……..or even what supps………..it’s my lil secret, and the one thing I keep private.  So wish me luck all you peeps.  It’s crunch time!

Ok so the time is coming near, and I am excited but at the same time I can’t wait for this whole thing to be over….and to bulk again.  My coach says I can’t….photo shoots and DVD’s blah blah blah……….but that’s not what I am in this for……….I just like the sport.  I don’t actually even love competing on stage………..I just like bulking and shredding……..for me it might be a lifelong up and down.  At least the guy who wins this prize is gonna have two very different women to go to bed with.  I will be the pudgy jolly woman who eats everything in site, and is just a pleasure to be around, but carries a lil extra pudge……..or the psycho dieter who will rip your herad off at any given notice….but hey she looks freaking smoking.  Best of all worlds I guess………..you get positive and negatives with any relationship.

Ok I was just kidding with all of that.  Being shredded rocks.  I love it.  I love both stages, but clothes are so fun right now.  And it’s fun to go places where people just stare at you.  Went to Trader Joe’s tonight…and the guys and girls I guess, mouths dropped when I walked in.  I am tall…….5′10" and weigh right now 153, pretty shredded.  It’s a lot of woman.  Manders calls me her amazon………I just think I am a hell of a lot of woman to handle. 

Ok I am rambling…………dieting, low carb, yadda yadda yadda………..you know how I get.  People still reading my crap?  Just wondering cause I think the no carbs is making me a lil crazy.  Good Night Peeps!

Ok so today I just had to do cardio and abs in the Am………..and then I am done.  It feels amazing, cause let’s face it……my body is worked!  I amk so sore everywhere I tell ya it is crazy.  Who can work out this much and not just wanna die……me!  So I workout 3 times a day, 6 days a week, and once on sunday………..well to be perfectly honest I kinda do another cardio session before bed on Sundays.  With only 2 weeks to go, it’s a must.  Got a lil left to lose to be "on"…..so we do it, right?

Ok besides training, I am getting ready for my 30th birthday.  I am flying back to Omaha to celebrate…..yeahsers!  I so cannot wait!  I get to see all my friends I haven’t seen in a year, and God they are all gonna be so shocked at how much I have changed.  I have put on 25 pounds on solid muscle this year alone.  That’s a lot.  Of course I am 5"10",,,,,,,,,,so it doesn’t look at much as other people might appear.  Oh yesterday 2 different guys asked me if I am competing in Bodybuilding……they told me I have so much muscle for a figure girl……….that felt good!  I am on a high……….but then I am realistic, I look at my body and I don’t have enough.  I think I am too small even for figure……….let’s just see what the judges think.  Ok I gotta go and do something fun today.  Get out of my gym clothes and get all dressed up and feminine and pretty, and strut.

God I love that song………Strut….by I forgot who………….strut out……………..I am corny and delirious….it’s the no carbs!  Oh my new diet for 3 days is

Meal 1….5 egg whites, 1 yolk, 1 rice cake, P.B.

Meal 2…..1 can of tuna, veggies

Meal 3……….5 oz steak, veggies

Meal 4……..5 egg whites, 1 yolk, vegggies

Meal 5……1 can of tuna, veggies, 1 tbs. P.B.

Yum Yum………….low freaking carb.  how do I do it?  how do we all do it?  I am dying!  with 2 hours of cardio………my life is tired!

So today I went and trained at Venice Gold’s.  So fun.  I had my posing coach try and help me be more graceful and really teach me to stick it….and guess what….she did.  I feel so much better now.  Especially cause she is Monica Brant’s coach too………so I know I have the best.  Anyways as usual there, tons of freaks.  I felt at home.  God I was so small compared to all the girls there.  Well not all, I am still 5"10……..so on height I got it…but the women bodybuilders are amazing.  I caught myself thinking a couple of times how much I would love to maybe try bodybuilding instead of figure………..but then I woke myself up and realized that the look is not for me.  I am really tall………..and put that much size on me…..and Chinadoll is gonna look small I swear.  Have any women out there reading this thought of doing wrestling?  That also crossed my mind for a sec……….I would be great, but my family might be a lil embarrased. Oh well, just my thoughts that went through my head as I was doing cardio. 

Is anybody reading this?  Really, is anybody?  I do it for myself, but still I wouldn’t mind if someone had a comment here and there.  Hello people, wake up!

Oh diet is great………….I’m coming off a 4 day no carb………….so today I get woo hoo high carb.  Let me describe my idea of high carb………2 oz sweet potato at meals 1 and 3, and 2 rice cakes at meal 2…………………….this is my high carb……….with only 6 grams of carbs in each rice cake………..that’s 12 for thoise who can’t do math, and the very few that are in my 4 oz of sw. pot………………….Yep….I am dying still.  I had to sit down 4 times while we were posing cause I was going to faint.  Everything started spinning……….I thought I might fall over and then my coach made me laugh……………..she said she would have to scream "timber"…………due to how big I was.  She even tripped out how tall I am in my heels…………6"3" boys!  Love it!

God, I don’t think I am gonna be lean enough this time.  I just don’t think I am gonna pull it off………now don’t get me wrong I won’t look like the chick who always comes to the contest, you know her, she didn’t diet, didn’t drop water, but someone from 24 hour fitness told her she looked great, so she showed up and entered.  NOT GONNA BE ME PEOPLE!  I am lean, I think around 11-12 percent, but it’s just not as lean as I was last time.  I am really holding onto that last lil bit, and with 2 weeks and 4 days to go, I am ruinning out of time.  Anyone got any suggestions?  I think I am trying everything I can, but maybe someone knows something I don’t.  SUGGESTIONS are really appreciated!

Oh I am off to Gold’s on Friday for posing lessons….woo hoo.  Oh I meant to say Gold’s Venice……..I can’t wait.  Manders and I are gonna do cardio, then train, and then I got an appointment with monica brant’s coach.  I am excited.  If she can’t get me to pose right, than no one can.  I NEED THIS BAD!

Oh and I am gonna be in Mandy’s fitness video, so I guess this is my first job in the industry.  Oh and I have a photo shoot next week.  I am one busy girl…………..now if I could just get some more clients.  I haven’t made cards yet.,……I gotta get on that.

Ok guys I need to go and take a lil shower………..I am a sweaty mess.  Just did cardio, and am starving, so I need to go to beddiebye!  MUAH too all of you!