prettyface’s BodyBlog

I followed my diet STRICTLY for the previous five or six days. Unfortunately, this weekend sent me into an emotional eating binge like nobody’s business. What IS that? Food makes nothing better - actually makes them worse. But for some reason when I cry I reach for a bag of cheese puffs instead of a box of puffs.

I didn’t gain, I just didn’t lose.

I’m just way bummed out in general. I won’t even go into all of it - but I don’t think my meds or my mind are quite strong enough lately!

I’m still trying to stay motivated but, ugh.

I called my husband to see what time we’re working out. He’s had a bad day and isn’t going to work out with me. So wish me luck. I’m going ….. that’s pretty much the whole plan.

I dunno…….   If anyone’s reading, thanks for listening.

Okay, this is just an odd little observation that I decided to write down.

Before I was around any bodybuilders I sort of expected the men to be pretty pig-headed. (I’m sorry but I just kinda did.) In all fairness, I’ve always been intimidate by female bodybuilders, and expected them to judge my rotund self as well.

I’ve been shocked at how horribly wrong I was about those things. The girls and guys are both sooo much more supportive than I would have thought. The men especially.

The male owner at the gym I go to usually comments when I have lost weight. So do some of the other guys. They also seem to pass out more support and compliments to all of the girls there than your average guy would. The people on this website are the same.

Most of the bodybuilders I have talked to in person and on-line give me a lot of support and credit for trying to get the fat off.

Whether you have given me support or other "big girls" who are trying to get it off, I wanna say thanks.

Okay I am starting a new diet today. Following an exact meal plan every single day except for dinner. I wrote it up, then asked the owner of my gym to check it out. She only had to tweak it a little (Yay!) She just added a banana and suggest a few more carbs. I’m sooo excited. I think that not leaving anything up to interpretation will keep me from messing up so much.  (i.e. "A burger wouldn’t be too bad - I DO need the protein - I won’t get ketchup. hahaha)
Seriously, though I am so very excited about this.
Without dinner (because that will change from day to day) I will have six meals totaling 81 Carbs, 128 protein, 29 fat (i think i need to cut that) 1 sugar and 1035 calories.
I went to the store last night and felt like a goob buying 5 dozen eggs, 20 cans of tuna, etc. I’ve done great today. I just hope this works!

The hubby and I did legs and chest last night - along with cardio.
I hate doing chest - it kills! I guess that probably means that I should keep working on it.
Fortunately, I LOVE the legs exercises. Also, my legs seem to show improvement quickly. I may be crazy but I already think my legs are a little firmer than they were last week.
The only thing I am worried about is that my legs are going to be huge. I guess I’ll worry about that later in when I try to detail and for now, just enjoy the fact that you can actually see muscle somewhere on my body!
Haha

If anyone is reading… how much can you control how your proportions work out? I hope I’m not ALL legs when I get through????

Happy day to everyone!

Two girls I work with and I organized a weight loss challenge through the newspaper we work for. Last year, we had 40 participants and the winner received $400 and a gym membership.
Yesterday and today are the weigh-ins. We had 33 people yesterday. I was psyched. We are here for four hours today, one down, three to go. Off the clock, too. And guess what? It’s coming a flippin’ flash flood. We haven’t weighed in the first person today!
I sure wish the rain would go away.
We charge everyone $10, but then the winner gets all of the money in the pool. I was hoping that we’d have at least more people than last year. I really am blaming the rain. I had to give myself a pep talk to drive in this stuff.
Anyway, maybe we can help keep the 33 people motivated. As long as we help one person, it’s been worth the effort!
It helps keep me motivated too. We run spreads in the paper with all kinds of information and recipes. The three of us girls blog and it runs in the paper with progress photos. There is some motivation for ya! You aren’t going to go buy a Big Mac when the girl behind the counter is gonna ask "Aren’t you on a diet?"

….. Hey, after I pouted I actually got to stop and weigh in some entries. WooHoo!

Wow, majorly sore this morning … in a very good way.

My husband (who recently joined the gym!) and I spent some serious time working out this weekend. Yesterday, we worked until the sweat on my shirt literally almost met in the middle. It was absolutely great - and I still feel good today, although my shoulders are a little mad at me.

I’m way excited about that, though. When I first started, doing chest and shoulders made me want to cry - literally. I’d be thinking all the way through every set "I may as well just go home."

Yesterday, I was able to increase my weight on every machine I do for those work-outs. Granted, it was only from 20 lbs. to 30, but hey, I’m improving.

My arms are starting to look more like arms than long marshmallows, too. I couldn’t be more excited.

I’ve always wished I could wear tank tops in the summer. By this summer, I may just be able to wear them without shame. (I had to admit it, but there are some things big girls just shouldn’t wear! LOL)

I think I’ve hit my breakthrough point, and I’m sooo excited to be on my way!

I finally talked my husband into joining the gym with me. Woo-Hoo!

We worked out over the weekend, then signed him up Monday night. I’m way excited about this. I’ve been going for around a year now, and every time I give up, it’s due in part to guilt for being away from home. (The rest is due to be lazy and not motivated enough )

That’s another hurdle jumped now, though. I won’t feel guilty for being at the gym w/o him because if he isn’t there, he should be.

After he signed up Monday night was my best workout yet. I actually got to stay long enough to do my full leg routine, abs, and cardio. An actual hour of cardio.

This is awesome, and I’m way pumped.

Between working out in the evenings with him, cardio every morning with my girls, and the occasional opportunity to pop in during lunch hour, I think I can feel myself losing weight. LOL

The other great benefit is that hubby has a family history of early heart-attacks. I want to help him do anything he can to avoid that fate, ‘cuz I want him around forever. (Well, a long time anyways.)

Now, I just need to think about supplements….

HaHa - not really hooked on drugs. Just found out that my doc. & my fam. have decided it’s not a good idea for me to get off the anti-depressants which are contributing to my ever-increasing weight. Aren’t they supposed to make you feel BETTER? Maybe weight gain should not be a side effect! If anyone reading this has anything to do with developing new meds, keep that thought in mind!
HAHA

Anyways, I’ve really been slacking. I’m at my heaviest ever weight of 241 pounds!

I’m on here soaking up all the motivation I can and I’m starting all over fresh in the morning.

Diet, exercise, everything. I may have to keep starting before I really stick to it, but I’m going to keep trying until I get it right.
If I can’t come off of the meds, I’ll just work twice as hard.
Something has to give, and it’s going to be me. I’m going to give more and more until something works.

So there you go. I WILL NOT give up! I CAN win!

Drugs, be darned!

Well, as far as doing what I have set out to, it’s been a good several days since I last got to write. As far as getting closer to my goals….. ugh!
I’m starting to finally realize that I probably can’t combat the weight gain from my medicines. I keep reminding myself that even if I am gaining even more weight, I’m still improving my health.
It’s really discouraging to follow a hard diet and work out five days a week when I’m still gaining. My buddy that I work out with is dropping weight like crazy, and I’m still just getting fatter and fatter. The thing is I am doing everything she is. Plus, I’m working out at night with my husband, too. Granted what I do at home isn’t real intense - mostly crunches and jumping roping. But, jeeze……

Anywho, that’s my pout for the week.

I am going to keep following my diet, and I am going to keep working out. I’ excited that I have gotten my mindset right about working out.

My puppy had to spend the night in the animal hospital sunday night. (She got poisoned somehow????) I was worried sick about her. I called them so much they knew my number. They’d answer the phone and go "Yes, honey your baby is okay."
But - that’s not related to this blog. My point is this - Monday, I couldn’t go to the gym because I had to drive to a town about an hour away (yes I live in the country!) to pick her up. It made me all fidgety because I didn’t get to work out. I like that I have finally set my mind that I cannot miss workouts.

Now, I just have to keep hanging on, even though I’m getting fatter and fatter. I get to get off of this medicine in a little over two months. I know that when I come off of it, I will be able to lose the weight. I will already have my lifestyle set. So, no matter how discouraged, I am still going to carry my fat self to the gym, and I am not going to stuff my face with cake!

Whew —– hope everything is going great for eveyone!

Remember - "All who are among the living have hope" Ecc. 9:4

I’ve done pretty badly with my diet so far, so here’s what I think I will do. I got bogged down for two main reasons:

I really love the food on a clean eating diet - so I over-eat.
I don’t take the time to plan and pre-cook food.

So, here’s what I (and my husband is joining me) am going to do:

I’m going to plan two menus.
They will be cheap, and require little cooking (protein shakes, tuna fish, etc.)
Then, I am going to eat those two menus every other day for six weeks. No cheating, no options, no excuse for failure except a lack of willingness. If I don’t do it, I have only one thing to blame. My own lack of motivation.

I can shop on Sunday, and he and I can spend the afternoon preparing a week’s worth of meals. No "I’m not in the mood for that, what else can we do?"

I’m trying to learn to think of food only as fuel, and not as a sensual pleasure. That’s the only way I can conquer my bad eating habits, and I am GOING to conquer them.

Any suggestions on planning these menus? Seriously, any suggestions are appreciated.

(Please don’t rain on my parade - if you think it’s dumb, that’s cool. But, I think it will really help me. I’m not necessarily planning to lose weight during this time - See my last blog, haha)

Hope you guys are having a great day!