sammy_115’s BodyBlog

Today i really feel discouraged.  I am not seeing enough change fast enough.  I am trying to force myself to get onto the treadmill. I know that I wont see any results if I dont exercise.

A few of you have been asking how I am doing so here is my update.  I am still not working out as frequently as I want to BUT I have noticed I am working out more than before so that is progress.  I have increased the weights and have not had any injuries except my back is a bit sore.  I have noticed that I do have muscle groups beginning to show.  I havent lost any weight really but that doesnt bother me as I have noticed changes with my clothes. The skirts I wore to Mexico on vacation at Christmas were really really tight back then.  I wore the same skirt 2 days ago which actually twisted around so the front was the back somehow.  The shorts I bought at the end of last summer have to have a belt as the weight of my cell phone makes them fall down. I have to admit I really didnt know how bad my "thunder thighs" were until now that they are showing some muscle lines.  I know isnt nice to compare other women but there were a couple out for a walk the other day and I asked my sons if my thighs used to jiggle and be as big as theirs. I already knew the answer.

On the negative side of things, I have had 3 police officiers as clients lately. The first 2 were very self centered ego-maniacs which managed to make me feel bad about my self.  They were oogely at women etc and making a big fuss and looking down their noses at the out of shape Realtor-me.  I know that someone cant make you feel bad about yourself unless you let them but the fact that they were cops kinda intimidated me to begin with. The first 2 have closed but the last one doesnt close until Aug 20th. I would love to be in better shape by the time the last one closes as my little personal revenge.

But on a brighter note, I put my linen suit on and I looked like an elephant that slept in their pyjamas.  It was all wrinkly and way to big.  I think I will hang onto it for a while to remember how big I used to be.  I still cant fit the dress i want to wear to my neice’s wedding BUT i can get into it now just cant zip it up. Thats progress.

I am a little disappointed. I havent been able to work out much for the past month.  My job as a realtor has been getting in my way.  Clients call and then I have to run telling myself I will work out when I get back but it is usually too late and I am too tired and I skip.  I have been trying to work out first thing in the morning now instead.  Also, there was a death in my immediate family so motivation was at all time low. I am back now.  I have promised myself to try harder as I really really want this!  I am SO tired of being out of shape.  I must admit, I was dressing yesterday and I was actually able to squeeze into a skirt a purchased a year ago but could never wear so I must be doing something right.

So my niece was over printing her wedding invitations.  Thanks for the reminder that the wedding is coming up and I havent lost anything yet. I have been working out with a small set of weights 2,5,10lbs and I really feel that it is time to move up a little.  My wonderful sons decided to buy me some weights as an early Mother’s day present.  We go to the store and there was 2 starter kits.  One was a ladies set which seemed like it was the same weight I already had the other was a man’s that had much more weight.  I figured for the extra $20 I could "grow" more with the men’s kit.  So we bought the men’s and I couldnt wait to try it out!  however, here comes negative nelly…..what are you doing? are you trying to become an amazon woman?  You should be using really light weights and doing sets of 25.  I waited till he left and smiled as i strapped on 15 lbs for my curls.  Wow it felt good! there was a burn!  I didnt enjoy doing the squats with the barbell but then who really does?.  

So now that I have been doing this for 7 weeks, I am really disappointed that I am not getting the results I wanted.  I began researching what the problem could be.  I discovered that I am not working with heavy enough weights.  Apparently you should only be able to do 12 reps before the muscle tires. It would have been nice to know that 7 weeks ago.  So I am off to the store for some heavier weights.

This morning my male friend brings me a coffee.  We were chit chatting when he says stop.  All you think about is this fitness kick you are on.  You gotta stop, I dont want to hear this sh*t anymore.  So I am a little taken back.  I drink my coffee silently and listen to him ramble.  About an hour later, he states that this fitness thing I am doin is only a fad and it is like everything–I will do it for a while and then stop.  I quickly retort I have been doing this for 7 weeks and I am just starting.  This is permanent and I am not stopping-deal with it. I remember yesterday when i ran my hand over my shoulder and said, hey I think my deltoids are starting to form. He said, you dont have any muscles developing on your shoulders you just think you do. There is nothing there.  You just want there to be some so you think they are there to make yourself feel better. When I finally sat down alone with my thoughts I remembered the comments some of you had said about other people’s insecurity.  You guys are right. I think he is just trying to sabatoge me –yet again.  I want this–I want this BAD and damn it I will have it! 

I was unable to work out on Monday or Tuesday so back at it today.  In my infinate wisdom, I decided to use the bowflex today instead of the dumbbells.  Started out okay.  Triceps, biceps found myself having to increase the weight.  So 20lbs later on each rod it was time for squats.  Yah, almost died! man that hurt!  Got on my treadmill and thought okay this is just TOO hard.  Who am I kidding? I cant do this.  Then I remember all of your supportive comments and thought well maybe another 5 mins on here…which then turned into another 5 and I actually finished my workout.  Still hurting of course but I am done.  I do think it might be wise though to put another piece of pineapple in my post workout protien shake-if you know what I mean!

I am a realtor hence I show alot of condos to clients.  Yesterday, I happened to be showing a unit in a tight security building where the security guard has to unlock the elevator for you to gain access to the floor.  Well the guard was a little busy at the time and he forgot to unlock it. A resident was in the elevator and offered to unlock as high of a floor as her passcard could.  My client and I would have either take the elevator back down and wait for security or get off and walk up 3 flights.  Before I started working out this would have been a no-brainer! Take the elevator back down and…..

We got off and walked the 3 flights of stairs.  I was amazed!  i was okay.  I didnt pass out, I wasnt out of breath, I could have done a few more flights yee-haw!  I was so proud of myself. I really didnt want to be a medical emergency in front of a client. i did it!  i was composed, wasnt out of breath-nothing.

Even if the mirror isnt showing alot of progress, just being able to conquer the stairs is motivation to keep going.

After lifting weights and 50 minutes of cardio, I am tired. I hope I start seeing results soon.

After lifting weights and 50 minutes of cardio, I am tired. I hope I start seeing results soon.