ruthie74’s BodyBlog

Okay I have had a very difficult 3 years with many ups and downs. I gave birth in 2006 lost all the weight i gained and more….was very happy…..until in late 2007 i had my gallbladder removed and a month later I had kidney stones. I was in so much pain, I had to be hospitalized to so they can hook me up to morphine. When I got better I realized I had gained some weight. I was like ok I was sick, I will just get back on track. I exercised and was strict with my meals and come mid 2008 I gained more weight! I was mortified! I started feeling very fatigued all the time which was very unlike me. My skin was so dry and I gained so much weight in such a short period of time. I finally went to the Dr. told him what was going on and immediately tested my thyroid. Sure enough my thyroid levels were low and i was put on meds. Come 2009 I was still tired, still gaining weight. Checked my levels again about a month ago and increased my dosage. Just now I am starting to feel a little more energy. I worked out yesterday and it felt good for the first time in a long time! I don’t want to be one of those people that blame their weight gain on their thyroid! I have been researching this disease and still on the quest to try to find out how to live with this. I guess this means I must work harder than most but that’s OK. I’m not giving up. My self image right now is pretty low. Such a harsh weight gain in so little amount of time is hard for me to deal with. I struggle with it every day. I am not going to use this disease as a crutch! I am going to fight it all the way!

Where do I begin….I gained weight, my exercises have fallen down to the bottom of my priority list. I was diganosed with an underactive thyrod which made me feel so much more less confident about my fitness goals. I am going to school FULL time and my four daughters all under the age of 13 have become a regular scape goat excuses to why i have slipped in the past year or so. I hate being unfit. My eating habits have slipped. I dont eat fast food but I have been eating too much of everything at the wrong time. I have pulled out all my fitenss magazines and decided to start reading them again and start incorperating my health back into my daily routines. I have been focusing so much on my studies at school and my family that i have left my self behind and it is so darn right depressing to think that i cant even find the time to get to the gym. I barely got my hair cut this weekend and it felt so good to do something for myself that i decided it’s time to take over my life again. I am promising myself to look in bodybuilding.com for advise and inspiration on a daily baisis. I need the advise and the challenge….PLEASE feel free to friend me and I will be more than glad to recieve advise and motivation! And perhaps one day I can do the same for someone.  

I have a confession, it’s been months since I regularly worked out. I have many many reasons why I haven’t gone. All of them are good….my latest reason….I had gallbladder surgery about 3 weeks ago…now my membership ran out at the Y…i’m sooooo broke….me and hubby can’t afford to renew at the moment. I hate this i feel so depressed because I know i can find a way….but where is my will? I haven’t gained any weight. If anything I have lost weight, but I’m not happy because I also lost the tone I was developing. I’m soooo frustrated with myself. I have been telling myself…you have four daughters….one is a baby…excuses…..you just had major surgery….excuses….you go to school full time….excuses…..can someone kick me in the but please??? I think I need major help. Or at least some motivation.

Okay two weeks ago today I got a boob job…Doc said I can start exercising again this week but only cardio without arm movement and NO WEIGHTS! I’m feeling really down about this because before the surgery my baby got sick…so i couldn’t go workout for about two weeks there…then i went to the Y for a week…then I got sick for two weeks!….but no it doesn end there….then my other daughter got sick….(tummy virus) getting passed all through the house. Then it was time for my surgery…I haven’t worked out in about 2 months! My weight hasn’t changed…I cut my calories down to about 1350 since i haven’t been working out…..but it’s sooooo depressing to see my weight loss come to a hault. It seems like the only time i can lose weight is when I’m lifting and doing cardio. Cutting calories alone doesn’t seem to do much for me.

So depressing

I worked at the Y for 5 years and I was into the whole exercise thing for a while but my eating habits were out of control! My body fat went from 24% which wasn’t ideal for me to 31%. Then I got pregnant with my 3rd daughter (I have one step daughter too) but when I gave birth to her last year after gaining 70pounds during my pregnancy(ate like a pig) I had major post pardom depression….dr.s tried putting me on antidepressants, but i said I will handle this my way (I’m stubborn). I don’t work at the Y anymore but I started working out again at the Y….I took whatever knowledge I had from working there and everything else I learned from reading about nutrition and incorperated it into my whole family’s life. My daughters took classes so they can be able to be in the workout room and use the machines properly (it’s called teen start) We all workout together. We all eat healthy meals…no junk food allowed in the house….and very little tv….candy is only allowed once in a while….this may sound mean but we took all thier easter candy everyone gave them away and got rid of it. Well we let them eat a little bit of it. Anyway, last june I weighed in at 207 thats two months after giving birth…I refused to take the meds and decided to make all these changes….little by little my depression started to subside….and my weight started coming off….I went from 207 last June to 163….my body fat was 35% and now it’s down to 29! It wasn’t easy….and I’m still struggling….but at least I dont feel hopeless anymore….I can’t wait till I get to 135….I know my weight loss has slowed down a bit and thats why I am reevaluating my whole workout routine….and changed my eating routine…I am trying to eat 6 times a day….it’s been week one….not to bad…I also raised my calorie intake…I’ve read here at body building.com that I need to eat more calories to lose weight,…especially when you workout. 

I have been evaluating my exercise and eating habits…I have done good…but now it’s time to do better! I knew about eating 6 times a day is good but I haven’t ever really tried it…I started this week….it’s a little difficult when you’re used to eating a certain times of day. As for my workouts…I need to step up the pace, I think my muscles have grown accustomed to what I’m doing. I do change my workout around alot but I still think my muscles are even used to that….so I decided to go heavier with shorter reps…I hope I am making the right choice here and maybe wake up my muscles!

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