the MOTIVATION PIT

I sit here and write this as my best friend in the world, my better half, my blessing from god, my soulmate, my girl Tabitha2686 is out there pursuing here dream. Today is the day that she takes her physical test, making her one step closer to fulfilling her destiny of becoming a police officer. She was real nervous and worried but, I know she will stomp the test into the ground she has been training like an animal. I am so proud of her and I wish I was with her cheering her on, but I am at work because we both know I couldn’t deal with someone yelling at her like a drill sergeant. I would run out there and beat the s#!t out of that person, I mean sure I’d get tasered and arrested but it would be worth it in my eyes. Her pursuing her dream makes me realize how we all have dreams and how many of us don’t go after them. We all find excuses not to go after them or we try and we don’t succeed and we get discourage and we don’t try again, I mean even I have fallen victim to doing this.  But I am stating today that I won’t be falling victim to this anymore. I will be going full speed a head after my dreams and I hope you all do the same. Life is to freaking short to not pursue what you want out of it. I owe this wake up call to love of my life Tabitha2686…THANK YOU BABY I LOVE YOU!

What drives me?

The fear of failing, the fear of being the same as everyone else, the fear of  blending in with a crowd, the fear of being a follower and not a leader, the fear of not being true to myself. What drives me is setting new goals and working toward them and crushing what I had expected. What drives me is being down in the hole under the bar with my legs quivering from all the weight thinking to myself it’s you vs. the weight and you better win. What drives me is knowing someone else is out there is busting there ass just as hard as me if not harder. We all have things that drive us. This is what drives me.

This is what I believe, this is what I follow, this is who I am. 

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