Round Three…..Here We Go
So I am officially back to strict/clean diet and structured training. I have been eating high carbs (about 200g/day) since late June. I really wanted to see if I would be able to put on some muscle and not worry too much about staying lean. While I will admit that I loved every minute of it, I also had to stay away from the scale and the measuring tape or I would have had a cow and drop my calories and carbs so that I could get my weight down. It’s really difficult to see myself in the mirror at the gym with my thick mid-section, but I know that in about 8 weeks I will be able to see some definition in my abs. The funny thing is that everyone else who looks at me thinks that I am crazy because what they see when they look at me is completely different from what my eyes see. They don’t understand that just because I am relatively small, that doesn’t mean that I am lean. So I say that I am "fatty". I really have to focus on my overall goal to stay encouraged sometimes because I just don’t like being "fat".
So, here i am, ready to start the lean-out process again. The difference this time is I am in no hurry. I want to maximize fat loss without sacrificing any of my hard-earned muscle. My trainer and I are trying some new supplements. I want go into what we are using right now, but I do plan to keep a journal to record how my body responds. I will attempt to take regular photos and post so that I can truely see how my body composition changes ove rtime. Hopefully, everything will go as planned and in about 16 weeks I will be lean and chiseled, but still feminine and sexy 
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At this point I am not going to comit myself to a show. I have things going on in my professional life that I absolutely must focus on ove rthe next few months. Once those things are resolved and my body is where I think it should be to step on stage, I will chose a competition. The 2 prior competitions that I have done were OCB. I really think that I am going to try NPC for the next show. I was a little apprehesive to do so in the past because I know that some of the girls who compete in NPC use steroids, and I’m not interested in competing against that. I desire to stay natural and only wan tto compete against those who have made the same decision. Howver, over the past year I have seen that NPC is starting to reward the conditioned and toned, yet feminine figure and shying away form the hard mini-bodybuilder look. That is somewhat more promising. I think that there should be a distinct difference between female bodybuilders and figure competitors. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love the muscular-developed female physique, but also value the natural curves of being a woman. So I guess I will see where my physique goes over the next few months, and then try to find the appropriate show to compete in.
