selffirst’s BodyBlog

I’m staying about 175…I have completely changed my mindset regarding my weight….in the past, I felt my goal was to lose the weight through starving, over training……I feel so ****in stupid now….I can verbally express now what I want to achieve….And it is…..I want to build as much muscle mass as possible while eating healthy foods….My past has been a yo-yo existence when it came to food….Food was what I turned to for comfort,for my anger…at times it was my love…clear headed and focused….I had to learn that my  self respect….belonged it me…. That respect hinged on loving myself…that even though god was out there controlling things…I had to call on the god within myself…I had  forgotten that my body was a gift…my temple….once my foundation was built on limestone..turning to dust by the elements…Today that same foundation is built on granite…lasting strength…my goal now will be to be a positive force for others that believe all is lost cause brothers I was lost…truly…

9am…1st meal…2 eggs,small bagel with tablespoon of natty p

12am….Snack …about a half of cup of almonds or a large homemade protein bar

Work out…5 day split at least an hour

130pmAfter workout ….yogurt with some peanut butter…maybe cottage cheese

330pm Homemade chicken jerky maybe some oatmeal ,apple

600pm dinner….6to 8 ozs of meat chicken or beef, brown rice,,,usually two types of veggies

930pm…..a combo of cottage cheese, or a mixed green salad with cheese, meat,egg….

I have been waking up hungry in the middle of the night.At first, I told myself…tough no food…go back to sleep…but it continues to happen.I decided to log what I eat.I’m thinking I may need more protein in my diet…Currently I’m comsuming about 2200 calories…this is bumped up from 1800. I posted my hunger issues in a thread…… got alot of comments.My diet is a work in progress….I’m out….

I had a set back this week….I might have over lifted……I’m experiencing alot of lower back pain.Currently taking over the counter pain relievers…if the pain doesn’t subside…..Will see the doc……

I did what former heavy guys do I lost too much weight….within the last 2 weeks I have gained about 5 pounds…Since by diet has been clean I believe most of it is muscle….my abs and chest are still a work in progress but i pleased with my progress in this area….been hittin craigslist lookin for cheap equipment to build up my basement gym….peace

Increasing my dead lifts……increased weight loads by 10%.Ab excerises with increased weights….i wrestled in high school and college….continue to lose body fat but now going to battle with alittle bit of loose skin….I’m determined

Im now down to 11% BF…..Some of my friends are tellin me to be happy and stop but i still feel if I lose about 10 more pounds of fat I’ll be more lean……i have been increasing my weight loads to increase muscle mass in my arms ans chest,abs….

Starting to focus on upper body muscle progression in my arms and chest….still on cutiing diet to lose fat on stomach area….but stomach coming along..

kicked up cardio for the last couple of weeks….lost 2 pounds…stomach gettin leaner……