Damage Control
Christmas is over. I’m catching up on sleep and recovering from the good but cooked meals I had. First ones since last spring. First bite since last summer. I did come to a bit of a better understanding after this weekend though, one having to do with comfort. It seems that I’ve been devaluing comfort a bit too much in comparison to how much I’ve been valuing it’s counterpart, discomfort. I’d been feeling the craving for cooked for a month or so and denying myself and it grew progressively. So at Christmas I decided to quiet it down and give in to it. Turned out to be a good decision because it led me to understand, via experience, a lot of what I was saying in the last blog about comfort. The further from my normal comfort zone I got, the further I went to get back, meaning I binged on candy and chocolates and what not.
This led me to another conclusion: that a person would do very well trying trying to align their comfort directly with their discomfort, ie: a junk food addicted person desperately trying to eat normal because of how their malnourished and out of shape body makes him/her feel would do very well trying to make healthy food his/her comfort and lousy food further discomfort. Life has a way of making this happen automatically, it’s called learning or associating one thing with another-eventually it happens on it’s own, but with an awareness of it, the process is sped up a whole bunch. Part of the awareness comes from experiencing both sides of the equation and assessing how you honestly feel with the immediate and long term effects of both of those sides-ie: the junk food addicted person eats crap and then sits down and makes and honest assessment of how he feels right after, how he thinks he will feel if he keeps doing this, and where life will take him if he keeps doing this. Then after a period of calm and separation from the last act, he eats clean and goes through the same drill. As I’ve said before, the truth or the best path has a way of making itself known, there’s no real denying it because it just keeps coming, experience after experience, conscious self assessment or not.
In other news, I am moving in just a few days. Nice! Great Success. Bigger apartment and more central. Everyone’s dream! Mine too, but not really anymore to be totally honest. I’m going to love it, that’s for sure, but it’s time for me to get a place near the woods and the water. I need the fresh air and the energy. City life is taking it’s toll on me and I don’t plan on living it for too much longer. Another thing I don’t plan on living much longer is the one location life. It’s time for me to bounce back and forth a bit more, especially during Sweden’s winter darkness-not good for Paul, not one bit. That’s always been the live I’ve lived and I find that I miss it. I miss my family and friends in the States and I want to have more adventures in far out locations. I want to take some awesome pictures for my walls and get a few more great stories to tell. Story telling is amongst my favorite things to do. Maybe I’ll tell a story in one of these blogs sometime.
Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Gott Nytt Ar!
December 28, 2008 at 3:41 am
I can relate on so many levels to your post but, going home and being close to nature. Man, I had to refresh myself by going home and just playing in the snow( I should be too old for that) But, I needed the mountain air and to be on the road (or air) is great. Good Luck in 2009 but I don’t think you need luck
~Maxine
November 22, 2009 at 6:31 pm
Do you have any more information on this I was looking for this a few weeks ago and have only found your blog, were do you get your info? Can you point me in the right direction..