shellyrene’s BodyBlog

I am hoping that by mid July I will comfortably fit into these shorts and tank top…currently, my biggest trouble spots are belly, thighs, and butt and the shorts dont make it beyond my thighs!!!!! BUTTTT…hahaha…..I am confident that I will be able to wear them by mid-August as I should be down almost ALL of the remaining 30 pounds by then!!!!!

I am feeling particularly sad today….. like REAAAAAALLLLLY really sad right now. For the most part i consider myself a positive person~~I try to see the good in people and things~~and I’m honest (to a fault) but….sometimes I have a tendancy to set very high goals which sometimes are not reasonable and then get disappointed when they dont work out. 

I am a dreamer and spend a big part of my day subconsiously fantasizing~~~like taking mini escapes from reality~~~it’s actually a stress coping technique that I developed when I was very young (a whole other story lol) but…it seems to work in a way because it allows me to sometimes separate myself from things when they become too much.

anyways…today finally took the time to face up to a not-so-pleasant ‘realization’ about something that I have to change in my life and truthfully its really complicated but its something i have been AVOIDING at all costs!! The Bible says "confession is good for the soul" and it’s because you are forced to admit somehting that needs to be CHANGED!! well, just like my endeavors to lose weight, eat right and make fitness a part of my life I am ready to put the effort into this area of my life as well….in a weird way, I think that it is going to help me in my perpetual quest for improvement.

well, my sadness is bittersweet because I know that the pain of facing the truth will bring me closer to peace and contentment….in the long run.

this might sound dumb but I know that fruits and vegetables and lean meats ARE ok but are potatoes considered ok? and what about yogurt?

ok…I JUST decided to go back to my natural (brunette) haircolor! Its been a LONG time~~~hmmmm since I was 16 I have been highlighting and coloring my hair. ..but, tonite my sister came over and she and my 2 girls convinced me to go dark! well, with my new body that Im working on and my new haorcolor—Ill get it done once I reach 150—-(good motivation to continue on toward 135) I really will be "transforming"  FUN!!!!!

seriously, i want to KNOW!!!!!!! I have been clear that I never want to be skinny…I just think it looks soooo dumb  lol   I think a woman should be curvy ~~~~not fat mind you. but…if I had to choose between chubby OR skinny i would pick chubby :)  My husband kindof influenced me alot though…he loves ‘chubby’ women and realllly never cared for what he calls the barbie doll type (especially skinny with fake boobs). his friends used to laugh because he wasnt afraid to admit that wasnt his thing and now I see that alot of men actually feel the same way. 

whats best if given the choice….

pamela anderson type (skinny with huge boobs)

oxygen magazine type (muscular —not tooo big though—–and firm )

do you prefer tall???short???skinny????chubby???blond????b
runette???girl next door????tell me!!!! haha

and what size is tooo big? (maybe you men dont know womens sizes but….size 00-18+

I started my transformation journey 15 months ago and lost 34 pounds in the first 11 months….sounds GREAT and yeah I am happy about that but NOW its been 3 1/2 months and I have stalled at 165 pounds! I think the problem is that I learned what ‘combination’ of exercise vs pigging out I have to do in order to avoid GAINING  hahaa. I sort of slipped back to my old eating habits but continue to work my ass off at the gym just to break even. sooooooo…its time  I knew it was coming……that I have to get serious and re-focus (I know i know I have been saying this for the last 3 1/2 months!) but seriously….I have a MINIMUM of 35 more pounds to go till i reach my goal….actually, my goal isnt really any set # but rather a look that I want to achieve…..and yeah a size 8 or 9 I think. …..at least this is my main goal and THEN ill reevaluate.so, i have the tools and the knowledge…I have the support on bodyspace  Thank YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! even though im tempted to set a date for my weight loss goal I will refrain from this and just say ok….Im baaaaaaaaaaack in this for REAL

these days we are soo busy and often stressed to meet the demands of life…its easy to lose sight of the things that are most important. we have soo many opportunities each day to ‘make a difference’….lately, when Im at work I really try to ‘be in the moment’ instead of act on ‘auto pilot’ and you know—it has made a big positive difference in my attitude about BeiNG at work in the first place!! I work at a psychiatric hospital where my communication makes a huge difference (whether dealiing with a psychotic patient who is disorganized and aggressive or a suicidal depressed teenager) BUT it doesnt matter whether you spend half your workday on the telephone dealing with strangers —they are still real human beings who may be having a horrible day and your kindness …some small kind comment on your part may help make their day just alittle brighter. what Im saying is that in our busy lives filled with modern technology lets not lose our humanity—our ability to reach out to others. lets spread the kindness to others as much as possible because when its all said and done THATS WHAT MATTERS!!! be understanding to that driver with the road rage whos riding your ass~~~its not a personal thing–or that cranky lady at the supermarket—because attitudes can be contagious…don’t assume someone elses bad day as your own. …if you and your loved ones are healthy and thriving you are among the luckiest people in the world!!

I knew it would happen sooner or later~~~someone left a not-so-nice comment on one of my pics….u know I have 2 reactions to this…ONE-it makes me wonder WHY some people go out of their way to be nasty???I mean, I KNOW Im not soo great but I am trying!! and TWO- it motivates me to get busy and lose the last 35 pounds so I can undoubtedly look my best at  age 40.

I love the first day of each month, it motivates me to make it a "good one"! I had become kindof "stuck" for awhile but now that spring is (finally) around the corner I am getting soo ready to get re-focused! I started using my weights at home now and will continue to do my cardio at the gym. I still have soo far to go but I’m getting more toned day by day