shelly826’s BodyBlog

Had a great weekend, I feel fabulous and really good about my training and diet. I had a kick ass back workout this morning followed by 30 minutes of moderate cardio.   Calories are low this week, just so I can feel less bloated and mentally not ‘pudgy.’  I need one good week of diet and trainig, then next weeks plan is to add calories and get back up to where I need to be for my gaining program (I swear…..next week is it).  The only thing that will throw me off is a business lunch Wednesday in Indianapolis.  While dieting, I took my food and everyone understood, now, I guess I need to chill and eat out with the rest.  Eventhough I make good choices dining out, I can’t stand eating off my plan, even if it is grilled fish and plain veggies……oh well.  Can’t wait for this to be a good week!@

I have been overindulging way too much this summer already….and it just started.  After avoiding family get togethers and hanging out with friends for so long, I guess I’ve been making up for it these past few weeks. I was so ready do commit, be on track and 100% with my off season plan (like I was when I was competing), but I’ve been finding myself enjoying weekend drinks more than I ever have in the past….this, NOT GOOD.  Last weekend, went a little overboard and had to meet a friend from the gym the next morning at the track for sprints…hung over.  I am feeling so bad about myself and I feel I look terrible, I just regret all the careless things I’ve done since I competed.  I can’t stand the weight that’s back on, it makes me ill to think about it….now my clothes actually fit instead of fall of of me, I know I shouldn’t stress, but it’s killing me!  Cutting back on the cardio and incrasing calories will get me to where I want to be….with more muscle, but it’s the ‘fun’ on the weekends that breaks me down during the week.  SOOOOOOO…….I guess I have nothing more to do but stop the fruity drinks in excess and more on fresh from here on out.  I know…’everything in moderation’ but moderation isn’t cutting it for me with the margaritas and grape smirnoffs on the weekends.  I’ve come to the realization that I’ve already had tooooo much fun tooooo early on and now it’s time to get serious or not.  I’m a black or white person, either I’m gonna do it all the way or no way at all.  My decison from here on out is to do it all the way.  Even thought it’s the 4th of July today, Josh and I may make a quick appearance at my Parent’s cook out party (taking my own 5oz of chicken since all they’ll have is burger and hot dogs) avoid the drinks I’m sure my mom will push on me, get home early and to bed so we can train bicep and triceps in the morning.  I know a lot of friends and family don’t ‘get it’ with my training and diet and I’ll have to keep skipping little events here and there, but if it makes me feel better about myself to avoid those things, then I’ll keep doing it.  I am who I am.