sin2424’s BodyBlog

Ok so I have dropped so small I am having problems fitting into anything.  I went to my girlfriends boutique to visit her, and of course, like any woiman who loves to shop, I found tons of things I loved.  So this skirt was in there………and it was so freaking hot! It was by stella Mccarthey……..anyways so my girl tells me to try on the small, and I am like I am no small……well I go in anyways and I try it on and it’s too freaking big……..I can’t even keep it on.  This may sound appealing to all the skinny anorexics in Newport Beach, but to me it was horrible.  I love being lean don’t get me wrong, and I love vascularity, but I like the bulking season more.  I like to be bigger.  Now I realize at 5′10"………I am never gonna be small, and to avoid looking like a house I should keep myself on the leaner and smaller side, but I wanted this skirt!  I tried on some cute new Taversito jeans, which is a total hot brand in case people from other parts of the country not as into fashion are wondering……….and they only had a 28…..and too big.  Ok that is small.  I forgot what it was like 3 weeks out.  My mom advised me today to not go and buy a whole new wardrobe since it is only gonna be like 3 months out of the year I fit into it…………..but come on clothes look amazing when you are lean, we all know it…………..you can go to Target, pick a shirt off the rack and twist it in whatever way, and make it look hot!  If your bulking, nothing looks good…………..it’s just a plain hard fact!

Ok so I am on day 3 of no carbs………….I get very little carbs back on saturday…………so one more day of suffering.  Let me tell ya what I have forgotten so far………keys misplaced: 3 times, ipod left at the gym: 2 times, cell phone left at home: 5 times, and falling asleep at the wheel: almost twice!  I am a danger to others I tell ya.  My family says I look like shit!  I get teased because I look like the walking dead, but tan!  Why oh why do we do this to ourselves?  Oh that’s right because we like to be the biggest baddest, hardest woman walking into a room.  Any woman out there that is reading this tell me if you agree with me…………when you are sitting at a table or anywhere and a man is looking over at you, you are wondering if you have more muscle than him, or if he is checking out ow ripped you are, and comparing himself to you?  It feels good I tell ya.  And than there is that moment when you make eye contact with another very in shape individual, you smile because you are both accepting each other, and giving one another your approval, saying I know your in the same club as me.  We are the same.  I think I have officially hit cheeseball now!  You can tell I have no carbs cause I am getting deep and rambling.  Ok peace out y’all…….bed is calling my name.  Tonight I wish there was a man in there with me.  I don’t usually wish that, but tonight I am in the mood!!!!  I need sleep, NIGHT!

Ok so I have dropped so small I am having problems fitting into anything.  I went to my girlfriends boutique to visit her, and of course, like any woiman who loves to shop, I found tons of things I loved.  So this skirt was in there………and it was so freaking hot! It was by stella Mccarthey……..anyways so my girl tells me to try on the small, and I am like I am no small……well I go in anyways and I try it on and it’s too freaking big……..I can’t even keep it on.  This may sound appealing to all the skinny anorexics in Newport Beach, but to me it was horrible.  I love being lean don’t get me wrong, and I love vascularity, but I like the bulking season more.  I like to be bigger.  Now I realize at 5′10"………I am never gonna be small, and to avoid looking like a house I should keep myself on the leaner and smaller side, but I wanted this skirt!  I tried on some cute new Taversito jeans, which is a total hot brand in case people from other parts of the country not as into fashion are wondering……….and they only had a 28…..and too big.  Ok that is small.  I forgot what it was like 3 weeks out.  My mom advised me today to not go and buy a whole new wardrobe since it is only gonna be like 3 months out of the year I fit into it…………..but come on clothes look amazing when you are lean, we all know it…………..you can go to Target, pick a shirt off the rack and twist it in whatever way, and make it look hot!  If your bulking, nothing looks good…………..it’s just a plain hard fact!

Ok so I am on day 3 of no carbs………….I get very little carbs back on saturday…………so one more day of suffering.  Let me tell ya what I have forgotten so far………keys misplaced: 3 times, ipod left at the gym: 2 times, cell phone left at home: 5 times, and falling asleep at the wheel: almost twice!  I am a danger to others I tell ya.  My family says I look like shit!  I get teased because I look like the walking dead, but tan!  Why oh why do we do this to ourselves?  Oh that’s right because we like to be the biggest baddest, hardest woman walking into a room.  Any woman out there that is reading this tell me if you agree with me…………when you are sitting at a table or anywhere and a man is looking over at you, you are wondering if you have more muscle than him, or if he is checking out ow ripped you are, and comparing himself to you?  It feels good I tell ya.  And than there is that moment when you make eye contact with another very in shape individual, you smile because you are both accepting each other, and giving one another your approval, saying I know your in the same club as me.  We are the same.  I think I have officially hit cheeseball now!  You can tell I have no carbs cause I am getting deep and rambling.  Ok peace out y’all…….bed is calling my name.  Tonight I wish there was a man in there with me.  I don’t usually wish that, but tonight I am in the mood!!!!  I need sleep, NIGHT!

Ok so I trained legs today……woopppeee……….killed them!  I wore my little booty shorts, cause I love to see all the muscles working when I train, and plus I look pretty good in them.  If I am wearing them though, it’s not very often, than watch out, I am ready to work!  My legs were soaked in sweat!  So fun I tell ya!

Ok I don’t really have much else to report.  I trained pretty hard today……….oh our new whole foods opened up today.  So I am in there and the fish mongers were all screaming at me to come and check out their fish.  And then one huge guy says to me……"you don’t even wanna look at our fish………..oh your dieting huh for a show…………how did he know?  I tripped out actually.  He was a bodybuilder type, but how do you know I am dieting, what if I just don’t like fish?  Funny!  Anyways our store is crazy it is so huge.  When I am done dieting I am gonna be a total regular.  They even have a wine and tapas bar.  And yes I love wine and bad food.  shoot me……..I don’t eat clean year round.  I just don’t!  I haven’t decided yet but I think I am gonna do a major bulk till spring.  It is rough on the mind…..but I love it. 

Ok I gotta go do cardio.  Night peeps!

Ok so I worked the hell out of my abs today………….why you ask would I work them 3 times today?? I got suckered into it kinda all day.  Ok so I do my cardio this morning, and I always train abs right after.  So I get this idea that I will tear them up and do a killer extra hard workout, which I do, all in the hopes that I can achieve even better abs than last time.  I had good ones at last show, and even the judges commented that they were pretty on point, but I want better.  Anyways so this trainer is in there that I talk to sometimes and he suggests we train them together, so I pushed myself that much more to do another ab workout with him.  Ok so I am dying for my first meal by the time I leave the gym, and I shake all the way to my car…….I could barely open the tupperware, everything was shaking and I was starting to lose consciouisness…….oh and what do I get to eat………3 oz steak and three egg whites, 1 yolk………..wow, tons of food I know….but it was enough to calm my blood sugar. 

Anyways so I go and train chest and tris tonight, while mixing in abs so I keep it up to a cardio level (remember I am not trying to build any muscle boys and girls, just burn off the last bit of fat and try and cut up as much as possible). But you all know that………….anyways and this guy is watching me.  He tried to talk to me last time I was there, but all he could manage was to ask me what move I was doing, and if I could show him how.  So he tells me there is this ab class tonight and I should come……..15 minutes, and he promised I would hurt.  I DID!!!!  It was an amazing class, and I was torn up……..now maybe it was because my abs want to kill me………..but I had to give it to her, it was tough.  She is also a figure girl……….we are everywhere at this gym.  Oh this is my new gym………..not my normal meathead gym that I love.  I had to stop going there at nights cause it is all bodybuilders and fitness chicks, and everyone has two cents to add in about my contest prep.  and I really can’t take it right now.  I don’t need to hear what I am doing wrong or right or in the middle, I don’t need to be offered more "supplements" to buy, I just had to leave the gym.  I do go there in the mornings, but I have my "rocky" inspired look so nobody seems to want to bother the guirl who is soaking wet and is wearing a hoodie in a gym that is 100 degrees.

Ok I could write forever tonight, but I gotta go to sleep. My tummy is growling, and I need to go to dream land.  I am gonna dream tonight of peanut butter melted on top of hot chocolate cake with a big scoop of vanilla ice crream on top………..does this not sound like heaven?  let me eat it in bed with a good man and some good loving……I could die a happy woman!  MUAH

Alright, I think it is definitely crunch time!  I am ready to go.  Suits have been tried on, and I am yes wearing the same ones as last time. I hate how my one piece fits, and see no reason for them in the first place.  We should only be in our 2 pieces the whole time, but that is just my opinion.  Anyways they r ready to go, and so am I. 

Dieting has so not been a problem this time.  I think I look miserable, but I am so not.  Last time in between all the training sessions you would find me in my bed crashed out for like 3 hours, and then I would get up to train again, only to come back to bed…….but this time I do things all day, so this has got to be better, right?  I don’t know, maybe my life has always been on a diet, so for me, this is nothing new.  Just a way of life.  We did decide today that I can’t get too much more size or I am going to start looking dudish!   I am too tall too put on too much.  Chine won’t have nothing on me I swear.  Spo for off season, my gpoal is to stay pretty lean and just try and put on as much clean muscle as I can in the places that need it…….chest, back,bis and shoulders maybe.  My bottom half doesn’t need anymore, and my tris are great, actually my shoulders have really stepped up this time and so has my back, I just want more people.

So I guess now I need a posing coach too.  Why??  Cause my posing sucks and I just can’t get it.  Mands says I come off way too sexy and like a stripper I guess.  Oh well who knows.  I guess posing school is for me.  I will take all the help I can get these days.  I want the trophy!

Ok so I decided to go over to sportclub irvine, where the motto is "this is where the beautiful people come to be seen".  Um yeah, ok but how about break a sweat.  The guys look at me like I am some dude, but they like what they see, they just can’t admit it.  So I am killing my back, and here is this guy who says to me…….you lift 70 lbs. for one arm rows………are you crazy….you’ll hurt yourself.  WHAT?  craziness.  I just laugh and said, yeah I got this sweetie.  you just worry about your poor weak ass self!

Anyways I got a new diet today and it is of course basically no carb, so here it is for all that are wondering:

1. 5 egg whites, 1 yolk, 1 grapefruit

2. 5 oz steak, lettuce

3. 5 egg whites, 1 yolk, lettuce

4. 5 oz salmon, 1 cup melon, 1 oz almonds

5. 5 egg whites, 1 yolk, steamed broccoli…………..and a whole bowl of s/f jello.

We have our reasons for the jello, it’s a must!

And away we go into dieting hell.  This is where I hate it.  I start to want to puke eggs!  It works though, and I just gotta suck it up and get through it.  4 weeks and change left.

Ok so when the contest is over I am off to Omaha, NE for my 30th birthday.  I lived there for 6 years, and most of my girlfriends live there still.  I am super excited, cause I will maintain my shredding………….I wanna be sick for my birthday, and then I will go back and do another pretty big bulk.  Mandy says I can’t gain all this again, and she won’t let me do such a large bulk next time, cause we have had to go to some extremes to get it off this time…………but I want it.  I want size, and I know this works!  I might just do it a lot slower this time, and take the time to grow………..I have till next spring for my next contests anyways.  Ok I gotta go and run off to Hollywood.  Time to go see Manders, and practice a lil posing.  Never can practice too much!

Ok so I decided to go over to sportclub irvine, where the motto is "this is where the beautiful people come to be seen".  Um yeah, ok but how about break a sweat.  The guys look at me like I am some dude, but they like what they see, they just can’t admit it.  So I am killing my back, and here is this guy who says to me…….you lift 70 lbs. for one arm rows………are you crazy….you’ll hurt yourself.  WHAT?  craziness.  I just laugh and said, yeah I got this sweetie.  you just worry about your poor weak ass self!

Anyways I got a new diet today and it is of course basically no carb, so here it is for all that are wondering:

1. 5 egg whites, 1 yolk, 1 grapefruit

2. 5 oz steak, lettuce

3. 5 egg whites, 1 yolk, lettuce

4. 5 oz salmon, 1 cup melon, 1 oz almonds

5. 5 egg whites, 1 yolk, steamed broccoli…………..and a whole bowl of s/f jello.

We have our reasons for the jello, it’s a must!

And away we go into dieting hell.  This is where I hate it.  I start to want to puke eggs!  It works though, and I just gotta suck it up and get through it.  4 weeks and change left.

Ok so when the contest is over I am off to Omaha, NE for my 30th birthday.  I lived there for 6 years, and most of my girlfriends live there still.  I am super excited, cause I will maintain my shredding………….I wanna be sick for my birthday, and then I will go back and do another pretty big bulk.  Mandy says I can’t gain all this again, and she won’t let me do such a large bulk next time, cause we have had to go to some extremes to get it off this time…………but I want it.  I want size, and I know this works!  I might just do it a lot slower this time, and take the time to grow………..I have till next spring for my next contests anyways.  Ok I gotta go and run off to Hollywood.  Time to go see Manders, and practice a lil posing.  Never can practice too much!

So I am a personal trainer now, and I am not sure i wrote that on here yet or not.  And I had my first client today.  He died!  He said he has had  4 trainers in his life, and I gave him the best workout of his life.  Hard enough to make him hurt, but just right so that he felt like he thoroughly couldnt do another rep.  I had a blast!  I am a lawyer I know, and I should practice law, but I am so not into it.  I love training and the only time I am happy is when I am in the gym.  I have trained tons of friends before and I train my mom, but this was different, I was getting paid!  WOOPPEE!

Anyways I myself trained legs today.  Focusing mainly on quads! Why is that I have ben training at my gym for 2 years, and almost always train pretty heavy, yet men are still trying to tell me what to do.  So I was on the leg press and I had loaded it with 7 plates on each side…….heavy, right?  Some jacka** trainer tries to tell me that it is tooooo heavy, and do I know that I have to do full extensions or else I am wasting my time?  Excuse me?  I asked him when he has competed, and he said never!  And then I said let me see your legs….and there is none of course!  So I said then leave the training to those who know how to train….loser!  I was gonna slap him.  Leave it to one of the big guys to tell him to get out of my way.  I swear, some men r clueless!

Oh did I mention I am single for life?  I am never gonna find someone who is right for me, and this actually makes me feel content knowing.  My little brother and I decided there is no one that is going to accept us, and noone that is going to get us, so why not be happy with our 2 little babies (our doggies).  He has an english bulldog and I have a pug.  We love them to death, and seriously have ruined lots of relationships over them.  I am sorry but the dog doesn’t bit**!  Anyways so my little brother who is also a bodybuilder, (and gay), and I are not looking at men anymore.  we r giving up!  Refreshing I think!

I’m not gonna write much tonight cause I am thoroughly worked!  I still gotta do my cardio before bed, and really this is where champions are made or broken.  I am one ofthose girls who is a perfectionist and I won’t be able to sleep if I don’t do it, but in truth, I really don’t want to, and I really just want to turn on a movie and go to bed!  Oh well, the life of a figure competitior.  Oh we did the big weigh in today.  Ok here it is, I am 5′10….and I now weigh 163 pounds…..which is more like 159 or so, cause I had tons of clothes, shoes, and had eaten 2 meals…….but regardless it is what it is!  I gained a solid 10 pounds of muscle since the last show, and am currently 14% bodyfat.  Gotta get that baby down for the show, but I have no worries.  I want to weigh in right at 150 this time.  We agreed that last time I was too sucked up, and this time I am going to come in a bit fuller.  So last time I was 135………..can you believe how much of a bulk I did?  I am way impressed!  As a woman though it still feels weird to weigh that much.  I was anorexic when I was in law school, and buloimic I guess, cause I was extremely addicted to laxatives.  anyways I got down to 108 pounds.  I looked disgusting, and was gooey and gross.  That was 6 years ago, and look at me now.  It still feels weird to want to put on weight, but the more size I put on, the more I want.  Everybody, this is a completely different package than what I brought last time.  I am coming in a lot bigger, and a hell of a lot harder!  Look out if you are competing at the tournament, I am bringing it!

I got in their today and trained my ass off!  I lifted so much I couldnt move my arms by the time I was done.  Then I go to leave the gym and there is this guy who’s a pro….big wooppee……..anyways he tells me I don’t train hard enough, but I should train with him.  WHAT THE F**K!!!!!!!!!  I train like a dude, i work till i am gonna drop, and i don’t train hard enough.  WOOOHHHHH was I pissed!  Wait till I tell mandy when I see her tomorrow.  We take pride in how hard we train!  My gym is a total meathead gym and there are tons of bodybuilders and pros and wannabe pros, and people who seriously need to take their head out of their booties and mind their own business.  I wanna scream!  Guess that means I am just gonna have to kick butt at this comp…………..and laugh! 

Do you think the guy was saying that really cause he just wanted to sleep with me maybe?  R we still in the third grade?  Myabe he should pull my pigtails!