Different Perspective

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Stress -  early morning, small workout results, long drive to work with a long day ahead, LOTS to do!  All of these types of stress welcome temptation! Each one attempts to bully me into eating wrong and unhealthy.  I manage a Baskin Robbins, and i am constantly staring at some sort of incredible tasting treat including full flavored ice creams coming at me in many flavors, peanut butter cups that are readily available, cookie dough pieces, reeses pieces, cookies, cake, need i say more?!?!  However, avoiding it is not as hard as you would think, but on this particular day,as a group,  they seem to be luring me in.  So I rush to indulge on the M&M’s.  This could be my cheat day right? Maybe? NO! I won’t have it! Or,…yes i will, i will. I poured myself a small cup of M & M’s and sat down to my morning paperwork.  I glance over at the colorfully filled cup and just stared. 

I thought to myself…"Do i really want to ruin a great week of eating right and exercising?"  It was now me vs. the M & M’s! i continued to stare as their color appeared to get brighter and more tempting by the second.  I could imagine the taste of chocolate, and my mind was going through all the reasons why it be ok to eat them ALL!  I even considered justifying the action by telling myself i had worked very hard this week and i deserve a break, and that i should reward myself.  I stretched out my hand to the cup, and if you could picture the huge battle scenes like in Gladiator or The patriot, or in the Lord of the Rings, or movies like that where two huge armies suddenlty collide in battle…, I swear that must have been what happened in my head so i paused…and slowly i started retracting my arm…I had won!

 I withdrew my hand from the cup, and took the M & M’s back to where the came from.  I strutted to the refridgerator where i had a cold can of fruit waiting for me.  I busted it open and i reaped my reward for a weeks worth of hard work and an unimaginable encounter with temptation that I overcame!  As I eat my fruit now, i feel more rewarded and accomplished than ever.  This is my prize, this is what it comes down to, and for today, I am a winner!

Did you know? It would take you walking the full length of a football field to burn off 1 m&m!!!

Yesterday i hit the gym after work for an excellent and satisfying workout.  I have noticed though how time crunching it is trying to incorporate and good solid workout plan.  I spend about 1.5 hours at the gym.  I try to squeeze in a body part each day (chest, back, legs) and then add 20-30 minutes of cardio on top of it.  We usually push about 15 reps per set.  What i have noticed is that i tend to feel a little rushed in the workout.  It may be a good thing to feel rushed so that i don’t take too much rest between sets.  My main point is that i can understand how some people actually feel as though they do not have enough time to workout.  I really feel bad for these individuals.  I understand some use the time topic as an excuse but i think some people are legit in their dilemma.  It takes a good amount of time to get a great workout in, and i’m willing to give that time, but at some points i feel a bit guilty that i have the time to spend and others do not.  …I think it is almost time for some new pics. 

I got to thinking about all the reasons i wanted to lose weight.  Among them are health, more confidence, and the other general reasons.  Lately i have started to define the reasons a little more by what i notice in day to day living.  One of the things i notice is the way i set things down at work, or DON’T set them down but let them drop the last foot so that i don’t have to bend all the way over.  That is just embarassing and lazy!  The other thing i noticed is how hard it is to simply tie a shoe.  I also notice that when i stand up i have to take about 2 stabilizing steps meaning i have to adjust the rest of my body and fat into a good posture to start moving so that my back doesn’t hurt…also embarassing.  Sometimes it is hard for me to even let my g/f get close because of how i feel about my looks, and i even feel uncomfortable because of my size.  She is not a big girl, but any weight on my already fully formed stomach causes me to lose my breath.  It may seem like i am really putting my self down, but in reality i am drawing on more motivation.  One little mistake in my diet, and i’m a little shaken but have been pretty successful with getting back on track quickly.  Sometimes the weekends are the hardest times to follow a lifestyle change.

So far it has been around one week since we have joined the gym, maybe it’s going on two?? I’m not sure, however, it has been a rough start.  It seemed like it took forever to get on a rythm, between gym times, day care, etc.  I have been able to work in both cardio and weight lifting.  I have been very surprised at how little i can actually lift.  My cardio seems to be the easiest part even though it is still a struggle.  I actually missed the muscle soreness that i am experiencing now.  I can still hear the little voice inside my head trying to talk me out of going to the gym, but i have been successful in my diligence and commitment.  I initially started going to do cardio in the morning, but decided to add it to my weightlifting session to save time.  I’m exciting that i have beaten the first big boss which is the initial start in changing my life.