Blog Entry
I hate how every time stuff is going so so so well, it freaks me out to the point that I intentionally sabotage it. Like yesterday, when I had made it nearly a week without bingeing, was losing weight steadily, actually very close to a FLAT stomach- I binged. Considering I ate over nearly 8000 calories yesterday, that probably puts me back to at least at 150, not incl. water weight. So, long ways to go. On the bright side, my body is still less toxic, considering I haven’t purged in nearly 3 weeks. Tried on jeans today- I think I’m a 7. While that’s better than the 9 I was during winter break, that’s not too close to the 2 or 3 that I’d like to be, that I’m used to being. At 5′4" - 5′6", a size 7 is big. I’d like to be smaller. A strong BAMF, confident, small person.
April 17, 2008 at 9:05 pm
hey frolik
You seem like a very determined and genuine person..so.,..
I have the same problem when I am doing well with eating a good variety of food and working out consistently…sabotaging!! It’s so hard to get past a certain point, even though I have tried several times. I end up convincing myself that I can "eat just this one thing…" and get a bit carried away.
What’s been working for me lately is to do something else I enjoy when I feel like eating alot of something I didn’t plan on eating…like scrapbook or calling a friend.
Plus, I don’t focus on my pant sizes anymore…I cut out the tags cuz it just brings me down if it’s not the number my brain wants to see! lol
ANyways, I am rooting for you. Like you say, one day at a time!!