rawlife’s BodyBlog

   I’m seriously not putting myself in this situation again.  This morning, after 1 night with a migraine that made me want to cry, and 2 more days with a splitting headache, I finally woke up with dramatically less pain.  My tongue has been literally covered in thrush for 3 days and I have a big rash on my leg.  And it’s not because I’ve been slacking by any means, it’s the opposite.    I’ve, as you know, been getting progressively stricter and stricter…more animal like I guess you could say, eating the same exact thing every meal of the day-500grams berries, 500 grams meat.  And as you may well know yourself, the stricter you get, the less tolerant you become.  Then I went off it just slightly-not back to anything crazy just back to what I was doing prior eating the same thing every single meal of everyday-a few things I don’t normally eat daily, and boom!  Felt like I was run over by a truck. 

    On the one hand, it was much easier with a control that had so few variables to deal with, on the other, it doesn’t fit at all into my life or my current ability to maintain happiness.  I think this was the straw that broke the camel’s back.  From here on out, I’m going back to how I began raw: I am going to have planned cheat meals relatively often…maybe 1-4x a month, not just to keep from getting headaches, but to keep me a little more psychologically healthy.  I’ve been feeling this coming for a while now and I can’t stay this seperated from the rest of society.  I’ve got to integrate more and I think I can actually connect with way more people than I do if I just give in a little.  So that’s what I’m going to do.  100% raw when I’m on my own, then whatever on the few occassions when I go out.  Things seem to be coming full circle.

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