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Hello all! I know that it’s been a while since I’ve posted a new blog, but I’ve been a bit out of the loop. There have been a lot of personal changes going on and I have not had the time to come on here and write; trust me I’ve been wanting to. Not looking for a awwwwe sorry to hear that but this bit of information is part of why. I lost my job in May and have been having one hell of a time finding a new one, so I’m a stay at home father until I start working again. Most of my limited time on the computer is spent looking for a new job, but I’ve run away from the kids for a little…. Now on the reason of this blog.

My training has hit an all time low! No more five days a week–three for BJJ and two for CF / kettleballs, The eating has been crap, and over all I’ve slipped back into my bad habits… I do still get my random 100 push ups in, but nothing as routine as before. I find it a testament to my Ectomorph metabolism that I have not gone past my limit of 175lbs, but the abs are not as tight as I would like them… My plan is to get the money for my last two helmets drive to the bike shop, pick up my single gear road bike, take a symbolic 20 mile ride home and start back on my track to full body fitness again! There are some other things in the works, namely a great personal challenge if some things turn out a certain way but I’m keeping those under wraps until I start making the moves that need to be made.
It’s not about getting the body to look the way it was in the photo, because that can be done in a week, sorry if that came off big headed, but it’s the ecto-curse, fast fat burn, slow muscle build. It’s about getting that all day energy, the jump around because you have so much and you don’t know what to do with it that I want back. The only way that I can do that is diet, diet, diet! Thanks to the few of you that kept in touch, and it’s because of your contact that I’m still driven to get back on that horse!

I know that people say, I’m doing this tomorrow, blah blah blah…. For me it’s the truth, I’ve been slacking for way too long, and now I have the drive to say enough!I only have breakfast planned for now, but that’s enough to start with. Here’s the plan for the morning.

1/2 cream of wheat –using water not milk, sweetened with honey, and fax seeds for extra fiber. That will be served with a protein shake, and fruit.

Meal 2: Fruit, tuna on rice cake with water

lunch: If I’m home brown rice, protein shake, salad

Meal 4: Don’t know yet…..

Training: Jiu-Jitsu…

Any food / workout suggestions would be great!

Last night I went to the Royler Gracie seminar at the school I attend, and let me tell you that was an awesome experience. For two hours I was able to see how a sixth degree Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu Black Belt thinks. Best of all the information that we got came from as close to the source of the art that I love as anyone can ever get. I mean aside from speaking with Helio or Carlos you cannot get a more direct source then that. I kept thinking, wow what was it like growing up a Gracie, how where the simple sibling fights? That must have been a sight to see, two five year olds going at it with more natural movement then grown men. That to me was the most awe inspiring part of it all. You could see that the moves where so second nature that the way he looked at the human body wasn’t the same as anyone else. All and all it was a great learning experience! I cannot wait to apply the thought processes I saw last night to me future fights!

Ok, the ugly ring worm is gone from my forehead and wrist, I could have trained last night, but didn’t want to chance it. This morning I wake up and BAM!!!!!!!!!!! All gone, just a little redness, but that’s not contagious! So happy! Two weeks off the mats and I felt like the biggest slacker, I didn’t want to go just to watch because I would have wanted to get in and mix it up, not to mention shaking hands, and risking a spread, but it’s full throttle from here on out! The best part of all of this is that the day I go back I’m partaking in a seminar with none-other then the great Royler Gracie! You want to talk about someone that you’d love to meet one in your life time, Royler, Rickson, and of coarse the man himself, the founder of BJJ Mr. Helio Gracie! He’s like 96years old, and I’d like to meet him before he passes, but who knows when that’s going to be, or if that’s going to be, I’ll make sure to take photos of the event! Man I’m excited!

I’ve been doing my K-Bell CF while off the mats this was last nights–I named it Natasha….

100 clean and Jerks each arm with me 16Kg bell

200 push ups

200 Swissball reverse crunches

200 curls with bell (double grip on one bell)

I got as far as 57 on the clean & Jerks before I felt it would be unsafe to do anymore.

OK, so aside from a stretch of not so good times I can deal, but not being able to train opens a box of badness. I don’t know where it came from, or if anyone else in class has it, but I’ve got ring worm on my wrist, but worst of all on my forehead! That tells me it’s not from my dirty Gi, but from someone else and their dirty butt! That pisses me off, I have to miss at least one week of training because of someone else. That’s one week of forgetting, one week of techniques, 8-10 hours of mat time, and at least one week away from my selfish time! I don’t know a lot about this thing so I’m even a bit scared to break a sweat while training with weight, call me scared, and I’ll agree.

If you’ve never had it before, do your best not to ever get it. Ring worm is a fungus, and highly contagious, wrestlers and bebe kids get it a lot. Wrestlers get it from dirty mats, people that don’t wash the gym gear then train, or from leaving old gear in a dark place then training with it. We ground fighters are very clean people for that reason alone. I’ll admit that when I’m sparring with someone and they comment on my Gi smelling fresh as a summers breeze or that it’s downy soft…. Like the old spice commercial… uhehg Your skin is soft…. Not manly….

I’m going to chance it and workout tonight, the best part of not having a job is the mid day nap… The worst part is loss of motivation, you have all day to do it, but you’re more focused on finding a job that you spend more energy looking for work then you do when you’re working… All and all, I’m getting positive feed back, now I just have to see which place I want to work for, then I might go cray and get a gym membership…

Ok, I know that it’s been long time since my last post–why does this feel like confession? How would I know what that feels like when I’m not even Catholic? Anyway, I’ve been going through a lot of that life stuff… Just as I was getting into the swing of things I lost my job, so, yeah, that sucks, but at least I get a months worth of pay out of the deal, some extra sleep, and a tad more stress with the whole looking for a new job thing. With all that said getting on here has been the last thing on my mind until today. I guess that the people at BB knew that we are some lazy folks, and given the opportunity we’d slack, being the good spot that they are they sent me an email; which is goos because I haven’t been on here in a while other then checking to see if I have mail. That’s the long a the short of it, my goal of six pack by June got side lined, and my clean eating has been fighting to stay with me, all and all I have to start from square one again! Didn’t gain any weight, but lost a lot of discipline…

This week has been really trying for the training. Tonight is K-bell night, and the first training that I’ve done since Sunday. Monday night I got paged, and was feeling mentally out of it, so I used that as my excuse not to go to class that night. I’m sure the issue could have waited, but the recent loss of energy took a toll Monday on top of the at work bullship. So, I didn’t train, didn’t workout, just vegged; Tuesday was more of the same, plus some bad eating; well that was the whole weekend too. I wasn’t eating unhealthy, just wasn’t eating. I completely killed my 2-3hr rule. Sigh…. Crazy week, that continued into the weekend.
My wife had her wisdom teeth pulled on Friday, and I felt guilty eating around her because she cannot chew–poor girl… Tuesday I had to leave work early to get my son from school, then log back into work to finish the day off. Somewhere in there he decided that mash potatoes  would be the perfect food, so I agreed to "help" him cook them…. Yeah that didn’t last long I think the most he did was get the potatoes, then he saw his friend, and didn’t come back until I called him to eat. Can you believe the little thunder thief tried to say he cooked dinner…. The nerve… lol Since my wife was watching my cousins store all day I told her I’d stay home and take care of the kids so she could relax… Little did she know my version of taking care of the kids is wrestling and yelling… I think she had fun watching me throw my son off my back while tickling my daughter….

That was the last two nights, and I wouldn’t really consider Sunday a workout. I teach at my sons karate school and always tell the adults "Bring your Gi top" Four people showed up without them, so, I saw kettlebells laying on the side, guess what they had to do? Yeah, I loved it…. Well that’s until the ones that weren’t being punished wanted to do it.. LAME! I looked at that as an opening to get these guy really tired. I set up five stations that where only 30seconds a piece, and they where beat after that. I think I spent more time explaining and reshowing then they did working out. After that I was upset enough to let them spar with minimal input.

After all is said and done I think that I’ve been slacking sine Saturday. Friday I was pretty pissed off so I worked out extra hard, and that felt awesome! I’d like to do the same today, so, that’s the plan! The 16kg kettlebell I currently have is getting really light so I think it’s about time to move to the next setup, we’ll see, I may just slow everything down and force the muscle to work throughout the entire range….

Well lately I’ve been extremely stressed, mainly work, and the other day I came home from a particularly bad day when I got into it over the phone with my father. Parents…. Even when you’re a parent yourself they still boss you around. So, not noticing I got wise with him and I could tell in his voice he was upset. As soon as I tried to apologize it was already too late, he said, I’ll talk to you later and hung up. Needless to say I felt worse, so as not to take it out on the wife and kids, I did as I always to and separated myself to calm down.

My wife is pimp. She came up and said, what’s wrong, to seem upset. I told her what happened; she kissed my head, and told me come down when you are ready. I stared at the computer; angry for about a minute or so, then told myself, either you can do something about it or continue to sit here like a lump on a log. So, a few updates to the resume and I’m posting away. That doesn’t help, well, no wonder; I’m still focused on what’s got me upset; so after 30 minutes or so I decided to work out. I must have done about tow hours of kettlebell workouts, then decided to stop. The combination of adrenaline, fatigue, music, and my wife & son popping there heads in really helped. After I was done, took a shower, grabbed the boy and sat down with the family to watch TV.

The thing that bothers me a lot is when I’ve got a lot of BS on the brain, training suffers. I’d like to say that it doesn’t but it does. Being upset all take takes a lot of energy, lets not even start with the loss of appetite. I know that throughout the day I’m going to have my moments that cheer me up, but, I’m worried that my performance is going to suffer. Jiu-Jitsu is like chess with the ability to break bones, the last thing you want it to be off your game. The chances of you getting hurt as not as high as the chances of you hurting someone, so it’s a concern, but at the same time, it’s days like this where I sometimes focus more. All and all, the rain, and the ****ed vibe at work aren’t making the hours tick faster.

Well that’s my pitty party for the day. Training is going to be just what the doctor ordered…

I don’t know what it is, but lately I cannot get enough sleep! My body is not tired, I just want to sleep. I don’t know if this has to do with calorie intake or boredom, but it’s annoying the pants off of me.  The only change that I’ve made is no more BCAA’s, but that should make me as tired as I’ve been, so I’m at a loss. The food intake is still good, and when I’m not at work I’m a ball of energy, except last night in class. I could have fallen asleep sitting on the floor and been perfectly ok with that. Maybe one of those weeks.

Other then that tonight is K-Bell night, so that’s going to be fun. Still trying to figure out how to work the lower abs without hanging off of something… Any suggestions?

Ok the day is about 22 minutes from over and I still want to read the blogs, but damn if my mental capacity for reading is not there….. Sucks because I get like 1/2 in to it and wooooooooooooooooooooooonder… Hey mind get back her….. yep, it’s Tuesday…