On the up and up
Training has been going well lately. This past week especially. I decided to go back to a bodypart split for a while and do some of whatever the hell I want. It’s been great. The more I think about it, the more I live it, the more importance I see in actually liking what I’m doing rather than always contemplating first about whether or not the following decision is a good one. So anyway, have done a bit more volume lately and even did one ‘back to the old days’ high volume workout with a buddy. I might do a few more of those. The thing is, I’m so sold on lower volume with higher intensity that I’m not really worried about ever getting stuck in high volume again. I know it’s not right for me in the long term, but for now it’s fun and it’s what I’m going to do. The same is true for diet, if I eat some food combination or too much fruit or whatever that isn’t the absolute ideal, the fact of the matter is that I’m so sold on the simple and the ideal that I’m not too worried about getting hooked or stuck in the old patterns because I just don’t like them as much. For a while they’re ok, but what keeps you coming back is results that you love and respect and I love and respect results that make me healthier, feel better, and look better-not just ones that make me feel better that moment-sometimes that’s ok, but it won’t be forever or even that long, it’s just good to let the mind relax a bit.
In other news, I spent one whole night puking my brains out about a week ago. First time since before raw that I would say that I actually got food poisoning. Funny thing is, both times I’ve had it now(before raw and last week) have been from vegetables rather than meat. In fact, I was getting a bit tired of meat there last week so I took a break for a while and just ate vegetables and fruit for a couple days; bought some funky looking lettuce but thought nothing of it, as usual, and then BAM! Puking my brains out all night long. Kinda sucked really. You know that feeling that you kind of expect while you’re puking to get right after you’re done puking? That sense of relief, the "AHHHH, it’s over, I feel much better now," feeling. Well I’ll be damned if it didn’t ever come. I kept waiting and waiting for it and I just felt like puking again after I got done puking. Was pretty much 100% again after a couple days though. That’s alright, everyone needs a fast and I hadn’t done one for a while.
In other news, I’m having women issues. The same ones as I’ve always had. I get together with someone, or hell I almost get together with someone and even before we can really call ourselves a couple, I start picking her apart, find all sorts of various imperfections from physical to mental to spiritual, and then stop wanting to be around her. Ha! It’s no wonder I don’t want them after a while-after having listed out everything that I find unattractive about them, I guess that’s pretty normal. Maybe I ought not do that. I swear, the moment I get together with a girl, I immediately feel caged in, like I’ve been captured and my life is over. I wonder if I don’t need a period of time kind of like I am doing with training right now where I just go out and have some fun. I’ve really never done that. I’ve never just dated a bunch of women and had a good time. Probably because I find myself constantly bouncing back and forth between being too nervous to talk to them and then incredibly irritated at all times when I do talk to them. I know, what a jerk. But honestly, I never learn. I can be in love with like 3 or 4 different girls in the time span of one day. I think it’s fun. Now if only I could only be myself around them. Something about a really attractive girl that can turn a guy into a damn idiot. I’m almost always that guy. I just want to say ‘hey wait, hey wait, watch me when I’m around these other people, that’s who I really am, I’m really that cool funny guy.’ But no, around them, I’m the guy that has nothing to say.
In regards to the back. Things are up and down, but I am more positive about the whole thing. Doing a lot of different types of therapy. Thinking about trying something called the Rosen Method, will have to look into that a bit more though. I got a massage last night and I think I’ll try and keep doing that maybe once a week or so. It was really good and since I told her to use the extra virgin coconut oil instead of regular massage oil, it was even better. So thanks to Jessica for that.
Last, a raw friend of mine passed a 5 ft long parasite the other day. I still can’t keep myself from laughing about it everytime I think about it, but I figured I would get a parasite cleanse and see what kind of stuff comes out of me, given that I’ve been raw for much longer than he has. I’ll keep you updated. I’ve got a date today, wish me luck.
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