scorpion42’s BodyBlog

Damn soooo hungry today.I hate that!! So focused though,just need to stay busy so I don’t watch the clock  wondering ,hmmmm ,time to eat yet "Not yet girl " Only been 20 min.AHHH!!! Makes it for a long day.I can do it.There’s another girl out there dieting for the same show remember that T".Lean ,mean ,machine….lean,mean ,machine .Just keep saying that"

Just need to say it and then keep pushing.Today I’m feeling a little frustrated so i figured if I just vent a little .My workouts are  intense my diet is perfect and I’m feeling like things just aren’t changing at the rate I would like . I want to do this show soooo bad.I want to look amazing and do well.I know we can be our own worst critic,but still.I’m not giving up I guess it’s just one of those days.Maybe tomorrow my legs wil look better ,My shoulders will  look better.Everything  will look better because it’s a knew day and maybe my magic mirror will tell me what I want to hear."Mirror Mirror on the wall" LOL.I just needed to say it.

I haven’t wrote much about this lately,but my youngest son Joe had  a check up today with the liver Doc.He’s been having some issues.I’ve been TRYING not to stress about it,BUT I am a mom.Luckily the issues that he’s been having are an easy fix (Thank you GOD).Since Joe got Diagnosed with Liver disease My plan of action has been to find joy in my day know matter what.Doesn’t have to be all day just a moment even.And remeber the moment that brought me joy ,like don’t brush it off girl ,cause that moment matters. Prior to this I would always focus and bitch about all the sucky stuff that happened during the day. Ain’t worth it and I don’t put my energy there any more.He’s such a good little boy .Does what the nurses and Doc tell him and rarely ever cry’s about it.Then he comes home sits down with his lego guys and humms,hmmm,hmmm,hmmm,while he plays.How lucky am I !!!! At 4 he’s taught me so many lessons.

Hittin it hard ,Thats the way I like it.Workouts have been fanominal!!!! Yesturday was shoulders and abs.Kick a$$! Then some HITT Walked out of the gym drenched.This morning definately feeling the after effects.Today is my day off,much needed but when things are going well ,the endorphin rush and all makes it hard to take that time off.Hoping to have some photo’s done at the end of Aug.Hopefully the changes I’ve been working so hard for  will be there.

Basically, I have a love hate relationship with the step mill.Love what it’s doing for my glutes and legs.HATE how it makes me want to throw up .LOL,My work out partner  Defy47 and I have  decided that we are definately ready to climb the stairs of the statue of liberty without needing oxygen.Hehe.Goal is to have buns of steel by Oct.I don’t think that’s going to be hard to do.Oh !! What was that" I have an a$$ of a 20 yr old!! LMAO

Legs today,Love doing legs.Love pushing them as much as possible and I love the feeling by mid  day .The pain that really starts to creep in and by morning I’m  like Damn!!!!!!Excited about seeing changes thru hard work.Hams are really looking better,butt’s coming along.Love this !! Love watching my body react and change.Love being in control  of my body …Finally

I always look forward to my high days.Day 4 is my high day. I was just wondering if anyone else feels more tired the day after their high day? Crazy,

Strength is totally back!! YA!!!!!! I love it nothing better than feeling that feeling again.COMPLETE JOY!!!!!!

A knew girl joined the gym about 3wks ago.She’s in great shape!I could tell that she had recently just come a show.So today I stopped and introduced myself.Yes,she had done a show about 4wks ago.So  I said that I had started dieting for the Oct show.She’s doing the same one.Finally theres someone in the gym to really motivate me even more.I was the only one competeing till now.So psyched!!Just what I needed:)

Short and sweet this morning with the blog.I’ve really been working extra hard on shoulders and butt those ares really need to be brought up for Oct.All I have to say is my butt LOVES the eliptical.SWEEEET!!!!!!!