Development
I’m developing patience. For most of my life I didn’t quite understand how change came about, now I have a better understanding. There has to be some kind of stimulus; in most cases regarding living things, that stimulus is in the form of discomfort. On Christmas eve, while demonstrating for my cousins exaclty how it was that I lost feeling and function in one of my legs, I lost more function in that leg. I know, smart. I still have feeling, but I can tell the left glute is kind of slack whereas it was firm like the other side. Anyway, it’s not major and I’m pretty sure it will come back but it’s going to require more time. Funny this happened just now when I feel like I’ve developed such a good understanding of what I need to do to get everything in working order back there. I’m not real down about it-I’m getting something good out of it, patience. I can’t tack my back with me when I die, but I believe I can take patience with me. I have been dying to get this issue taken care of, it’s still going to get taken care of, that I’ve come to understand, it’s just going to take more time and probably an even better understanding of anatomy than I have now-and that could be another reason that this incident came about(to educate me).
This is very similar to what is going on with candida. Now that I feel like I’ve developed such a good understanding of what I have to do to get my digestive track back in working order(after being bombarded by excess antibiotic use), I actually have to wait several weeks until the probiotic I can make for it will be ready for consumption-and even then, I’m not sure if this exact blend will be the right one or not…but I do know I’m on the right track. That’s what gives me a sense of calm-this ever deepening understanding that I am on the right track and that it’s going to be ok in the end. Not only that, if I keep walking this path, it’s going to be better and better everyday as I collect more and more information.
I, just like most everyone else, experiment pretty often with my own body and lifestyle. Sometimes it turns out well, sometimes not but one thing is for sure: experiments with your own lifestyle may sometimes seem like they knock you back a few notches, but the truth is that you can almost always make up those notches and more real quick with the information you gained from the experiment. All you need to do is separate yourself from your feelings a little bit, calm down, look at what you’ve learned and apply it to the big picture. It’s objectivity combined with an understanding of life as you know it thus far…it’s drawing a temporary conclusion that’s a little further ahead in understanding than you were before.
