sheikgoddess’s BodyBlog

im so bored …i wanna eat diner but there is nothing i want…..so im not gonna force it…..my last day here berfore the move..wanted to hit all the good eateries before i leave….but as i walked around…..nothing appealing…..i had oatmeal and 4 slices of pizza..i know the pizza was bad…but im the the process of moving….so im not cooking and fridge is bear..i know excuses excuses

what a surprise…went to the gym for lunch to workout…left with an invigorating free massage  sponsered by the gym..cant get any better than that…:)……my next appt is tuesday…lol….

now its time for me to start purchacing a bikini and documenting my progress with that as a reference…i am no longer scared….lol….not to mention very focused…..im trying to beat all of these women here on bodyspace……playtime is over…meet ur new competition:):)

ok..i messed up…i had fried food….celebrating with my daughter…and i shouldnt have…i feel bad…my body is angry at me……lol…..why couldnt i have had broiled scallops instead of friend….lol

oh hummm…..

has anyone tried this?

today i will do cardio……..and wont be back in the gym for weights until mon……ill do some work at home…but my entire body is on hummmmm….achy…..

sure i wanna lose weight…but am i eating enuf??….for example i had oatmeal for bfast….a protein shake mid morning…a gigantic ceasar salad from saldworks…..shrimp ceasar ..my favorite..with light ceasar dressing…i didnt get the roll….and for dinner i had more oatmeal…..along with take my supplements and vitmins…am i eating enuf….i just dont want my body goin into starvation mode….

i need a massage so bad…lol..my muscles are working overtime…..but i know where to get one..so its no problem….my body is resisting today..saying…what the heck is going on…what are u doing to me???….lol..its a never ending battle of the budge..the budge of my stomach….thats the target….i will be doing my usual cardio for 30 minutes 2day at lunch..which usually consist of the hill program lvl 15 on the ellipital or treadmil…..i like going at lunch….i release lots of work-related stress……i am steadfast on my supplement intake…..heading in the right direction….had oatmeal ….weighed myself..didnt see much change..but thats to be expected….i will be going to the gym 2night…for leg work….drinking plenty of water…..no more sodas..even if they are diet….i have water rentetion like a mug…lol…cant do sodas…too much retention…..

ok…i worked on my abs alot today…i look at all these seasoned professional fitness inclined woman and men and i feel like i have no place in there..im trying hard..i really am….at least i thought i was until stepped on the scale and noticed a 5 pound jump…i dont wanna gain.i need to lose…is it my diet?….maybe..ill take some blame for that…i  havent been eating good..but ive been going to the gym pretty regularly….i had a revelation today…i really must work at this..like it a full time job….i have to eat good…maintain my low carb diet..take my supps and exercise…while being a mother..working as a bean counter and maintaining the household….i am also actually in the process of moving…i am sooo discouraged right now and stressed…but at least i know why…..im discourage because now i realize my entire program has to change..im not 18 anymore….i cant have donuts for breakfast—i am in denial about that….i need to maintain a fitness routine and stick with it….not so much in denial about that one…but i am in denial about just doing cardio all the time….i really need to put in serious work …whats frustrating is that my before pics are better than my after pics…..i will change that..sometimes u have to look at yourself in order to change urself..i wont give up..i cant give up..my boyfriend would kill me…lol..cause he knows i can do it..and he knew it all along….i just need to know it and maintain and become steadfast in my program…..so no to junk food..thats no longer an option….yea…i did think i was the exception..but my body quickly reminded me that im not…

until next week