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I finally talked my husband into joining the gym with me. Woo-Hoo!

We worked out over the weekend, then signed him up Monday night. I’m way excited about this. I’ve been going for around a year now, and every time I give up, it’s due in part to guilt for being away from home. (The rest is due to be lazy and not motivated enough )

That’s another hurdle jumped now, though. I won’t feel guilty for being at the gym w/o him because if he isn’t there, he should be.

After he signed up Monday night was my best workout yet. I actually got to stay long enough to do my full leg routine, abs, and cardio. An actual hour of cardio.

This is awesome, and I’m way pumped.

Between working out in the evenings with him, cardio every morning with my girls, and the occasional opportunity to pop in during lunch hour, I think I can feel myself losing weight. LOL

The other great benefit is that hubby has a family history of early heart-attacks. I want to help him do anything he can to avoid that fate, ‘cuz I want him around forever. (Well, a long time anyways.)

Now, I just need to think about supplements….

HaHa - not really hooked on drugs. Just found out that my doc. & my fam. have decided it’s not a good idea for me to get off the anti-depressants which are contributing to my ever-increasing weight. Aren’t they supposed to make you feel BETTER? Maybe weight gain should not be a side effect! If anyone reading this has anything to do with developing new meds, keep that thought in mind!
HAHA

Anyways, I’ve really been slacking. I’m at my heaviest ever weight of 241 pounds!

I’m on here soaking up all the motivation I can and I’m starting all over fresh in the morning.

Diet, exercise, everything. I may have to keep starting before I really stick to it, but I’m going to keep trying until I get it right.
If I can’t come off of the meds, I’ll just work twice as hard.
Something has to give, and it’s going to be me. I’m going to give more and more until something works.

So there you go. I WILL NOT give up! I CAN win!

Drugs, be darned!

Well, as far as doing what I have set out to, it’s been a good several days since I last got to write. As far as getting closer to my goals….. ugh!
I’m starting to finally realize that I probably can’t combat the weight gain from my medicines. I keep reminding myself that even if I am gaining even more weight, I’m still improving my health.
It’s really discouraging to follow a hard diet and work out five days a week when I’m still gaining. My buddy that I work out with is dropping weight like crazy, and I’m still just getting fatter and fatter. The thing is I am doing everything she is. Plus, I’m working out at night with my husband, too. Granted what I do at home isn’t real intense - mostly crunches and jumping roping. But, jeeze……

Anywho, that’s my pout for the week.

I am going to keep following my diet, and I am going to keep working out. I’ excited that I have gotten my mindset right about working out.

My puppy had to spend the night in the animal hospital sunday night. (She got poisoned somehow????) I was worried sick about her. I called them so much they knew my number. They’d answer the phone and go "Yes, honey your baby is okay."
But - that’s not related to this blog. My point is this - Monday, I couldn’t go to the gym because I had to drive to a town about an hour away (yes I live in the country!) to pick her up. It made me all fidgety because I didn’t get to work out. I like that I have finally set my mind that I cannot miss workouts.

Now, I just have to keep hanging on, even though I’m getting fatter and fatter. I get to get off of this medicine in a little over two months. I know that when I come off of it, I will be able to lose the weight. I will already have my lifestyle set. So, no matter how discouraged, I am still going to carry my fat self to the gym, and I am not going to stuff my face with cake!

Whew —– hope everything is going great for eveyone!

Remember - "All who are among the living have hope" Ecc. 9:4

I’ve done pretty badly with my diet so far, so here’s what I think I will do. I got bogged down for two main reasons:

I really love the food on a clean eating diet - so I over-eat.
I don’t take the time to plan and pre-cook food.

So, here’s what I (and my husband is joining me) am going to do:

I’m going to plan two menus.
They will be cheap, and require little cooking (protein shakes, tuna fish, etc.)
Then, I am going to eat those two menus every other day for six weeks. No cheating, no options, no excuse for failure except a lack of willingness. If I don’t do it, I have only one thing to blame. My own lack of motivation.

I can shop on Sunday, and he and I can spend the afternoon preparing a week’s worth of meals. No "I’m not in the mood for that, what else can we do?"

I’m trying to learn to think of food only as fuel, and not as a sensual pleasure. That’s the only way I can conquer my bad eating habits, and I am GOING to conquer them.

Any suggestions on planning these menus? Seriously, any suggestions are appreciated.

(Please don’t rain on my parade - if you think it’s dumb, that’s cool. But, I think it will really help me. I’m not necessarily planning to lose weight during this time - See my last blog, haha)

Hope you guys are having a great day!

So, my doctor prescribed three new medications last month. Each one had a warning label about gaining weight. Beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. Here I am in the middle of trying to take control of my body, and here is another way to lose control of it, right?

So, I started taking the first med, and I was still losing for a little while. So, I thought "No big deal - I’m in the clear."

WHATEVER!

This past week I decided to step it up and workout more. I also have been trying much harder on the great diet I planned in the beginning and haven’t really stuck to.
Honestly, as far as my personal actions it was my best week so far.

And then it happened - my flipping body seemed to just explode!

Honestly!

I’ve gained major weight. (Like ten pounds) In less than a week. It’s not water weight, no it’s not muscle.
It’s freaking fat - my stupid pants dont even fit! (I’m wearing my husband’s khakis - Yeah, that’s business CASUAL.)

So, I;m supposed to be taking two other meds which I haven’t been taking. I’m going to start.
These are anti-depressants, which are supposed to work in a cycle. So, I’m all out of balance.

I expect to become even more like a young elephant in the coming days.

Yuck!

I asked the doctor about avoiding the weight loss (she knows my gym and eating habits) she suggested going out of state to one of those doctors who prescribe weight loss pills.
UGH!
I will not pump more and more chemicals into my body. I mean, Come On!

So, there’s my rant.

Here’s what I have decided, though -
In three months, I get to quit all of the meds.

So, in the mean time, I’m going to throw away the scale, break out my fat pants, and keep on trying.

When I get off of the meds, I will have a great foundation, and hopefully the things that I am working to do now will be more of a habit. Then, I’ll try to lose the old weight and the new. Plus, even if I’m getting fatter, I have to at least be helping my heart!

I WILL NOT BE BEATEN! I can do this - No excuses, No Limits!

Okay - Got back from the gym a little while ago.

I can’t believe I made it through chest day without wimping out at all. Yay!
I’m not even very sore, I wonder if it’s time to step up the weight…
This is the first time I’ve completed chest day without the urge cry. I’m beyond excited.

Nutrition hasn’t been great today, but not horrible. I’ve basically had meal replacements all day. Oh - I had a Chocolate Banana Crunch Muscle Milk protein shake at the gym. They crush ‘em up with lots of ice and skim milk —- it was soooooo good! Just like a milkshake - without the guilt.

I can’t wait to see results, but I am so psyched that I am FEELING results!
My husband says there’s been a very positive change in my attitude. I’m glad that it’s noticable to others, because I can tell.

I took vacation on Thurs. & Fri. It was so fantastic! I haven’t had a vacation day that I got to just enjoy since I started my working life! It’s usually doctor’s appointments, serious errands, etc…. Last vacation day that I took I spent sitting in the Social Security office for 5 1/2 hours waiting to change my last name after getting married.

So, I am rested, relaxed, and excited!

That said, it wasn’t a great weekend for fitness. I just couldn’t make myself drive 45 minutes to go to the gym. I did go on Thursday, and I got the GREATEST workout. But Fri, Sat & Sun I didn’t do much useful.

I did do some cardio at home, and got some real exercise trying to bathe and brush two of my dogs. (Who are huge, and not very tame.)

I also took time to lay out. I haven’t tanned since I was in college. I’m not comfortable enough w/ my body to even wear a bathing suit in the light when I am alone! But, I’m starting to get more comfortable with myself. I stretched out in a hammock, and got some much needed R&R , AND I have the beginning of a tan to show for it! Yay!

So, after a weekend which was not so good for fitness, I am ready to get back on it with a vengeance!

I WILL work out every single day this week. No excuses, No limits!!!

Hope you guys are all doing well!

Okay, I’ve only been hard at it for a couple of weeks. Not the most disciplined couple of weeks either.
However, some of my "skinny pants" are starting to fit, and there seems to be a 6 lb. loss on the scale. Is that at all possible?
I know it is probably just "water weight," but I am psyched none the less.
Woo-Hoo.
I’ve got on a pair of jeans that would normally make my eyeballs bulge.
I’ve done pretty good on my diet all weekend. I made a chicken soup with fat free stock, chicken breasts, barley, green beans, onions, bell peppers, and lots of seasonings this weekend. That has made it easier to eat well. The soup is decently balanced between carbs and protein, and I would think barley is a pretty decent grain to be eating. Now I can just grab a bowl when it’s time to eat.
Well, I’m psyched, motivated, and off to the gym!
(Am I really excited about doing chest?) Wow!
Hope you guys are doing great!

Okay yesterday was my all-time worst work-out, which completely peeves me since legs are my favorite day! I guess I was actually sick on Monday (&yesterday, apparently).
I did about 20 min. of cardio, with intentions to do another 40 after weights. I wanted to hit the weights, because the competitive builders at my gym usually also do legs on Tues. night. I like to finish ahead of them, so I’m not in their way.
Anyway, I get four sets of leg presses in, then start on squats. By the end of the third set, I can feel my heart pounding on both sides of my neck. Then I start seeing spots. I walked carefully to the locker room and ended up spending some quality time with the carpet. It was like I couldn’t blow my breath out. I could breathe in, I just couldn’t release. I wanted to throw up like nobody’s business, but I couldn’t get out of the floor. The whole thing lasted about ten or fifteen minutes, I think. I don’t think I ever went out cold, but I’m not really sure.
My friend brought me some bottled water, and was wanting to drive me home or whatever.
I got to the car, with a serious amount of shaking. By the time I drove half way home I was fine. And mad. I missed over half my workout, and felt fine a few minutes later.
What gives?
So far, this has been a terrible week for working out.
My husband has made me promise not to do any kind of weight training until I talk to my doctor. I think the doctor is going to think I’m crazy. Why call her? I’m fine now.
Anyways…. there’s my daily rant.
On the positive side, I’m wearing a pair of slacks today that haven’t fit in AGES. LOL
Hope everyone’s having a great day.
If anyone reads this who has also fainted, please give me a clue if you know what’s going on!

I got my cardio and crunches in yesterday morning before work. I typically do weights at lunch, but got pretty sick after I left the gym. I ended up leaving work at around 11 a.m., which is really odd for me. I’ve probably left work three times in the five years I’ve worked here. So, I missed weights altogether yesterday.
I did actually start feeling better around 3 or 4 in the afternoon. It’s beginning to feel like Fall here (temps in mid 80s) so I decided to get outside and at least move around a bit.
I dug a goldfish pond a while ago, and it’s been sitting there forgotten. I moved some large stones around it, and kept up a good sweat for about an hour and a half.
Then, I let my Rottweiler out of her pen for a while. I played "catch" with her, and put up a runner in the front yard so that she doesn’t have to stay in her pen all the time. (It’s a VERY big pen, I’m not an animal abuser, LOL!)
So, although I didn’t get back to the gym I did get in a lot of running and lifting, so I at least burned some calories.
However, now I need to do chest & legs today! Oh well, since it is two totally different areas, it shouldn’t be too bad.