Two Weeks To Go…
So I am now 2 weeks out and searching for some extra energy to get through this slump that I have seemed to fall into. My energy levl has been very low recently and I feel as though I am beyond exhausted. However, there is something in me that just will not allow me to quit (even though I sent my trainer a text message saying otherwise). Lack of sleep is really taking its toll on me. Although there are 2 other shows that I would like to compete in later this year, I really think that I am going to take some time off after this show. I will keep eating clean, but will likely limit my time in the gym to 4 days. Hopefully, as long as I keep my diet in check, I can limit fat while gaining a little bit more muscle.
As for the show, I am excited and anxious at the same time. Ready tohit the stage and do my thing, but still wisshing I had more muscle. Although I have done my very best with my training and diet, I know that there is always someone out there who did it just a little bit harder. And you never know who is going to show up. So I know I have to bring my very best, or its not even worth getting up there on that stage. Doing things a little different this time. I didn’t do tanning for the last show…got my Jantana Competition kit ordered (hopefully it will arrive tomorrow). Did all my own posing last time….3 sessions with posing coach this time. Still can’t quite hit the back pose everytime though. Still have time to work out the kinks though. The only thing that I have not done is picked a song for my individual presentation. Have no idea what I’m going to use. I don’t really listen to the radio that much, so I am at a lost. May end up going with something old that I am familiar with. My daughter will love that. She thinks that I am so old. Using my same suit, although I’m adding more stones to it. Decided to wait to get new suit b/c I am planning to get some girls before next show, so will need to get new one then.
All in all, I want to relax and enjoy myself in two weeks. Although it’s alway nice to bring home some hardware, I really do feel like my victory is my journey to the stage. In my chaotic world as an Ob/Gyn resident, being able to have the self-discipline and consistency in my training to even compete gives me a sense of pride and accomplishment that is only enhanced with the trophy.
