Take a Hard Look.
Ouch. Last night I reluctantly redid my pictures. I printed them too- first time I’ve done that. I have this urge to just delete all my old blogs, stats, pictures and just wash my hands clean of all my pathetic failures at a transformation. I cried when I saw my pictures. I’ve been in fat-girl denial thinking I still looked like I did when I was 150 pounds. I carefully critiqued everything that bothered me. Harsh I was. I can’t keep living in fat girl denial.
I’m going to post my new pictures soon and delete all my old posts, pictures and stats and start new. Is this the point where I’ve finally realized I can’t keep walking this thin line of obesity? Yeah, I’m on the lighter side of being obese too… The worst part to me is how fat my face has gotten- I can’t hide my face chub in a picture anymore.
Never thought I’d get here, but the only thing I can do is push on to the future and stop living my past and thinking I don’t need to try anymore.
October 27, 2009 at 2:45 pm
Dont delete those! This a JOURNEY! Then you can look at where you started, and see how far you have come! It is about accomplishing something. If you delete those, how can you see your accomplishment!
Dont look back! Just keep on working hard, and look forward. You cant change your past, but you can mold and shape your future through your choices.
Tara