Ever feel like whatever you try to do to improve yourself that something is gonna sabotage you?
Go back 5 years. I was beginning to lose some weight and exercise again. That summer I was also doing a lot of remodeling jobs for some friends on the side….Ended up that through the summer I ended up developing a severe herniation in my back. Through the help of a good chiro and some core training, 2 years later I decided I could finally get back in the gym and start lifting.
About two months into my lifting I developed severe abdominal pain and ended up in the ER then being admitted to the hospital. They did an exploratory laproscopic surgery on me to hopefully find the problem as all of my other diagnostic tests came back normal. They ended up taking out my appendix and in the process giving me a free clot in my superior messentaric vein putting me on coumadin for the rest of my life. To top that off, they didn’t find the problem. Over the course of another year I was in and out of the hospital with the same pains and finally almost one year to the day later they finally figgured out it was my gall bladder and removed it.
For a year afterward I felt great. no problems….so after a little more than a year and putting on MANY pounds I decided I needed to get back at it. That was January of this year. Made all kinds of progress. Lost 50 plus pounds. Then a few wweeks ago I hurt my forearm. The docs feel it’s a pulled muscle. I wasn’t even able to hold the bar let alone lift with my upper body.
Last night. 2 weeks and a day after the pull I decided to try the muscle as it was beginning to feel a lot better. Well, it’s not nearly as better as I thought. I can’t even hold a dumbell in the starting position of a military press or bench press. I also can’t pull anything toward myself at all without severe pain. 
I’m at my wits end here.
I ended up just leaving the gym mid workout last night I was so frunstrated with myself. I’m very careful at the gym to use good form and to stretch etc as to not hurt anything…then I go out in the world and shit just happens. SOmetimes I feel like I’m the most unlucky sumbeech in the world.
SOry for the long post and the vent…but I really need to get this out of my system.
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