Easier if I wasnt in love..
Sometimes I struggle with the two loves of my life. Number one obviously being my boyfriend of three years and number two my excersize routine and in turn myself. I am struggling to get to my goal by November. Hitting the weights, doing the cardio, planning the diet and preparing my food everyday and night. And its time consuming. I have been at the gym every night after my 12 hour workday. Yesterday I sacrificed the most comfortable, relaxing stolen moment of snuggling with my baby for 20 minutes, to go to a spin class and sweat til I felt like I might pass out.
I dont mind working for this. I love every second. But Mon-Fri I work from 7:30-5:30/6 not to mention the 1 hour commute each way and to not be able to come home and spend the few hours left in the day with Kevin has been my biggest opponent in terms of progressing. Then Saturdays, he’s working til 3:30 (I am also at the gym while he works) and we get sat night and sun morning together, until Sun dinner with his mother andback to work again. My body feels wonderful….my mind and heart is lonely. I guess food hasnt been the only sacrifice in order to be thin. I just hope I can reach my goal soon and not have to work AS intensely to maintain.
