This is the start of my 2 weeks before the ball….
My husband and I are going to a military ball on Sept 11th, and I want to feel comfortable in my skin. It has been awhile for me to feel that way, along with more then half of the women on BB.com I am not sure I ever will but here goes. My plan to continue working out hard like I have been 6 days a week and to try to carb cycle (modified since I am still breast feeding). Pre cook most of my food for the week today and portion it out so once it is gone it is gone eating 6 meals a day. I am going to try to keep track of my intake and workouts at livestrong.com since the workout portion of this site takes more time then I have.
I am going to buy my dress this week it is strapless and I dont want to have rolls anywhere. But I have to get some conseling, since this may sound crazy to some, but I see myself in the mirror and feel cute and then have a pic taken and I want to hide (yuck) this puts a damper on the whole night as I feel foolish for feeling cute prior to seeing the pic. Like I said CRAZY!!!! My husband and I talk about this a lot but you see women who are not in bad shape but they wont wear shorts or a swim suit and then on the flip side you see 300 lb women that wear tight white capri pants to a club with a tank. What makes us so different, do those 300lb women feel more confident or what? I feel proud of myself and what I have accomplished but no where near through with my journey. In fact my journey is taking me to my first contest on stage June 2010 with my 14 year old son.
