scorpion42’s BodyBlog

I knew I was doing everything right!I’m stubborn as can be,must be the scorpion in me.LOLThis is what I love.I love having the power to change my body to what my minds eye wants to see.To have the knowledge  and this discipline to do this  is an awesome feeling.Frustration has plagued me for months with my diet being tighter than ever.My workouts being dead on and my body fat and weight continuing to rise.I  would get so angry.Then I have to remember that if I didn’t have the knowledge and the discipline how much worse off I would be.I got my blood results back yesturday.I’m still running very low.It was actually a relief.I am doing everything totally right,but if I’m very hypo I’m going to stay VERY stuck.Hopefully I’ll find out on Monday how much more my thyroid meds will go up and hopefully this will be it.I was psyched yesturday to celebrate my 2 lb weight loss.It is a big deal ,To have no thyroid and to be running extremely low and still lose 2 lbs thats a crazy bitch on a mission,LOL Thats the scorpion ,fight till ya win.

I know I was going to wait until Sunday,but  just couldn’t.down 2 lbs. YAY!!!   By george I think I got it.LOL.Just kept trying.Didn’t give up and I think I ‘ve been able to bust thru this plateu..I think that my body just can’t process peanut butter.I was only using 1 tbls a day ,but I replaced it with 3 oz of salmon  in the am and a tbls of olive oil  around 2pm.I’m keeping my fingers crossed. Lets do this thang,let’s get ripped.

Changed things up again.Like a MAD scientist.Keep tweaking till we see something move.Changed the already clean diet to something different High protein,low carb ,moderate fat.Lost the peanut butter,that was a killer, lol.Added some more cardio.Really turned up the intensity of my workouts.Just when you think you are giving it your all you find you can push a little more.The leg workout this morning was awesome,now thats what I’m talkin about!!!Change is GOOD:)

I’m staying the course, even though my frustration is trying to railroad  my positivity.Every week the scale goes up alittle more.Terrifying actually to think,"I’m doing everything right".And still it goes up.I balance that thought out with "if you weren’t doing everything right can you imagine how big you’d be. It’s just I feel as though my vision is being taken ,and I’m fighting like a warrrior to save it.I atleast have gotten to the point where I’m not mean to myself,which is huge.Embracing the parts of my body that actually look a little better with a little more meat on them. LOL,I had my thyroid levels done on tues ,I upped my levoxyl myself today(Sorry Doc) ,I had to throw myself a rope.If the weight starts to move again then ,well I saved myself.Stay positive girl,there’s no other way  to reach the vision.

I’m going to TRY to stop being so mean to the girl in the mirror.I need to realize that this girl is strong, tenacious,driven, and so much more.All you can do my dear is know that you have worked as hard as you can and have stayed  95% clean on the diet .Rather than be frustrated by what you don’t see take pleasure in the things that  you do see .Stay focused,stay strong be kind to yourself .