I wouldn’t call it a motivation issue…
I’d just say I’m having a hard time seeing any reason to continue pushing my physique-in regards to how it looks. I am kind of attracted to getting stronger; in fact, I think it’d be fun to be a whole lot stronger…but even then, what’s the point there? What do you do with it once you’re there? The constant awareness of being strong and a great physicial specimen only get’s me so far. It’s become real clear to me that the point of all of this stuff is not to achieve it, not to have it; it’s to get there. And if I am having a hard time seeing any reason to ‘get there,’ then it might be the case that I don’t have that much left to learn in regards to this particular subject-meaning, I’ve already learned pretty much all the lessons that I would going through the dieting, the intense training…etc.
My interests nowadays are very dominated by the idea of taking what we have already and making it perfect. Building the fully functional, strong, aesthetically pleasing physique within the confines of healthy living and sustainability-without that, it seems very destructive, selfish, and pointless to me. It has become less and less important to me to be better than the next guy; in fact, I would say that I can see myself almost not caring about that at all real soon. The fact of the matter is that I am, very likely, not going to be the next greatest bodybuilder that ever lived in regards to physique alone…but to be honest, I think that real soon pretty much everyone is going to forget about that goal anyway. More and more people are going to start wanting to just be the best they can be, and the best we can all be encompasses a whole lot more than just a good physique. It includes being healthy, definitely happy, and fully functional(haha, that’s something I need to work on). This is the direction I want to lead people in. One of the biggest things I have to work on is my tolerance for others and I guess you could even say, my arrogance. I have known, deep within, for a long time, that everyone has to be allowed to do the things they are most drawn towards doing, but there are still so many occasions where I don’t ‘feel’ that thought. There are many times when I just look down at the people who are doing the very same things I was doing just several years back-these are the times when I am most confused, because no one truly understanding of the nature of life would do that. Everyone has to feel ok about living the lives they feel most drawn towards living, no matter how destructive-they have to be allowed to feel, to think, to be who they are. But it’s not going to last long. Bodybuilding is very symbolic of a lot of things that aren’t going to last long in the near future-the bigger is better mentality, the consume until you literally can’t consume any longer mentality, this banging our heads against the wall kind of lifestyle that makes people strive for years and years for the tiniest improvements-physical improvements, that are only noticed by others doing the same thing. What it all adds up to is people worshipping their sense of comfort, or their ideas of how life ’should’ be(I am very guilty of this). Instead of living for happiness, love, truth, health-things that last, we worship a constantly changing, ever increasing sense of comfort or mold that can never be reached for more than mere moments.
March 22, 2008 at 9:01 am
Couldnt agree more, well said. The very fact that bodybuilding has become somewhat of a mental illness is enough to make one think that it is virtually as dangerous as anorexia nervosa. I think Im going to go ahead and go with the Batman theory, be the most balanced speciment that I can be!