rawlife’s BodyBlog

  Good morning, good morning, good morning!  Nice to see you, thank you for coming.  I’ve realized something in the last few days.  Something that I’ve, of course, known logically for quite some time but hadn’t actually REAL-ized, that hadn’t actually diffused into my whole body just yet.  That is that many of the ‘mental’ problems people are suffering from, are actually physical problems resulting from poor nutrition and lack of sleep.  And I’m going to go out on a limb here and say that chronic anger is the biggest one and depression is the next biggest, often being a result of the anger.  I think, though, that a lot of people’s mental issues are the braindead child of chronic self inflicted physical abuse-not just depression and anger, but a whole slew of things that plenty of people take plenty of perscription drugs for, which, by the way, happen to end up in our waterways leaving us with toxic fish and dead plantlife.  

   With the exception of last night, because of an awesome conversation I had with my now ex Kristina, I have decided that for the time being it’s best that I start getting ready for bed at 8 and try and close my eyes by 9.15-9.30 or so.  I’m doing this, not because I particularly like it, but because roughly twice a week I have to wake up at 6 to train someone at 7 and if I were to only try and go to bed early on those nights, I would never be able to fall asleep.  Hence, the early bedtime every night.  I’ve also been eating great lately.  I mean really great, and I’m enjoying it.  In fact, a couple of times, I’ve walked by people eating junk and I’ve actually been very thankful that I ‘don’t have to do that.’  That I have come to the point in my life where I can actually turn my back for good or close to good if I want.  That I don’t have to be driven by that urge to act and kill myself slowly.  Now THAT, my friends, is a nice feeling.  The whole goal right now is to get inspiringly healthy; and, as I said in my last post, if I have to miss out on a couple of things because of it, then that’s what’s going to have to happen right now.  You make sacrifices in life for the greater good.

    I’ve noticed in these last couple of days, as my energy levels have been steadily increasing along with my dislike for low energy that I am actually in control over how I feel.  That even when falling into the old patterns of anger and resentment, I can say to myself ‘I don’t actually have to feel this way right now’ and then, seemingly magically to me, stop feeling that way.  This has never happened to me before.  In fact, I’ve always been a kind of slave to certain emotions-anger and frustration being the big ones.  Maybe because they’ve been the driving force in my life for so long.  They’ve been very useful, those two emotions, but I think it’s time to go.  It’s time for me to start doing things because I want to do things rather than doing things because I desperately don’t want the negation of those things.  There’s a damn big difference between those two motivating factors.  

   In other news, the workouts have been pretty stellar.  Did upperbody/lowerbody sessions this week and I’ll probably continue doing that for a few weeks.  It seems to me that one of the main issues with fullbody sessions and taking so many days off is that the growth hormonal effect on the body is not as great as with the daily sessions. I’m not just talking GH here, I’m talking testosterone as well.  I notice that when I do at least something daily, I’m a bit more like the person I’ve always identified with and when I train just 2x weekly, I’m a bit more subdued.  Having said that, it counts even if it’s just stretching, some cardio, and just a bit of strength training for a smaller muscle groups like forearms or neck or calves. 

    Anyway, I have a wedding to go to and I have a wrinkly suit that needs ironing.  I’m fasting today…we’ll see how that goes over at the banquet. Ha!

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