DEPLOYMENT!!! I am scared, sad, mad so many things. I need your support.
Thursday we found out my husband will be deploying to the war in Nov or Dec. I know this happens to so many people and I truly feel for each and every person that has a loved one in this war. I have so many emotions running thru my mind, so many thoughts of what could be. I feel numb but I feel like i am freaking out. We went to a program the other day talking to the families of the soldiers, lots of information and support is out there. Thank goodness! Please keep my family in your thoughts a prayers at this time of need.
Since finding out we have been flying by the seat of our pants and I am embarrassed to say I have lost focus. I need it back more then ever. We have eaten whatever has been around. I do have to say I did fairly well (which is not nearly good enough) for instance dinner was provided and they have numerous things to eat I chose the chicken breast, and veggies but I had some carrot cake. DAMN! this is hard. But I have to get it back, tomorrow is the start of a new day. I want more then ever to compete in the contest, my husband my be able to take off during that time and I would love to see him competiton ready. To see the look on his face when we see each other would be one to remember forever. And most important how I feel about myself, the sense of real accomplishment, not only have I been able to handle my family, my home, but blossom during this time of sacrifice.
I need your encouragement now more then ever. I promise myself and BB.com I will post a progress pic per week starting at the end of this week.
October 4, 2009 at 3:10 pm
oh man I feel for you…try to have faith and believe it will turn out for the best…focusing on your fitness goals is a great distraction for you to put your focus and energy into while he’s gone..you can do this!
October 4, 2009 at 3:17 pm
Keep your head up and take pride in knowing that you are married to real man. There are not to many left in this world today. Try and replace your feelings of fear and sadness with pride and hope and the satisfaction of knowing that your husband is playing a role that needs to be played and that those of us that live in this country thank and appreciate him for his service and aslo thank and appreciate you for the sacrifices you also have to make. You and your family will be in my prayers and good luck with your fitness goals, there is no better distraction.
October 8, 2009 at 12:24 pm
it will be okay and you will do just fine while your husband is deployed…if anything this will give you a reason to focus…i went through a deployment with my boyfriend and although it was tough, i got through it knowing that he needed me to be strong for him here at home…your husband will appreciate knowing you are holding it down for him here and waiting for him to come home…the phone calls and emails will be what you live for every day and you will feel blessed as soon as you hear his voice…keep in mind that you have people here for you as well if you ever need support to vent or to just cry it out…the days will fly by faster than you think…take it from someone who has been there and will be there again…my boyfriend may deploy again soon and although it sucks, i’m proud of him for who he is, what he stands for, and what he is doing…we have to stand beside and behind our men through thick and thin and never ever let them see us break…we are their strength while they are away from home…you seem like you are a very strong woman…you can do this!!!