I Can Do This
Well, the past month has been a total roller coaster for me. I was right on course with diet and training but then ended up with the flu….most likely swine flu. It took almost a entire 2 weeks for me to get over it andget back to the gym. Unfortunately, during the time I was sick I could only stomach soup, juice, and other "carb-y" things…..chicken breast an dbroccoli were competely out of the question. The problem is I have been having trouble for the past month getting back to the disciplin ethat I had before. A large part of the problem is the high stress levels that I am under at work recently. We have had more than a few critically ill patients recently and my hours are L-O-N-G, and I can only get lifting in about 3x/week now. With all the stress at work, I have been craving a giving in to the simple carbs that I had I gotten out of my system once again.
So here I am today totally frustrated and disappointed in myself. I refuse to step on the scale and taking pictures is definitely out of the question. I dont doubt that I can get things back in order, I am just pissed at the fact that I do this to myself. I have been getting up every morning at 4am, so that I can get to the gym by 4:55am to do 30 minutes of HIIT and be at the hospital by 5:45. Because of teh HIIT, I have been largely able to keep from putting on any significant weight, but if my diet was where it was supposed to be I would be seeing some lean cuts by now. Today I realized that my scrubs are fitting now, which means that I am bigger because they are usually too big. So, I have got to get myself together. I refuse to be a fat girl. I have plans to go to the Arnold in March, which is roughly 17 weeks away. I am choosingthat as my "Show Date" for a cut. Having a goal date helps me to stay strict with my diet and not allow justify allowing cheats.
So today was the last day that I will eat anything that I did not prepare and plan to eat as part of my daily meal plan.
I will get cut!
