psytrak

Well lately I’ve been extremely stressed, mainly work, and the other day I came home from a particularly bad day when I got into it over the phone with my father. Parents…. Even when you’re a parent yourself they still boss you around. So, not noticing I got wise with him and I could tell in his voice he was upset. As soon as I tried to apologize it was already too late, he said, I’ll talk to you later and hung up. Needless to say I felt worse, so as not to take it out on the wife and kids, I did as I always to and separated myself to calm down.

My wife is pimp. She came up and said, what’s wrong, to seem upset. I told her what happened; she kissed my head, and told me come down when you are ready. I stared at the computer; angry for about a minute or so, then told myself, either you can do something about it or continue to sit here like a lump on a log. So, a few updates to the resume and I’m posting away. That doesn’t help, well, no wonder; I’m still focused on what’s got me upset; so after 30 minutes or so I decided to work out. I must have done about tow hours of kettlebell workouts, then decided to stop. The combination of adrenaline, fatigue, music, and my wife & son popping there heads in really helped. After I was done, took a shower, grabbed the boy and sat down with the family to watch TV.

The thing that bothers me a lot is when I’ve got a lot of BS on the brain, training suffers. I’d like to say that it doesn’t but it does. Being upset all take takes a lot of energy, lets not even start with the loss of appetite. I know that throughout the day I’m going to have my moments that cheer me up, but, I’m worried that my performance is going to suffer. Jiu-Jitsu is like chess with the ability to break bones, the last thing you want it to be off your game. The chances of you getting hurt as not as high as the chances of you hurting someone, so it’s a concern, but at the same time, it’s days like this where I sometimes focus more. All and all, the rain, and the ****ed vibe at work aren’t making the hours tick faster.

Well that’s my pitty party for the day. Training is going to be just what the doctor ordered…

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