Update from Les Etats
Grandma passed over yesterday, calmly and peacefully. The funeral’s next monday morning and I’m leaving that afternoon. Kinda of funny about Grandma that all of my best memories of her seem to be when I am getting in trouble of some sort. I don’t know why I laugh at those memories but I do. I remember when I was 9 or 10 or so, I told one of my friends that she hated(a word she would never ever use) him and when she caught word of that she dragged me over to him by the ear and gave us both a talking to-I don’t remember exactly what she said. I remember getting swatted on the butt for being a jackass when she asked me to slice a roast and I ruined it. I remember getting reprimanded after asking my Aunt May how old she was. I remember getting easily the most sarcastic intro speech ever by her after I didn’t clean the car to her liking after she had lent it to me-"Paul, didn’t you like that car??" she said. I’m smiling right now thinking about all of these things. I think that’s good, because in the past they were kind of embarassing memories and now I just think they’re charming. The truth is that every other time I was around her, all she ever did was help me and care for me. In fact, she used to let me into my house on a friggin regular basis after I locked myself out it-a tradition I have kept alive to this very day. I remember a lecture she gave me about hate one time-about what a strong word that is and that ‘you(as in we) don’t hate anything.’ That sums up her attitute basically and I have a feeling that people are going to be coming out of the woodwork to pay their respects because of that attitude of hers and how it affected everyone she came into contact with. Just a real nice old lady.
All of this flying and driving is killing my back. But I am responding with love. Ha! I just felt like writing that. Seriously though, I am doing more Mckenzie exercises and back strengthening movements than I have ever done-feels like I’m doing something to counteract the pain almost constantly. That in and of itself is a pain. But you know what? Fugettaboutit. What I really need is a month where I don’t do anything that irritates it. I’ve noticed that it takes about 2 seconds to knock it out of whack and about 2 days to get it back into whack. If I get on a roll of a couple of days without pain, then it’s really a whole lot better and harder to dislodge. That’s what I need, a roll.
In other news, I keep experimenting with this candida issue. Again, I don’t have it real bad, it’s really more of an annoyance. Despite that though, it’s been one of the best things to ever happen to me-and kind of weird how it happened-with me doing something totally uncharacteristic of myself-taking antibiotics. Anyway, my diet has changed so much and I have such a better feel for it now that I’m actually very thankful. Not that I want this forever, but I’m thankful for the lesson it has taught me in finding truth-finding the best path through trial and error. Obviously I haven’t found the very best path yet or my stomach wouldn’t be making the crazy sounds that it often does but I’m getting there and I’m much farther along than I’ve ever been.
You know, had it not been for this, I think I would have lived a much less healthy life than I ever thought possible on a raw diet. I think most raw foodists are of the opinion that as long as they are raw they are healthy; I’ve found this not to be the case. I was eating fruit like candy. Huge amounts of sugar. That was the wrong path. I should have known-the signs were there: bad dandruff, bad body odor, and a general feeling of unease, anxiousness. That last one is the big one. I’m convinced that there is a big group of people out there experiencing what they think is the fault of a genetic chemical imbalance causing them to be depressed, angry, and anxious all the time when it’s really the result of a learned chemical imbalance via constant self imposed sugar highs and lows-which, I might add are much like real drug addictions in that you don’t actually feel the high, you just feel like you are back at default, back to where you need to be to function.
I guess I’ll leave you with that. I do have a big update to do pretty soon on what I call my secret life. For the last couple of months I have been having some unusual experiences that I kind of felt like keeping private, but I don’t feel like it anymore. So stay tuned.
