sarah_bright’s BodyBlog

I loved training for my last show.  I even loved dieting.  I loved having a specific goal to work for and I loved knowing that if I missed a workout or a meal it was REALLY going to matter.

But I really did not love the day of the competition.  It wasn’t that fun for me and I didn’t get that "rush" other competitors talk about getting.  I’ve done quite a bit of stagework (dancing, singing, whatever), and I’ve had that rush, I just didn’t get it that day.

 So now, I’m trying to decide if I want to do another one.  It doesn’t work to just pretend that I’m training for a show.  So…that is the question…

Man I hate leg training.  Its so heavy!  And that wouldn’t be so bad, but I am so sore today.  Okay, I won’t lie.  I love to be sore, but when I can barely stand up, thats not so fun.  But I do love the progress, so no more complaining.  And hey, I get two days rest before I need to train legs again!

Well, as I enter my last few days before my first show, I’m getting to experience some new things.  First, I don’t think I have a muscle that isn’t sore right now and I’m pretty tired.  But that is okay - I don’t mind being tired and I LOVE sore muscles.  What is killing me today is drinking so much water!!  I’m supposed to drink 2.5 gallons of water, which equals almost 10 liters.  I’m a little more than halfway there, but I feel like all I’m doing is filling water bottles.  And it isn’t making me feel very good.  Or maybe that’s just the tiredness.  In any case, this is something I hadn’t thought about! 

I’ll be drinking this much for a few days, and as soon as I get used to it, I’ll start drinking less.  The goal, of course, is to drop some water weight, so we’ll see how it goes!

Okay, so I’m freaking out just a little.  My comp is two weeks from tomorrow and although I feel like I’ve made enormous progress, there are so many details to take care of.  Suits, shoes, music, costumes, walking, posing…  Sometimes I feel like I’ve got it under control, but other times I feel completely lost.  Like now. 

And I’ve been wanting to cheat on my diet.  How stupid is that two weeks out?  I haven’t and I won’t.  I just wish I wasn’t so tempted.  This is new, too, I haven’t wanted to cheat at all for the past 14 weeks.  Weird.  Comp stress, I suppose!

Well, I don’t know that the changes were quite as dramatic in the past two weeks as they were the previous two weeks, but I am still making progress.  I’ve stopped losing weight so quickly, and even managed to put on .2 lbs.  Okay, I know, .2.  Nothing.  But at least it isn’t lower!  I’m going to believe that .2 lbs is solid muscle!

So I am 8 weeks out now and I’m really pleased with the latest changes.  My trainer has increased my calorie intake to help me put on a little more mass - turns out I’m pretty good at losing weight!

I also got my high heels, which I think are so fun.  I wear sneakers every day so anytime I get to put on fancy shoes I love it.

Training is going well, although it is tough.  I like it, though.  The dieting is not so bad, and I bet it’ll be even easier with the new food!

Okay maybe only I can see it, but my legs are starting to have a little more definition.  And my back is coming along.  I really should know better than to expect too much all at once but dammit I want it all!!  And I want it now!!  Okay, enough of that:)

So I was out of the gym for ten days this month to recover from my surgery and I don’t feel that I’ve made ANY progress over the past four weeks.  I’d like to blame it on the break, but I don’t know if I really can.  Ay…

So it turns out that SLDLs might not have been the best exercise for me today.  Evidently I’m still a little tender from the surgery.  But I powered through, however stupid that might have been.  The rest of the workout wasn’t so bad.  I mean, it was hard, but that’s how I like it.  And I made it, which is the important thing!