I Can Do This
Well, the past month has been a total roller coaster for me. I was right on course with diet and training but then ended up with the flu….most likely swine flu. It took almost a entire 2 weeks for me to get over it andget back to the gym. Unfortunately, during the time I was sick I could only stomach soup, juice, and other "carb-y" things…..chicken breast an dbroccoli were competely out of the question. The problem is I have been having trouble for the past month getting back to the disciplin ethat I had before. A large part of the problem is the high stress levels that I am under at work recently. We have had more than a few critically ill patients recently and my hours are L-O-N-G, and I can only get lifting in about 3x/week now. With all the stress at work, I have been craving a giving in to the simple carbs that I had I gotten out of my system once again.
So here I am today totally frustrated and disappointed in myself. I refuse to step on the scale and taking pictures is definitely out of the question. I dont doubt that I can get things back in order, I am just pissed at the fact that I do this to myself. I have been getting up every morning at 4am, so that I can get to the gym by 4:55am to do 30 minutes of HIIT and be at the hospital by 5:45. Because of teh HIIT, I have been largely able to keep from putting on any significant weight, but if my diet was where it was supposed to be I would be seeing some lean cuts by now. Today I realized that my scrubs are fitting now, which means that I am bigger because they are usually too big. So, I have got to get myself together. I refuse to be a fat girl. I have plans to go to the Arnold in March, which is roughly 17 weeks away. I am choosingthat as my "Show Date" for a cut. Having a goal date helps me to stay strict with my diet and not allow justify allowing cheats.
So today was the last day that I will eat anything that I did not prepare and plan to eat as part of my daily meal plan.
I will get cut!
November 12, 2009 at 12:19 pm
Very meaningful, and I totally understand. I had caught some form of flu, and in trying to travel back home, had blacked out and then removed myself from the flight after medical attention. After two weeks, I’m back to normal after an 8 lb weight loss.
Your faith, as well as your inner courage and strength will see you through. You’ve come too far and will no doubt succeed. My most positive thoughts to you! MKH