rawlife’s BodyBlog

   Title says it all I guess. Been doing a bodypart split and volume!  Holy old school Batman!  Anyway, I was talking to a friend last night, telling her that it’s easy to get stuck not liking exercising when it always causes you pain.  Sometimes, in fact, most of the time, the opposite should be true.  I haven’t really believed in that line of thinking for most of my weightlifting career, if we can call it that, but now I’m rethinking.  It seems that, to continue moving forward, I have to derive a certain amount of immediate satisfaction from what I’m doing on a pretty regular basis.  Right now the great pumps and soreness are doin it for me.  Won’t always be the case, but right now it’s what works.

   I continue to ponder my next move.   I’ve got a Kombucha project going right now, I think online PT could be a good idea, and I’d like to get my own gym up and running.  Of course, that last one might only be possible if the first two are big successes.  When it comes to gyms themselves, Sweden is pretty far behind the rest of the modern world, as far as I can tell.  I know that even on the Faroes, in Torshavn, they had a much better gym than anything I’ve found here-and I’ve been around.  I think I could do well by putting together a holistic living fitness center here.  So well in fact, that I am hesitant to even write this publicly.  On the other hand, when things are spoken, they are put in motion.  That’s one of the very first steps, you see.

    In other news, I have but one living sequoia tree left!  Seems they don’t like Sweden.  I’d really like to start doing more local trees but I’m not advanced yet to the point where I have any success in just going out, getting some seeds directly from the tree, and growing them at home.  I’ve tried but no workie workie. 

   Haven’t been playing the guitar too much lately; would love to but the back keeps me from being able to sit for long periods of time.  I can lay down and play but that’s not quite as enjoyable(or as cool).  Someday I’m going to find the perfect balance between all of my interests.  I can feel things getting more balanced on a daily basis, but there is still some grinding going on-certain things getting pushed out of the way by certain other things.  I think the important thing is that I act.  If I keep acting, I will keep learning as the truth makes itself known.  What say you?

  Training has been going well lately.  This past week especially.  I decided to go back to a bodypart split for a while and do some of whatever the hell I want.  It’s been great.  The more I think about it, the more I live it, the more importance I see in actually liking what I’m doing rather than always contemplating first about whether or not the following decision is a good one.  So anyway, have done a bit more volume lately and even did one ‘back to the old days’ high volume workout with a buddy. I might do a few more of those.  The thing is, I’m so sold on lower volume with higher intensity that I’m not really worried about ever getting stuck in high volume again.  I know it’s not right for me in the long term, but for now it’s fun and it’s what I’m going to do.  The same is true for diet, if I eat some food combination or too much fruit or whatever that isn’t the absolute ideal, the fact of the matter is that I’m so sold on the simple and the ideal that I’m not too worried about getting hooked or stuck in the old patterns because I just don’t like them as much.  For a while they’re ok, but what keeps you coming back is results that you love and respect and I love and respect results that make me healthier, feel better, and look better-not just ones that make me feel better that moment-sometimes that’s ok, but it won’t be forever or even that long, it’s just good to let the mind relax a bit.

   In other news, I spent one whole night puking my brains out about a week ago.  First time since before raw that I would say that I actually got food poisoning.  Funny thing is, both times I’ve had it now(before raw and last week) have been from vegetables rather than meat.  In fact, I was getting a bit tired of meat there last week so I took a break for a while and just ate vegetables and fruit for a couple days; bought some funky looking lettuce but thought nothing of it, as usual, and then BAM!  Puking my brains out all night long.  Kinda sucked really.  You know that feeling that you kind of expect while you’re puking to get right after you’re done puking?  That sense of relief, the "AHHHH, it’s over, I feel much better now," feeling. Well I’ll be damned if it didn’t ever come.  I kept waiting and waiting for it and I just felt like puking again after I got done puking.  Was pretty much 100% again after a couple days though.  That’s alright, everyone needs a fast and I hadn’t done one for a while. 

   In other news, I’m having women issues.  The same ones as I’ve always had.  I get together with someone, or hell I almost get together with someone and even before we can really call ourselves a couple, I start picking her apart, find all sorts of various imperfections from physical to mental to spiritual, and then stop wanting to be around her.  Ha! It’s no wonder I don’t want them after a while-after having listed out everything that I find unattractive about them, I guess that’s pretty normal.  Maybe I ought not do that.  I swear, the moment I get together with a girl, I immediately feel caged in, like I’ve been captured and my life is over.  I wonder if I don’t need a period of time kind of like I am doing with training right now where I just go out and have some fun.  I’ve really never done that.  I’ve never just dated a bunch of women and had a good time.  Probably because I find myself constantly bouncing back and forth between being too nervous to talk to them and then incredibly irritated at all times when I do talk to them.  I know, what a jerk.  But honestly, I never learn.  I can be in love with like 3 or 4 different girls in the time span of one day.  I think it’s fun.  Now if only I could only be myself around them.  Something about a really attractive girl that can turn a guy into a damn idiot.  I’m almost always that guy.  I just want to say ‘hey wait, hey wait, watch me when I’m around these other people, that’s who I really am, I’m really that cool funny guy.’  But no, around them, I’m the guy that has nothing to say. 

  In regards to the back.  Things are up and down, but I am more positive about the whole thing.  Doing a lot of different types of therapy.  Thinking about trying something called the Rosen Method, will have to look into that a bit more though.  I got a massage last night and I think I’ll try and keep doing that maybe once a week or so.  It was really good and since I told her to use the extra virgin coconut oil instead of regular massage oil, it was even better.  So thanks to Jessica for that. 

   Last, a raw friend of mine passed a 5 ft long parasite the other day.  I still can’t keep myself from laughing about it everytime I think about it, but I figured I would get a parasite cleanse and see what kind of stuff comes out of me, given that I’ve been raw for much longer than he has.  I’ll keep you updated.  I’ve got a date today, wish me luck.

                      
                            P.

  Mistake first: I’m pretty sure that I kind of let life down yesterday. I booked a client the day before for 3pm, she came in at 10am. I had a feeling something was up and that I should have taken her right then and there , but instead I decided to be selfish and have my own workout and told her to come back at 3.  She does, I workout, no big deal.  Get an sms a bit later saying that she has hurt herself, rather severly from moving furniture.  I know that’s not my fault, but she came in early for a reason and I’m pretty sure that reason was to keep that from happening-because she was on the verge.  Damnit.  That was really disappointing.  I’m decently sure that even a little pump,a little cushioning, would have kept that from happening, or the fact that we worked out would have kept her from moving furniture at all.  Well, there’s not much I can do now but hope and pray for the best, but life did send me a signal yesterday; that is that I can’t just sit back on my laurels now that I don’t feel a burning to desire to talk to the alcoholics and the homeless any longer.  Still have to participate. 

   In other news, I have been experimenting a lot with nutrition lately.  For a while there, in an attempt to decrease even further my candida symptoms(which are very few to begin with), I was eating almost all animal products all the time with the exception of one piece of fruit a day, most days.  Well, I stopped feeling so good on that.  In fact, I felt pretty crappy as well as…now this could be bs, but I felt like I was aging faster all of the sudden-a gray hair popped up here and there, and my sleep was awful.  So anyway, I went in search of more info and I came across a guy named Dr. Doug Graham who has a totally different perspective on candida overgrowth.  Well not totally different, but different enough to get my attention.  He said that sugar is an issue, but more so, sugar combined with fat is the real issue.  He said that fat has a way of slowing the absoption of sugar(which I already knew) via coating the insulin that the pancreas secretes in an attempt to eschew the sugar out of the bloodstream.  Now I didn’t think of that.  His suggestion to his cients is that they drastically reduce their protein and fat intake, and increase their carb intake to 80%.  That’s basically candida blasphemy, so of course it piqued my interest.  I took his advice. 

   Now going into this I realized that I wasn’t going to do well on the new diet as is.  I would have to modify it.  I need 4K calories per day just to maintain my bodyweight.  That’s a hell of a lot of fruits and vegetables.  But to get a good base understanding, I didn’t change anything and just ate fruits all day(this wasn’t exactly his suggestion, he advices many more vegetables, but I don’t do whole vegetables).  Surprisingly to me, although I don’t know why, things worked as he said they would, for the most part.  By the end of the day I was noticing the candida symptoms coming up again, but that was after a whole ton of fruit, not spaced far apart either.  For the most part, it was ok, and had I eaten all that fruit plus the fat I normally eat, it would have been bad news-I know because I’ve experienced it.  So that’s another piece of information I didn’t have before that I can now use to my advantage. 

   So bottom line, I’m still experimenting, but I’m getting more info with every new day.  Animal products are still in the diet but they are kept far apart from fruits nowadays.  That’s been a great change.  In addition to that, I’ve further solidified my belief in the perfection of life and that the point really isn’t to try and sterilyze the things around you so you can live happily, but rather to try and live symbiotically with them-candida included.  I’ll tell you one thing, one of the best and worst things I ever did for myself was subject myself to numerous rounds of antibiotics(over the course of my whole life).